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Quotes of the moment.
"When you get tired, think back to days like this when you regretted it. Think of the days you treasure. Receive strength from it and live on."
-Shin Jihyun(49 DAYS)

"At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world. Some are running scared.. some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day.. others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good.. struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls -- and sometimes.. all you need is 1."

-Peyton Elizabeth Sawyer

"We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love." -Tom Robbins

"Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."
- Ida Scott Taylor

Peyton: That's what he writes. But what he says is a totally different story.
Haley: Sometimes people write the things that they can't say.

"Tree Hill is just a place somewhere in the world. Maybe it's a lot like your world, maybe it's nothing like it. But if you look closer, you might see someone like you. Someone trying to find their way. Someone trying to find their place. Someone trying to find their self. Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by. But that feeling's a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there. And that someone will find you."

— Lucas Eugene Scott
Music♪

IN HEAVEN BY JYJ
"Don't leave, don't leave.
Lies, lies.
Saranghae,saranghae."
Profile.



My name is Sherlene.
A girl who loves 동방신기 (DongBangShinKi) so much since 2005 but never met them even once. Even though they had been close to me a few times...
One day, I will. ;)
Music is my soul.
Take it away from me, takes away my life too.
One biggest weakness, once truly and faithfully in love, there's no more "I'll find someone better." Love is the only way that could lead her to become a complete idiot.


SPEAK NOW.♥

Friday, October 31, 2008
Hurm? @ 11:09 AM
I went to Neverland again today.
It felt so good. I feel so free. But there's this uncle came and ruin the moment. -__-
Anyway, I felt like sleeping there. Haha. I can't though.
My mind was free. I don't have to think about my problems there.
Now I'm at home. Back to reality.
I never hated my home. (: I love living here.
I just hate the reality.
The fact that I'm 18. -__- I feel old. For some reasons.
Hani would understand me.
I want to be born 2 years younger. Haha. Why? Ade lar..
I'm Weird. Okay okay.
I'm waking up now.
I'm gonna visit Neverland again.
Where's my Peter Pan? ;)
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Miduhyo @ 11:11 AM
...means Believe. Something like that. It's TVXQ's song though. A beautiful one. (:

Haih. I'm 18. How many times have I reminded myself that? I wonder what I really have to do at this age. More mature in handling things? Nah.. I'm childish. And still am. I don't want to grow up. >_<>Peter Pan exist. So that he could take me to Neverland. I don't want to be an adult. Adults can be really selfish and holds a lot of responsibilities and has to think a lot of problems. I want to be free from all that. Haha.. Am I childish enough?

Haih. Again. I'm 18. But then.. I wished I could solve things in a mature way. How? I don't know. I can't even help a friend. I can't even give good advices. I'm not having problems but people around me are. I want to help them, but I can't. Why? I don't know. I felt useless sometimes but thinking like that won't help anything though. Life is complicated. As times passed, you grow up. And there comes more responsibilities. You came to understand alot of things. And learn to solve things but some things are just too hard or can never be solved. Is it? When I was 16, my English teacher told me that I'm too young to understand about life. I guess that's true. But now.. I'm 18. Am I still.. "too young"?

I was once a pesimistic girl. Now.. I don't know. Optimistic? Really?
I don't know lar.. I just want.. to help people I love and make them happy.
Can I?


Oppa~ I want to make you happy too.
Cus' you made me happy every single day. ;)
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Happy Birthday Loo Yeong Shen. @ 3:05 PM
a.k.a. Loo Shy Shern. ;P

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Shy Shern,
Happy birthday to you.

