Credits: I II III IV

Quotes of the moment.
"When you get tired, think back to days like this when you regretted it. Think of the days you treasure. Receive strength from it and live on."
-Shin Jihyun(49 DAYS)

"At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world. Some are running scared.. some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day.. others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good.. struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls -- and sometimes.. all you need is 1."

-Peyton Elizabeth Sawyer

"We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love." -Tom Robbins

"Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."
- Ida Scott Taylor

Peyton: That's what he writes. But what he says is a totally different story.
Haley: Sometimes people write the things that they can't say.

"Tree Hill is just a place somewhere in the world. Maybe it's a lot like your world, maybe it's nothing like it. But if you look closer, you might see someone like you. Someone trying to find their way. Someone trying to find their place. Someone trying to find their self. Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by. But that feeling's a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there. And that someone will find you."

— Lucas Eugene Scott

"Don't leave, don't leave.
Lies, lies.

My name is Sherlene.
A girl who loves 동방신기 (DongBangShinKi) so much since 2005 but never met them even once. Even though they had been close to me a few times...
One day, I will. ;)
Music is my soul.
Take it away from me, takes away my life too.
One biggest weakness, once truly and faithfully in love, there's no more "I'll find someone better." Love is the only way that could lead her to become a complete idiot.


Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Why oh Why? @ 11:55 PM
Hee. ;P Okay okay. I'm gonna go sleep after this. The award show is really long and kind of boring. Well, cus' there's not much Japanese singers that I know. And the camera doesn't show TVXQ much. I was wondering whether all of them are enjoying the show or turning like this > =__=; After waiting for so long, YAY! They performed! (: However, it's so obvious all of them look so tired. And when Jaejoong hits the high notes, it's like he doesn't have enough strength anymore. Omg. I'm just worried they might fall sick before even New Year comes. Even Hyori fell sick already and in hospital now. Poor girl. She's been working really hard for her concert. Oh! and FT Island's Hong Ki is in hospital too. Gosh. These singers need some break wey.TVXQ needs some rest too. I hope they all just went straight to bed after the show. They all look damn exhausted. Poor guys.

Omg. There are rumours saying
SHINee's Minho gonna be in SNSD's next MV. Eeeeikh! Habis lar. But, I'm looking forward to it though. ;P
ZOMG ZOMG! I think I'm gonna get a major sadness next year.

3rd Asia Tour Concert - “Mirotic”
SM Entertainment has announced the following concert to be confirmed.



Location and Dates:

- Friday, February 20, 2009 at 7 pm
- Saturday, February 21, 2009 at 7 pm
- Sunday, February 22, 2009 4 pm

Place: Seoul Olympic Gymnastics Stadium 1st Gymnasium

Ticket Prices:
STANDING 77,000 won
R seats ₩ 77,000
S ₩ 66,000 seats
Reservation dates:
For Friday, February 20, tickets will be available on January 7 at 8 PM
For Saturday, February 21, tickets will be available on January 12 at 8 PM
For Sunday, February 22, tickets will be available on January 15 at 8 PM

Tickets can be bought at ticket.auction.co.kr and for questions regarding the concert/booking there is also this phone number: (1566-1369).

credits: tvxqsoul , DNBN

It's happening! What I had expected!! I guess God still refused to let me meet TVXQ. TT_TT I was expecting this since they didn't have any concert this year. Cus' I don't have any important exams this year. Next year, I do. And I think they are going to have a concert in Malaysia next year. So yeah. The same thing is going to repeat like last year. Because of an exam, I couldn't go meet them. TT_TT Life is too cruel sometimes, I know. But this won't stop me from loving them. Don't care lar, if there's people that could go for all their 3 concerts in Malaysia, ONE DAY, I will promise myself and I believe, I will meet them. *determined* At that time, no one can stop me. Btw, I found this 'interesting' article.

Do freethinkers have meaning in life?

Freethinkers know that meaning must originate in a mind. Since the universe is mindless and the cosmos does not care,
you must care, if you wish to have purpose. Individuals are free to choose, within the limits of humanistic morality.

