It might sound insane, or maybe I'm just in my own world.. but Park Yoochun and Yong Junhyung... you've been here all along... (: My dreams seems sweeter and less nightmare thanks to you too.
Yeah. I guess, I'm more like a die-hard-fan. I could even thank my idols like this. Hard to make people understand, but I bet there might be fans out there that experience the same feelings with me.
Anyway.. bathed at 2 in the morning, and it's 5 am and I'm still awake. I guess that already explains how abnormal I am. Some issues came up into my mind and starts messing it up. Again. Though I do believed that one day my head might explode due to extreme tense which actually wasn't necessary to be even think about. I really do hope problems should stop from coming, but I guess, "There's no getting up without falling". I have to keep falling so that I'll learn to find the strength to get up back as a stronger person.
Sometimes, in life, we would always encounter those "misunderstand" moments with the people who are close to us, but I guess you can never blame them because they themselves are not perfect. But no matter what, humans have expectations on people. I do admit that I wished that the people around me could at least understand my feelings and situations, but on the other side might think the same way too. The different thing was how and what we want people to understand about us. Assumptions and early judgments are obviously unavoidable though. So what more can I say?
Sometimes I just felt like screaming out all the problems I had that no one ever knew, but what's the point of it? What has been done, is done. What for mentioning it again just to put it as an excuse? People would just say that's a lame excuse or somewhat ridiculous but of course, the people who do have that sort of thoughts wasn't aware that each humans in this world, has some way of handling their emotions, some way of things that would make them sad or angry. No one is the same. Just a little bit of consideration would really harm a person... is it?
*sigh* As I mention in my previous posts, for a million times, I really hate talking about sad things in my blog. It's supposed to be a happy blog.
My tense was reduced by watching Junhyung's fancams in YouTube and made myself listen to their songs over and over again. Besides that, I'm glad my family makes me feel really happy too. I guess it's true that family is the only ones that would never treat you differently no matter what happens. Amazing how God could create such a beautiful bond in this world.
I'll end this now. Maybe I shall doze off a bit. Goodnight.

I know it's been quite a while since you disappeared,
making me feel lonely and suffering from the thoughts of missing you,
but oppa... I'm glad you're doing okay. (:
I'm happy to see your spirit again.
P.S. Saranghae.
You still there for me.
Wherever there might be.
You're with me.
You've been here all along...
You still there for me.
Wherever there might be.
You're with me.
You've been here all along...