-Sweet 16 already. ;D
-Hope you had a wonderful birthday.
-Smile always.Be happy.
-Go out more.
-Happy Happy HAPPY Birthday, (:
In My Room @ 1:52 PM


In My Room
by SHINee


translation


I close my eyes in this sleepless night
And you dance in my thoughts.
I get so angry at myself, I knew nothing,
So I turn on the lights and look around my room
The place where my eyes are faintly placed on
is where I placed the birthday present I didn't throw away
and everything else I have of you

Cause you were my sun, the moon
You were my everything and
Everything in my room seems to miss you
If I get tired putting myself in harms way to find you
and forget for a moment
our hidden memories still linger
cause you're still in my room

Wandering the sea of life, all the lost dreams
are in the corners of my desk drawers,
and you were hidden within them
A picture of you I found in a box, under a layer of dust
A love letter filled with my young heart
and everything else I have of you

Cause you were my sun, the moon
You were my everything and
Everything in my room seems to miss you
If I get tired putting myself in harms way to find you
and forget for a moment
our hidden memories still linger
cause you're still in my room

Even if I throw it away,
again and again
I want to call you
and see you smiling in front of me
I want to keep you right here

Cause you were my sun, the moon
You were my everything and
Everything in my room seems to miss you
If I get tired putting myself in harms way to find you
and forget for a moment
our hidden memories still linger
cause you're still in my room

romaji

[Onew] jamdeuljee anhnun bameh nuneul
gamah geunyeorul ddeoohlreendah
ahmugeotdo muhlrahtdeon naegah
neomu meewoseo
buhleul keegoh bangeul duhlreobundah

[Jonghyun] hweemeehageh bahlahooneun
duh nunee meomchun goht
beoreejee mothaetdeon saengsheelseonmuhl
keureego neo
keu mohdeun geot


[All] Cause you were my sun, the moon
nae jeonbuyeotdeon neo
nae bangeh eetneun modeun geotdeulee neol keureeweohanabwa
neol weehae chatdah jeechyeoseo
neol jamshee eejeodoh
[Onew[ sumgyeonoheun uhreeye chueogee
[Jonghyun] gadeuk namah cause you're still in my room

[Jonghyun] salmeerahneun badahreul
hehmaedah eehleohbeoryeotdeon kkumdeulee
[Key] guseokguseok nogaheetneun
chaeksangseorab geu sogeh
sumgyeonohgoh eetdeon neo

[Onew] meonjee ssaheen sangjah sogeehn
baraejeen sajeengwah
eohreen mamee damgeen pyeonjeedeul keu
reegoh neo
keu modeun geot

[All] Cause you were my sun, the moon
nae jeonbuyeotdeon neo
nae bangeh eetneun modeun geotdeulee neol keureeweohanabwa
neol weehae chatdah jeechyeoseo
neol jamshee eejeodoh
[Onew[ sumgyeonoheun uhreeye chueogee
[Jonghyun] gadeuk namah cause you're still in my room

[Onew] beoreegoh ddo beoryeodo geeohgeun
[Key] neoreul dashee buhlreo nohgo
[Jonghyun] nae apeh anhaseo
uhtgoh eetneun neoreul eegoteh
gahduryeo hahneundeh

[All] Cause you were my sun, the moon
nae jeonbuyeotdeon neo
nae bangeh eetneun modeun geotdeulee neol keureeweohanabwa
neol weehae chatdah jeechyeoseo
neol jamshee eejeodoh
[Onew[ sumgyeonoheun uhreeye chueogee
[Jonghyun] gadeuk namah cause you're still in my room

credit ; fish1230 @ Shinee Baidu

hangul

잠들지 않는 밤에 눈을 감아
그녀를 떠올린다
아무것도 몰랐던 내가 너무 미워서
불을 키고 방을 둘러본다

희미하게 밝아오는 두 눈이 멈춘 곳
버리지 못했던 생일선물 그리고 너
그 모든 것

Cause you were my sun, the moon
내 전부였던 너 내 방에 있는
모든 것들이 널 그리워하나봐
널 위해 찾다 지쳐서 널 잠시 잊어도
숨겨놓은 우리의 추억이
가득 남아 cause you're still in my room

삶이라는 바다를 헤매다 잃어버렸던 꿈들이
구석구석 녹아있는 책상 서랍
그 속에 숨겨놓고 있던 너
먼지 쌓인 상자 속엔 바래진 사진과
어린 맘이 담긴 편지들 그리고 너
그 모든 것