Some freethinkers find meaning in human compassion, social progress, the beauty of humanity (art, music, literature), personal happiness, pleasure, joy, love, and the advancement of knowledge.

oooooh. Interesting huh? Does that made me a freethinker? Sometimes, I think that the meaning of my life is my happiness which includes the things I have and adore now. My family, friends and TVXQ. Here's some more interesting things I found in that article.

Even a child knows to ask: "If God made everything, then who made God?"

Why should I be happy to be a freethinker?

Freethought is reasonable. Freethought allows you to do your own thinking. A plurality of individuals thinking, free from restraints of orthodoxy, allows ideas to be tested, discarded or adopted.

Freethinkers see no pride in the blind maintenance of ancient superstitions or self-effacing prostration before divine tyrants known only through primitive "revelations." Freethought is respectable. Freethought is truly free.

source: What Is A Freethinker?

Interesting. I like this article. Come to think of it, I'm close to becoming a freethinker, but I was raise up to believe in God. So, I guess I'm not. I believed in God and I do not opposed religions. Well..only the bad/negative things in that religion I would oppose. I'm still a Buddhism. (:

Moving on... was watching ONE TREE HILL in 8TV. Omg omg omg! Brooke and Lucas looks good together! I want them to be together! I love Brooke's character. She's like an ideal character to me. Lucas still loves her. I'm sure! Even though he has Lindsey. Omigosh. So sweet. I love them together. Suprisingly, I'm still interested in these kind of series. Last time, I was a big fan of Angel, Dawson's Creek, FRIENDS, Popular & Gilmore Girls. Yeap. Believe it or not, I watched all that. That's when I started to learn some things bout life from dramas. Of course, after that I move to Japanese and Korean dramas. Still. Series like One Tree Hill and The O.C. still got me interested in their storyline. Plus, those series are the reason I still think some white people are extremely hot. Example? Hee.

Weeee~ Chad Michael Murray. He's HOT. He's cute. He has beautiful eyes and a cute smile. Hee. Close to my type of guy. But.sorry, I have the guy I wanted already. :D

Micky + Max = The hot KISS couple. :D
Park Yoochun da' hottest, sexiest, cutest, adorablest, handsomest.
My one and only..guy. ;)
Arigatou. @ 7:55 PM
Watching the 50th Japan Record Awards live now. My oppa(s) haven't perform yet. And they are showing some old performances with singers that I don't even know. ^^; I was looking forward to watch any Japanese singers I know..but so far, I don't even know any of them. XD Gosh. I haven't been going crazy on Japanese songs for so long. Except Tohoshinki's songs of course. And also songs from dramas. :D Aigoo. Where is my oppa(s)? The camera didn't even show them. I missed the interview at the beginning though. Can't wait!! They are going to perform どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう? "Why Have I Fallen In Love With You?". My most favourite Japanese song by them! (:

Oh oh! I watched SHINee's performance in Gayo Daejun! Love like Oxygen, Amigo & Replay! Very HOT too! Jonghyun's voice is the looove! I can't deny it but Taemin looks extremely hot during the whole performance. ;P Oh! Should I go watch 2008 KBS Song Festival at 8.55 pm? Hurm.. There's Big Bang, Wonder Girls, Rain, Mc Mong and more. See lar first. No TVXQ, no feeling want to watch. ;P Haha. But they haven't appear in the Japanese award show I'm watching right now. I'll wait! X)
Oh oh! Bolero's is OUT! Tohoshinki's new PV! Go watch! They all look HOT. :D The song is really beautiful.

Hee. Seriously. Jaejoong is too adorable in this picture. And My Yoochun oppa! I think this is during their manager's wedding.

Oh oh! They are showing Namie Amuro! Love her! She's so pretty! X) She's performing~! Can't believe she's a 'mom' already. Wokay. Gonna go enjoy the show. Bye~! Oh! I don't have to work for tomorrow. ;D So, I'll stick at home and watch my oppa's countdown! (: Oh oh omo omo! I see W-inds next! wokay, Bye!