Cause you were my sun, the moon
내 전부였던 너 내 방에 있는
모든 것들이 널 그리워하나봐
널 위해 찾다 지쳐서 널 잠시 잊어도
숨겨놓은 우리의 추억이
가득 남아 cause you're still in my room

버리고 또 버려도 기억은
너를 다시 불러 놓고
내 앞에 앉아서 웃고 있는
너를 이 곳에 가두려 하는데

Cause you were my sun, the moon
내 전부였던 너 내 방에 있는
모든 것들이 널 그리워하나봐
널 위해 찾다 지쳐서 널 잠시 잊어도
숨겨놓은 우리의 추억이
가득 남아 cause you're still in my room

note: the song in my blog is the remix version.
To listen to the original version of In My Room, here
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x7nLNlijwY8
Monday, October 27, 2008
Yes or No? @ 11:31 AM
I'm bored. That's why I'm posting about this. X)
Cut my hair? Yes or No?


The last time I had long hair is when I was 13. Since then, I keep cutting my hair. XD
But it's really long now, I just realised. Should I cut it or not? O_o; Cus' once I cut it usually it's gonna be really short. Maybe shorter than Hani's. hurm..Cut or not? Cut or not?







If I cut......


hahaha.. It will be like this. ;)

To cut or not? Anyone? Yes or No? (:
First time in history.. @ 9:45 AM
...the F4(flower girls) visits Shuhada's house for Hari Raya. X)
They are Izzah da' extreme driver, Hani with her new hairstyle, Rina with her asam & Lene. ;P


Does pink suits me? >_<
Do I look like a Malay? :D

Starting with me going to Hani's house about 12 pm. Then, Izzah and Rina came. Yeap, Izzah drives. And before I even ride on the car with her for the first time, I had already seen how scary her driving skills are. I was like.. "Okay. I'm dead." >__<
She was hyper. Came out from the car screaming, "HANI!!!" and when she saw me she goes, "SHERLENE~!!!!" O_o; Believe it or not, this girl was once a quiet and innocent girl. Before she met us. :P That's Izzah.
While eating, we had some girl talk. Yeap. About whatever happens in each other's school/college. *coughs*bout*coughs*guys*coughs*
Izzah screams again. O_o; While taking picture with Rina.
The food was yummy. X) Hani tipu! Ko cakap lemang tu ko yg bakar!
Then we took pictures!


Rina & Izzah
The beauties from Sunway & SeGi college.


Lene.Izzah.Hani.Rina
Flower girls. XD

Then, for the first time, I experience Izzah's extreme driving skill that nearly killed me because of heart attack. -__- Rina recorded a few minutes of our moments in the car and the video sounds damn noisy. Haha.. Can see how loud it is when 4 girls are in a car. ;P Took pictures again.


Rina
Mrs.Hafiz. ;D


Lene & Hani
the paedos. :D

We safely arrived Shuhada's house. XD And Rina bought asam cus' she has morning sickness. :P I was eating the asam alot too. Yeap. We both gonna have babies. ;) You don't have to know who's the father.


We found Shuhada! YAY~!


Rina & Hani


Lene & Izzah
Guess who's Chinese and who's Malay.


Friends potrait (:


Shuhada.Lene.Hani.Izzah.Rina
I <3>

Thank you Shuhada for the food especially the lovely chocolate cake.Yum! <3
We were really noisy and recorded again. Hani did a few cute acts and she even did a silent-swear in the video. Hahaha.. The video shall not and never ever be released to public. It's only for us. ;D
Oh yea. R.I.P. to one of Shuhada's fish. It was still "swimming". Maybe the fish got shocked by Izzah's voice. XD
And so.. after that the flower girls headed to One Utama. Yeap. XD

Me and Rina bought more asam and ate it in the car. This time, Hani sat at the front sit. -__- Guess what. She was telling Rina to stop disturbing Izzah while she's driving. And she was poking Izzah!! Omg Hani. You want us to get killed is it!

At OU...


Radioactive had SALE!
-__- Me & Hani didn't bring enough money. Ergh!


Hani takde duit, tgk jer la Izzah dgn Rina shopping. XD

This happens when one person bought one hat.

Hani


Rina


Lene (my hair so long. O_O;)


Izzah (the owner)


Everyone wants to try it on. ;D Moving on......


They are MY beautiful friends. (:


In the fitting room. X)

and lastly...the most exclusive picture. Muahahahahaha....


PM me if you want the bigger version of this picture. ;P

Don't you think she looks like...


Taemin from SHINee. X)
Adorable-ness!<333

*runs away from Hani*
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Tired. @ 1:35 PM
Today I'm kind of exhausted.
2 hours on P.A. paper, what I did was, 1 hour finished the questions, 1 hour I slept.
The same thing happened during MUET.
I need MORE sleep.
Yea, I'm a pig. Got a problem with that?

I'm tired of liking you. But I still want to like you. Funny right?
I felt sad, I want to avoid you but avoiding you makes me feel even worst.
I'm confused. I want to be happy, ignoring my feelings for you. I can't. Why?
I hate you because I like you. X) Weird huh?
Omg. I'm crapping too much.

16 August 2008 is a date that I would never forget.
I'm weird, whatever.
Okaeri. @ 1:25 PM

song title: Okaeri(Welcome Home)

singer: Ayaka

WELCOME HOME

welcome home, sweet home
a place to go home to yeah
thanks for your love

pretending to be alright again
to paint out the color of sadness
i just laugh it off

the importance of believing
even if i understand it
well, there are times when i still doubt

times when my empty body
just flows by
it makes me want to just lie down, but
i just want to hold you
this feelings stab thru me so i can move on

welcome home, im home
with one word my heart is satisfied
welcome home, where love
has a place to go home to yeah
thanks for your love

i used to believe adults think
only of themselves and they are cunning
but there are people desperately trying to go back
even screaming out loud
i finally realized that

there's is no such thing as
one natural happiness in this world
for your sake i was able to realize that
by carrying this feelings i can move on

welcome home, sweet home
accelerating the speed of everyday
welcome home, im home
there will always be this unchanging scenery
sweet home

search for the missing
wound in your heart
thing that made me fight and go on
was because there was a "welcome home"

welcome home, im home
with one word my heart is satisfied
welcome home, where love
has a place to go home to yeah
thanks for your love

welcome back, im home
it's alright because you are here
welcome back, sweet home
keep waiting, because i'm arriving soon
sweet home

oh yeah
welcome back…sweet home

OKAERI

okaeri sweet home
kaeru bashou yeah
ai wo arigatou

mata heiki no furi wo shite
kanashimi no iro wo nuritsubushite
waratte shimau'n desu

shinjiru koto no taisetsusa
wakatteru no ni iza to iu toki
utagatte shimau yeah

karappo no karada
nagareru toki ni
fuiteshimaisou ni naru kedo
anata no koto dakishimetai
kono kimochi ga tsuki ugokasu no

okaeri im home
hitogoto de mitasareru kokoro
okaeri sweet home
kaeru bashou yeah
ai wo arigatou
sweet home

jibun no koto bakkari wo
kangaeru otona wa zuruin da to
omotteitan desu
demo hisshi ni kaeru koto wo
sakenderu hito mo iru'n da
yatto shitta'n desu

atarimae no shiawase nanka
kono sekai ni hitotsu mo nai
anata no tame, sou omoeta
kono kimochi katsugi ugokasu no

okaeri im home
supiido ga kasokushiteku mainichi
okaeri sweet home
kawaranai zutto aru keshiki
sweet home

sagashite nakushita
kokoro no kizu ga
tachimukau tsuyosa ni kawareta no wa
"okaeri" ga atta kara

okaeri im home
hitogoto de mitasareru kokoro
okaeri sweet home
kaeru bashou yeah
ai wo arigatou

okaeri im home
daijoubu anata ga iru kara
okaeri sweet home
mattete ne mou sugu tsuku kara
sweet home

oh yeah
okaeri…sweet home

Friday, October 24, 2008
Amitabha. @ 1:07 PM
My patience is limited. Because of..