Wearing specs makes him look even cuter+hotter.
Oppa~~quickly come out and perform! I want to see you!
Gayo Daejun 2008 @ 5:39 AM
...wooooohooo! XD I'm still awake! Cus' I'm having the "Gayo-Daejun-Fever"! Was able to watch it LIVE online but half an hour late. -__-; Luckily I didn't missed TVXQ's 'ZOMG performance!' ;P So yeah, at 8 pm, I was completely frustrated thinking I won't be able to watch it at all. Then I gave it a try by downloading TVants and it's like damn slow! TT_TT More frustrated after that. The show started at 8.55 pm. Finally the download finished at 9.30 pm and I was waiting and waiting for it to load and.. YAY! :D However the starting, it kept buffering like alot of times and after a while, I can watch it like normal television! ;D (except the quality, not so good. But still can see their faces!)

So..started with Brown Eyed Girls' L.O.V.E., this song is addictive. (: Ga In is really pretty! I love her! X) After that is Son Dam Bi's Crazy, she's really cute to be sexy. ^^; Then..there was a moment when I squealed when I saw SHINee sitting beside Kim Jong Kook and in front of them was Big Bang. OMG. But my oppa(s) was no where to be seen. TT_TT Then, there's FT Island's performance. Ergh. I guess I missed SHINee's performance. Then, there's Big Bang's Daesung & Seung Ri mini drama with SNSD's Taeyeon & Yuri. Haha. Daesung is really cute! After that, I think, our han namja Kim Jong Kook's performance. Oh! Epik High singing 'Where is The Love' was definitely cool with Ga-In & Miryo. Then then! There's the YG performance. EXTREMELY COOL! As if they controlled the whole stage. They made me remembered back how much I looove hip hop music. :D Even the audience stood up and sing along. Oh oh! And there's WonderBoys! Kyaaa~~ Taemin!! Major cuteness! They sang SNSD's Kissing You & Wonder Girls' Nobody. Talk about Wonder Girls, their performance are 'smoking' too. O_o; I think they are wearing like a police/army outfit? Before that was like an old-American dress. They still look hot though. ;) Suprisingly, I haven't seen my oppa(s) until Junsu & Taeyang Piano performance! ZOMG! HOT HOT! I got this thing on guys that play piano. So yeah, Junsu was like stealing my heart for that moment. ;P Miane Yoochun oppa. Talk about hot, there was Rain's hot performance, 'I'm Coming' and 'Rainism'. I wished he sang 'Love Story' longer though. Then then! There's the DANCE BATTLE! Omg. Taemin Taemin! Sumpah HOT! X) And Yunho!! Wooohoooo! Go go appa! Don't want to talk anymore. There's my oppa(s) energetic+sexy+hot+++ performance+shocking ending. O_O; I was turning into a pervert for a moment. 'Wrong Number' and 'Mirotic'. Starting of Mirotic, Micky had made me go high with his deep voice saying, "Are you guys ready? This is what I'm talkin' about. So now what? You guys trying to teach us?! Hell no yeah!" Wooohoo. I'm always ready. His voice makes me go high!! ;P Oh oh! I love the dance they add up before Changmin showed his powerful voice! Omg. Major hotness! XD Here's some pictures of the awsome night. Get ready to have nose-bleeding moment Cassiopeians. X)

Hero Jaejoong
U-Know Yunho
Micky Yoochun
Xiah Junsu
Max Changmin
*drooling* ZOMG! ZOMG! ZOMG! They really got us under their skin this time. ;D Hee. And at last, Micky revealed a little! I want more more! ;P OMG. I'm turning into a pervert now. That's not gonna end like that. I'm sure there's looooots more of their photos. Will update again when I found more. X) Oh. Of course, you should go watch the performance. But, I think fancams are even better. So far.. there's:

Jaejoong's stripping fancam
Yunho's focus+stripping fancam

Hee. I'm sure
Hani's gonna put the Jaejoong's one in her phone and watch it ..*coughs*every night*coughs* Oh! did I mention I was like screaming like crazy when TVXQ's performance started? With my younger sister. I was actually recording the performance and during the ending, I was like.. "AAAAAAAH!!!" My sister missed it though. ZOMG. Damn HOT. My heart skipped. And still can't believed it that I watch it LIVE! My first time. I mean, I'm watching what they are doing right now, at that moment. I'm so happy. TT_TT Tears of happiness coming out. I guess they are going to head to Japan after this. Oppa(s)!! Gonna miss you!!!