Firstly, You! The person I like, I just want to say.. "Ouch."
Then,
You! Stop blaming me for things I didn't do!
You! Stop talking behind my back to my friends!
You! Stop avoiding me! I'm not a stone okay!
You! Stop being so blind!
You! Ergh. I don't know lar.

*takes deep breath* I have to believe in myself to go through all these.
And I still have my lovely oppas by my side to cheer me up. (:
They are..

Yunho appa

Jaejoong umma

Yoochun oppa

Junsu oppa

Baby Changmin


As usual Micky is the HOTTEST. Shut up Ashwin. He's your appa. (:
The best appa of all the appas. X)

Ash and I came up with new names.

Ash said my blog is DBSK-ist.
So, I said I'm having DBSK-ism.

Conclusion? DBSK is the LOVE. <3
Btw, this is for Ash. XD Yunho is HOT. But Micky is the HOTTEST. (:

I love this picture though. ^-^ Sweet smile~
Micky has the sweetest smile though. ;P
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Weird. @ 11:45 AM
1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state the rules clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!

1) I'm a chinese that looks like Malay and talks like a Malay.
2) I can't speak chinese.
3) Recently, younger guys attracts me. O_o; (paedo alert!)
4) I want to be a music composer but I don't even know how to read music notes.
5) I can change my mood easily just by listening to music.
6) I cry easily. -__-
7) I know everything about sex since I'm 11. O_O my god.
8) Guys I like, never likes me back. :D
9) I'm blinded easily when I'm in love.
10) Loves everything that's cold. (snow,ice-cream,cold drinks,winter,etc...)
11) My name is so weird that I don't know which is my surname and which is MY name.
12) Always wanted to be a Korean,live in Korea and married with a Korean guy.
13) Can fall deeply to a guy just because of a small/stupid matter.
14) Seeing half-naked guys right in front of me makes my heart beats fast. O_o;
15) Guys with masculine arms(even if it's a little only) makes me go, "OMG. He's HOT!"

10 people to be tagged are

- Wee Nee Angeline
- New Jesica Ling
- Arif Fahim
- Loo Yeong Shen
- Emma
- [anonymous]
- [anonymous]
- [anonymous]
- [anonymous]
- [anonymous]
- [anonymous]
Whatever they say... @ 10:03 AM
WHATEVER THEY SAY by TVXQ

Translation
[All]
I don't care what everybody says

(Hero)
Baby Girl, You are my lucky one
Out of all the many people, you and I are the most similar to each other
(Xiah)
But everyone wants us to break up
Oh, If this is realty, then don't believe in destiny

*(All)
Whatever they say, don"t listen girl
All they're doing is being envious of us
I just hope you will believe in whatever I tell you
Whatever they say, I don"t care, I love you
(Hero)
I can't lose you, its so hard

(Uknow)
Baby, I don't know what to say
I just have to tell you that my heart will never change
(Micky)
People just want us to compromise with the world
(Hero) If that will make me lose you, then I will go against the world

*(All)
Whatever they say, don"t listen girl
All they're doing is being envious of us
I just hope you will believe in whatever I tell you
Whatever they say, I don"t care, I love you
(Xiah) I can't lose you, its so hard

(Max)
I wanted to let you go just for your benefit
But the love and trust you've shown me gives me courage

*(All)
Whatever they say, don"t listen girl
All they're doing is being envious of us
I just hope you will believe in whatever I tell you
Whatever they say, I don"t care, I love you
(Xiah) I can't lose you, its so hard

*(All)
Whatever they say, don"t listen girl
All they're doing is being envious of us
They are different from us so they will never understand us
Whatever they say, I don"t care, I love you

(Xiah) I can't lose you
(Micky) Baby girl, you are my lucky one

Romanisation
[All]
I don't care what everybody says

[Hero]
Baby girl guden naui hengunijyo
Gu manhun saram jung nall gajang galmun gunyorul

[Xiah]
Hajiman saramdurun uri kuthnagimanul barajyo
Oh ige juojin hyonshiriramyon unmyong tawin midji marayo

[All]
Whatever they say don't listen girl
Uril jiltuhal punijyo
Nega marhan modun jinshildul gudeman midojugil baral punijyo
Whatever they say I don't care nol saranghanungoryo

[Hero]
Guderul irhul su obso himdulge haneyo

[U-Know]
Baby musun marul heya halji mollayo
Daman gudel wihan mamun byonhami obneyo

[Micky]
Irohge saramdurun sesanggwa tahyobhagil barajyo

[Hero]
Guge guderul ilhnun giriramyon
Nan sesanggwa madsogessoyo

[All]
Whatever they say don't listen girl
Uril jiltuhal punijyo
Soro darun mosubigie ihe hal su obnun antakaumpunijyo
Whatever they say I don't care nol saranghanungoryo

[Xiah]
Guderul irhul su obso himdulge haneyo

[Max]
Gudel wihe myot bonina nohajugo shiphojiman
Gudega boyojun saranggwa midumi nege yonggirujwoyo

[All]
Whatever they say don't listen girl
Uril jiltuhal punijyo
Nega marhan modun jinshildul gudeman midojugil baral punijyo
Whatever they say I don't care nol saranghanungoryo

[Xiah]
Guderul irhul su obso oh no don't leave

[All]
Whatever they say don't listen girl
Uril jiltuhal punijyo
Soro darun mosubigie ihe hal su obnun antakaumpunijyo
Whatever they say I don't care nol saranghanungoryo

[Xiah]
Guderul irhul su obso

[Micky]
Baby girl guden naui hengunijyo

Korean
작사 : Young-hu Kim,Daniel Roman
작곡 : Young-hu Kim,William Pyon
편곡 : Young-hu Kim

[All] I don't care what everybody says

[영웅] Baby girl, 그댄 나의 행운이죠 그 많은 사람 중 날 가장 닮은 그녀를
[시아] 하지만 사람들은 우리 끝나기만을 바라죠 Oh 이게 주어진 현실이라면 운명 따윈 믿
지 말아요

*[All] Whatever they say, don't listen girl 우릴 질투할 뿐이죠 내가 말한 모든 진실들 그대만
믿어주길 바랄 뿐이죠 Whatever they say, I don't care 널 사랑하는걸요
[영웅] 그대를 잃을 수 없어 힘들게 하네요

[유노] Baby 무슨 말을 해야 할지 몰라요 다만 그댈 위한 맘은 변함이 없네요
[믹키] 이렇게 사람들은 세상과 타협하길 바라죠
[영웅] 그게 그대를 잃는 길이라면 난 세상과 맞서겠어요

*[All] Whatever they say, don't listen girl 우릴 질투할 뿐이죠 서로 다른 모습이기에 이해 할
수 없는 안타까움뿐이죠 Whatever they say, I don't care 널 사랑하는걸요
[시아] 그대를 잃을 수 없어 힘들게 하네요

[최강] 그댈 위해 몇 번이나 놓아주고 싶었지만 그대가 보여준 사랑과 믿음이 내게 용기를
줘요

*[All] Whatever they say, don't listen girl 우릴 질투할 뿐이죠 내가 말한 모든 진실들 그대만
믿어주길 바랄 뿐이죠 Whatever they say, I don't care 널 사랑하는걸요
[시아] 그대를 잃을 수 없어 Oh no Don't leave
[All] Whatever they say, don't listen girl 우릴 질투할 뿐이죠 서로 다른 모습이기에 이해 할 수
없는 안타까움뿐이죠 Whatever they say, I don't care 널 사랑하는걸요
[시아] 그대를 잃을 수 없어

[믹키] Baby girl, 그댄 나의 행운이죠

creds: DBSKer Archives
Monday, October 20, 2008
Jealous? @ 12:39 PM
My heart felt something weird.
Looking at you with a girl.
I'm curious.
Trying to find out about that girl.
I realised a lot of things.
You and her has a lot in common.
You seem comfortable with her more than me.
Me and you, we're too different. Not just because of the age gap.
A LOT of differences.
I look at her, it's like she has everything.
But if she has your heart, I guess she really has everything.