That means, they are celebrating New Year in Japan, huh? Ah! Talk about New Year's Eve! Me? Just stay at home, countdown with the net and of course send New Year messages to my oppa(s) through their iples. (: Oh! In the morning, switched with Hani already, I'm gonna be at school selling books. XD Yeah. I'm working at the school's bookshop. Haha. Koperasi lar.. ;P

I love this guy, I love his smile.
Park Yoochun, I love you. ;)
Junsu & Jaejoong's message. @ 5:02 AM

Yeap. During the anniversary party too.A really good speech by Junsu. Junsu is really good in holding his tears too. *hugs* They have been working really hard. You can see it in their eyes. In front of the fans, they can still smile happily..trying to hide their hardships in this 1 year and 7 months. Guys.. you deserved every single reward you had now. (:

Jaejoong's message is extremely touching too. There are few of his words that really touched me.

"There was never a time when we were cursed at because of Cassiopeia? But I really hated it when Cassiopeia is cursed at because of us. I really hated it."

TT_TT Gosh. Look how caring he is towards his fans. And TVXQ, the reason Cassiopeia is cursed, is not because of you guys, but it's because of some of their acts that's too much.

"Sitting in front of me, you tell me that you will wait but I hate making you do so."

TT_TT Again. You don't have to tell us to wait you guys. I'm sure all of us will always wait for you guys no matter what.

"Truthfully, when one's favorite artist embarks comments like, 'Oh, you like that singer? How embarassing..' I became sad.."

TT_TT Omg. Jaejoong ah. You don't have to care those comments. We will always love you. And it's never an embarassing thing.

Amazing guys, huh? (: I know. I love them lots. And here's again. My crybaby.

Hee. (: I love him too much. I can never missed any single expression he made.

TT_TT oppa~~~ *hugs*
Let me be the one to wipe your tears forever. ;)
Tagged by WeeN @ 3:33 AM
1. Do you think you're hot?
- Yeah damn hot wey. Plus, the electricity was out in the morning yesterday. I was sweating like crazy. Lagi..global warming lar.. No wonder I'm hot.

2. Upload a favourite picture of you.

Love at first sight.. ;)

3. Why do you like this picture?
- Because this was when I first started to love TVXQ and had a crush on Park Yoochun. (:

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
- During a friend's birthday last month?

5. The last song you listened to.
- Mirotic by TVXQ :D

6. What are you doing right now besides this?
- Rewatch Gayo Daejun's performances inYouTube

7. What name do you prefer besides yours?
- Mrs. Park Yoochun. ;P

8. People to tag.
- Ashwin
- Arif
- Jesica
- Emma
- MizerRiyo
- Yeong Shen

9. Who is no.1?
- My son. :D With Yoochun. Big fan of Wonder Girls' Kim Yoobin.

10. No.3 is having relationship with?
- Still single and available. ;P

11. Say something about no.5.
- Was once a crazy Akira Kagimoto's fan. Still have a good handwriting eventhough she wrote it with full speed. XD

12. How about no. 4?
- My first friend from Australia. Friendly, outgoing person! Big fan of W-inds. And now also ONE OK ROCK. X)

13. Who is no.2?
- Arif Fahim. He looks quiet and serious, but then.. when you get to know him, ZOMG. Culture shock wey. ;P
Monday, December 29, 2008
Heaven's Postman @ 2:36 AM
Han Hyo Joo and Kim Jaejoong are confirmed to be co-stars in their upcoming drama. Jae will act as a messenger between the dead (who are in heaven) and their family and friends (who are still living). His character is very deep and mysterious.