Omg. O_o; Am I like.. J.E.A.L.O.U.S.? *bangs head to the wall"
This can't be happening.

TVXQ Mnet My Favourite 6th October 2008. (:

Hero Jaejoong


U-Know Yunho


Xiah Junsu


Max Changmin


and my ONE and only.....

Micky Yoochun

I shouldn't be jealous right?
I already have Yoochun oppa, that means I have everything too. ;P
Sunday, October 19, 2008
One-Way @ 11:52 AM
Have you ever gone the other way in a one-way lane? At first your very sorry so you want to turn back, but because people already misunderstood you, you just want to keep going till you get out. It's one or the other; get to your destination as fast as possible, or go back to where you were before.
-Han Ga-In from Sg Wannabe Paranman MV

I found it. I found the mickey 'guy'!
'He' was alone and I picked him up. I tell 'him',
"From now on.. I will always cherish you and take care of you with all my heart."

Like how I'm going to appreciate you. Yes you.
The person I'm having a crush on now.
It's ok if this is just a one-sided love,
cus' I'm going to cherish every moments I have with you for this 1 half years.

See.. I can still smile. (:

That's not all. I have amazing friends. Amazing family. If I were to die right now, I felt like it's such a waste to leave all these amazing people. Like what 'L' said in "L Change the World" before he dies,

"I want to live a little bit more in this world."

I guess.. most people would only realised and starts to appreciate the good things in their life when they knew they are going to die.

I don't want that to happen to me. I want to appreciate my life before I die. No matter how badly it might be, I will still search for my eternal happiness. Because I know, there's always be one. I will never give up. When I start to think how badly my life is, I would always think of those who are worst than me in this world.

I was once a girl who keeps thinking bad thoughts when I was 15, and thinks the whole world is against me. I guess, I'm tired. No, not that I'm tired of the world, I'm tired of my own self. It's not the world, it's actually me. I was actually making myself sad by being sad. Get it? That's why I'm changing myself. Like what Hani told me that day,

"I will never believe in those things. It's like believing in ghost. If you believe in it too much, they will disturb you and if you don't, they won't.
The same goes to feelings. If you keep believing in bad feelings, the feelings will keep disturbing you by making you sad and if not, it's the other way round."

I guess that's why Hani always looks happy. Eventhough she's sad, she overcomes it really fast. That's what matured about her. ;)

To my dearest beloved brother, Ash the budak kecik,
I know this won't make any difference. But.. if you hold on just a little bit more in this world, you will realised it yourself. That's all I could say.
Just remember, there's alot people that wants to help you and cares for you but..
No one or even myself can help you if you can't help yourself.

and Yeong Shen, I still felt bad bout it no matter what and will always remember it.
But, thanks for everything. (: I really appreciate it.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Tagged again by ASHWIN. @ 6:51 PM
Instructions

Bold the statements that are true to you. Italicize the statements that you wish were true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, stab 6 people to do the same test.

I'm 170cm tall.

I don't know what I want at the moment.

I'm not happy.

I hate my friends.

I hate my life.

I hate my grades.

He drives.

I'm bored of driving.

I have a white handbag.

I love dancing.

I go clubbing every week.

Shopping is bullshit.

I have a tattoo of a star.

I got my navel pierced.

I have friends that take drugs.

90% of my friends smoke.

I still hang out with my ex, even though our break up was rather nasty.

I'm studying Fashion.

I have a business running.

I hate cartoons.

I hate someone.

I have 10 Guess handbags.

I buy CLEO every month.

My parents don't know about my blog.

I have an iPod.

I don't have faith in the current "one".

My school mates know about my blog.

I wanted to be a fashion designer.

I love rock emo bands.

I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups.

I'm a rebel.

I'm starting to like wearing dresses.

I don't believe in love.

High school's filled with drama.

My parents have faith in me.

I've bought shoes this month.

A blogger bitched about me before.

I hate sports.

I heart Italian food.

I hate meeting new people.

I hate nail polish.

The mother bear gives me hugs.

People should start appreciating me.

High school was the worst time of my life.

I have red hair.

One Utama is my second home.

I'm a guy.

I'm scared of my Biology exam which I'm going to face tomorrow.

I hate vacations.

We'll last.

I believe in long distance relationships.

I'm going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.

I've robbed an old lady.

I'm starting to like applying make-up.

I was a tomboy.

At times I think I still am a tomboy.

I love bitching about people behind their backs.

I still have a best friend. ( I wish )

I have a cat.

I hate surprise parties.

I hate planning parties.

I'm hot.

I'm a sinner.

I've got a DS light.

I have a Wii.

I can live without music.

Video games are a waste of time.

I miss the father bear.

I love being in love.

I know how to cook.

I have 100% freedom.

Boys are assholes.

I hate Math.

I'm happy with what I have.

I love horror films.

I slept in my parents' room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.

My old friends keep in touch with me.

I don't read newspapers.

The news is such a waste of time.

Blogging is a waste of time.

I hate animals.

I can't live without make-up.

I curse like a pirate.

I'm happy with my 11 year old car.

I hate people that are smart. (I wish I do, but I can't)

I love Orange juice.

I can't drink for nuts.

I believe that everyone in their teens have lost their virginity.

I've got a new phone.

I'm going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month.

I love swimming.

I haven't worked out since March.

I think I'm fat.

I love my friends and family.

Lets stab : WeeN, Jesica, Yeong Shen, Arif, Emma, Hani (hani~get a blog!)
Alone. @ 5:22 PM
I hate buying things that are pairs. Why? Because it will end up becoming 'single'.
Why? Because the other one would be lost for I-don't-know-why.
If the thing 'wants' to be lost, at least be lost in pair! -__-
But NO... it seems as if one must be left alone.



The 'guy' mickey left the 'girl' mickey alone. :(
*cries*

*sigh* And I was just starting to cherish it.
Even the key chain representing the guy doesn't want to be with the girl.
Sorry to Hani & Ashwin, cus' I believed these kind of things too much. It's a curse. >__<


And i even represented that 'guy' mickey as him.
I guess, God is showing to me that.. "He doesn't like you."

So.. you'll never like me huh? ha-ha-ha..
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
If You Only Knew @ 3:41 PM
If You Only Knew
by Gil feat.The Moffatts

I`d give you everything, anything
If you`d be mine
I`d give the starts above, an` all my love
How can you be so blind, so blind
I`m going out of my mind
All the time for you, yes it`s true

If you only knew that I`m crazy for you
Then you`d understand
If I only knew what you`re going through
Then I`d understand

Now I know that I have no chance
Oh, to make you mine
But if I owned the world, you would be my girl
How can you be so blind, so blind
I`m going out of my mind
All the time for you, yes it`s true

If you only knew that I`m crazy for you
Then you`d understand
If I only knew what you`re going through
Then I`d understand

How can you be so blind, so blind
I`m going out of my mind all the time for you
Yes it`s true...

If you only knew that I`m crazy for you
Then you`d understand
If I only knew what you`re going through
Then I`d understand

You still don't get it huh?
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Satisfaction @ 5:03 PM
Humans are never satisfied because if they are satisfied, something will happen to ruin that satisfaction.
- Wee Vian Sherlene

I don't know what has got into me these days.
It felt like so many things had happen, actually it was nothing.
>__<>
And study more. X) Wait. I should take back that one.
I'm not the perfect girl who's pretty, clever, does house works and acts like a girl.
I'm normal in looks, lazy in studies, not clever nor dumb, acts like boys sometimes, too open-minded and cries easily.
-__- The last one still can't be changed.

I have dreams and I'm trying to make it come true.
I have a good & healthy family.
I have awsome friends that are always there for me.
The only thing I don't have is.. love?
It will always be the only thing I don't have. This one.. had never given me true happiness in my life yet. (-__-) Ruining my happiness only.

But still....
I should be satisfied right? (:
Friday, October 10, 2008
Love. Ai. Sarang. Cinta. @ 4:35 PM
I'll let the pictures tell my true feelings to you. Baka. Pabo
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creds: Jeff Thomas@azuzephre