Han Hyo Joo will act as a pure and innocent girl who lost her loved one but cannot forget him. However, after working with Jaejoong at the same job, she slowly falls in love with him. This episode of the mini-series is 120 minutes long, and the entire plot is a love story. About the kiss scene, the director says that in the drama "the two (Jae and HHJ) have mutual feelings for each other. During a beautiful sunset, one of them (not specified) says 'I want to kiss you', followed by a very touching kiss scene." They have rehearsed the drama seven times already, and Jaejoong's acting has improved significantly.

The drama is due to be aired May, 2009 on SBS.

source: fangirlmitz
credit: thelast_melody@LJ
translated by: cartoongirl7@soompi + heads-up

Muahahaha. XD I want to see the kissing scene. Damn romantic wey! During a beautiful sunset! Plus, Han Hyo Joo is really pretty. O_o; Lucky Jaejoong. And lucky her too cus' Jaejoong is HOT. I'm looking forward for his kissing skills. ;P

note:pictures from EUL magazine.

The big, open sky.
The sky that is like the never ending ocean.
On that green strip of grass, there stood a red mailbox.
There, is where words can be delivered - that is they said.
A mailbox stood in a vast plain of grass.
That mailbox is the legendary mailbox which can deliver messages to lovers in heaven.
People who send these letters are all letters filled with love to their beloved ones.
Saki (acted by Han Hyo Joo) sent a letter full of hatred to her dead sweetheart.
The Saki filled with hatred met Yu (acted by Jaejoong) on that plain.
Yu is a soul that can't be seen.
Because of an incident, Yu fell in a coma.
God granted him 2 weeks of extended death to be a messenger in heaven.
Going back and forth between heaven and Earth, Saki became Yu's helper; hoping to
give the ones who lost their sweethearts hope.
Saki gradually forgotten her hatred and fell in love with Yu.
Will she continue to live or die?

What will God's decision be?
Where will the two lovers meet?

creds: Yunho-sshi.com

Seriously, if Jaejoong doesn't act in that movie, I will still watch it. The storyline is really interesting. A mailbox that delivers messages to heaven. If only it exists. We would still be able to contact with our loved ones in heaven. (: It's beautiful.

Soulmate couple. (: Both are beautiful guys.
And the right one is mine. ;)
Sunday, December 28, 2008
바보, 바보 , 바보 ! @ 1:14 AM
Gosh.. I watched this video over and over again. I'm so stupid. I can't stop from crying. 박유천...당신은 진짜로 바보 !! No. no. I'm the pabo one. Oppa.. You made me cry so much right now.. I want to always be there for you.

바보, 바보 , 바보 ! TT_TT 오빠..하고 싶을 포옹..! Don't hold in, just let it out. I know you're trying hard to hold those tears. Don't do that oppa... It makes my heart hurts a lot seeing you like that. Wuuuuaaah..I'm crying like a small kid right now.. 유천 오빠........

오빠.. 울지마...
유천 오빠...난 널 정말 정말 사랑해...
Saturday, December 27, 2008
I wanna watch!! @ 11:48 PM
THIS! OMG! I really want to watch this!! Jang Geun Suk♥!!

Omg omg omg! The baby is daaaaaamn cute wey!! Baby Mason!♥♥ I want to watch! Nyaa~The father is cute too. ;P I'm gonna go search for the DVD! Gotta watch it! The baby i sooo cute! He's a Canadian-Korean mixed. Named Moon Mason. (: The guy had to take care the baby whom he found when he was shopping for groceries. X)

and and and... I also want to watch this!! Kim Hyun Joong♥♥!! Kim Hyun Joong!

omg! Hyun Joong! Hyun Joong! Damn HOT wey. ;P
but.. of course.. my oppa is hotter and beautiful and cuter. ;D

Yes. (: Gonna go for a date with this cute but sexy guy.
Yoochun oppa, you'll be the prince and I'll be the princess. ;)
I'll always be here... @ 8:27 PM
..supporting you, waiting for you, loving you. Yes, DongBangShinKi. My love for you will go on forever.

Remember their touching messages to CASSIOPIEA during the 4th album showcase? Yes. These guys really appreciate and love their fans a lot. As well as their fans really love them. You'll never be able to separate DongBangShinKi with Cassiopeia. Here it is:

Messages to Cassiopeia

It's been 1 year and 7 months
Of course you've waited a long time right?
Protecting us while we're working hard in a different place. Our Cassiopeia
It's okay now~
Because we're under the same sky
Because we'll be presenting our hardworking, cool selves sincerely to everyone, please don't forget to support us!!!!
We've listened to our 4th album over and over again
Filling it with really great songs; please listen to the album lots because we've chosen each song painstakingly
During the time you've waited, we've put in the same amount of effort, and the effort the staffs put in wasn't in vain. And together, we've produced many fun and great memories
Everyone's the best!!

Thank you for waiting for us; it's been a long time.
I've thought about this a lot
And I've worked hard so as to repay everyone's love
To be able to be standing in this position
While on our promotional activities, you showed us your wonderful selves
Thank you.....really

Whether it was short or long
Because of everyone who stood by us silently during the 1 year and 7 months
That's why we're about to stand on this stage now
This time today, I would like to express my heartfelt thanks to everyone for that period. I would like to use the strength of my whole body to show everyone how thankful I am
Everyone's the reason as to why we're able to exist today

It's been a really long time and everyone has just been waiting for today
You've waited long right? Because you've waited for such a long time, I feel more apologetic than thankful
Sorry...and thank you
In order to repay everyone, we'll show you all of our hearts here alright?
Soo..... Close your eyes
And imagine you're dreaming with us
Let's become one again from here on
I love you....
To me, you're always Cassiopeia forever ^^*

I'd really want to tell everyone thank you very very much
Actually, I've got many things to say....
It's been such a long time...what should I say
I've really got so many things to express
Sorry for making everyone wait for such a long time, sorry for making everyone miss us for so long
Truthfully, I've always been more blessed than others
I've been blessed because I'm able to receive everyone's love
I've been missing everyone all the time in my heart

Translated by: Sparkskey@lj

These guys..are amazing guys. Seriously, if you really try to know them even more.Whoever that's a big fan of them, should watch the videos I'm about to post. Really. You should.

Their 5th Anniversary Party was extremely touching. Yes. At last..they let out what they kept in their heart.IT was mentioned, that this was the video they watched during the party. A really touching video. I cried.

This video made them touched. Yes. Junsu cried. And then, there comes Jaejoong's confession about how he felt all this time. Yes. I cried again.

OMG. OMG. OMG!! KIM JAEJOONG CRIED. Seriously. This time, he doesn't cry in his heart. But he really cries. TT_TT Next was Yoochun's speech. Which is really really touching. Yes. I cry and cry and CRY.

TT_TT I love you. I really really love you. It seems TVXQ really read the stupid articles about them. Oppa(s), believe in Cassiopeia. They will always wait for you guys. WE will always wait for you guys. Their love never changed. Don't ever care about those people who said that to you guys. Our love never changed. We promised you guys that. We will always continue to support you guys till the end. Please don't be worried anymore. Don't cry. Oppa... But I'm crying right now.

영원히 사랑할께
All of us will be walking on the same road with you guys.
We will never ever leave you guys.
Please... believe in us.
Believe in Cassiopeia.
Believe in me.
Forever 동.방.신.기 .

Athirah came to house today. We talked about the old moments we had in Sri Permata. Gosh. Time does passed that quickly. I wonder what happen to the others. There are some that I still contact them at times. But, how bout the rest? 5 years in that school. There are obviously good and bad times. The bad times still 'fresh' in my mind, but thinking about the good times. Wow. There's actually alot. In that 5 years, there are at least one BEST memories in each year. If I ever forget those memories and only remember the bad ones, won't it be a waste? I should appreciate the good times. The reason I just realised there are actually good memories in my life is because all this time, my mind keep closing up the good ones and only think that I have bad memories. Good ones do exist, but it depends on you to realise it yourself.

Form 1 - Starz90. Our own group. Me, Sofiah, Hani, Fasya, Imann. X) I still remember our class's roof was broken, and we, so-called "the AJKs", suggested we should clean up the class. Haha. And skipped Science class. There's also, argument during Hari Merdeka for the decorating class competition. XD Gaduh mcm budak-budak jer.

Form 2 - Known as the worst class of all even though in the 3rd class. X) Cus' of the naughty guys and talkative girls. Combined both, you get a crazy class. But we started to learn to appreciate each other. No matter how bad attitude each of us had, friendship was starting to be a really important thing that year. Can't forget how crazy me and Sofiah was with the guys. And also, with Alia and Ain. The people who accepted me into their group when I was about to end up being alone.

Form 3 - Suddenly got into the 1st class. O_o; A little culture shock since everyone was so clever. Sat beside the quietest girl in the school, Izzah. :D Reunite with me old schoolmates, Rina & Hani. Got closer with Athirah this year. A year with several problems, with family yet still remember having Rina and Athirah coming to my house and stayed overnight. Having friends are awsome. ;D Can't also forget the moments I forced Izzah to talk more. ^-^ I guess..it works? Oh oh! A year I get to know my beloved guys, TVXQ. By knowing them even more, I'm beginning to appreciate life.

Form 4 - Year with lots and lots and lots of problems. A year when I cried a lot and nearly lose myself. I thanked TVXQ for that year. I thanked God for letting me know them. Yes. TVXQ is the reason I stayed strong until now. However, this year, I gotten closer with my classmates which I'm gonna spend another year with them. Yes. They are the reason I knew, what is family in school. We were all like a big family with different races and religions and sex. Oh! Me and Athirah started to become best friends of course. :D

Form 5 - My classmates were like my brothers and sisters. My teachers were like father and mother. A year when you are supposed to become matured already. A year when you realised the good things around you more than the bad things. A year when you started to appreciate nearly everything you actually had. A year when I'm starting to understood that "Life is never perfect. There WILL always be the good times and there will always be the bad times. You just have to prepare for it, stay strong and keep living." Yes. My friends, my family, my loved ones and of course, TVXQ taught me these.

Form 6 - Met really different kind of people. I was starting to open up my mind a little. I'm beginning to accept these people I just knew as part of my family, part of the important people in my life and gonna spend the one year I had with them with alot of appreciation. Still, my big problem was I'm still a crybaby. ;) Who cares. Yoochun is a crybaby too. Girls cry. Guys cry. Humans cry.

Hee. I don't want to mention the bad times. There's a lot. But no point talking about it. It's in the past and will always be the past. So, bye bye sad memories. I'm letting 'you' go now. X) That doesn't mean more bad things not going to come after this. Of course there would be a lot coming. And already had some now. But hey, I have TVXQ. The reason I'm strong until now. If they won't give up, I will never ever give up too. :D

I know you're having a hard time right now. I don't want to lie. But there's more to come. ALOT more. Humans suffer. Till' they die. But it iss they themselves to decide whether to face it and endure it or just give up and die young. It's not gonna be okay. If things going to be okay, it will only be just for a moment. You'll understand one day. Really. You will. What I can only say now, if I still could, and still alive, I will always be here for you and try my best to help you.

The smile with hidden tears.
Park Yoochun, a guy that gave me a reason not to fall in love anymore.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Happy 5th Anniversary DongBangShinKi! @ 7:09 PM
..it has been 5 years now since their first appearance that was on 26th December 2003. And today, a big day for these talented guys, 26th December 2008.


I was late for 2 years, and I missed the concert in 2005. I also missed the concert last year cus' of the exam. TT_TT Even though I just support you guys for 3 years..you guys.. are really amazing. The most amazing singers in my heart. I don't think I'll ever love any singer as much as I love you all. (: I've gone through so many problems and I felt that you guys are always there for me. Making me happy with your dorkiness, supporting me through your music and I learnt a lot of good values from all of you.
The number 5:

5 guys
5 names
5 talented members
5 voices
5th Anniversary
2005 - the year I started to know all of you.


Dear Jung Yunho,
Five years being a leader for this group. To lead your 4 other members and also yourself. It must have been hard, huh? Well, you know what? You did a really good job. BEST leader in the world goes to you. (: Don't worry if you do make mistakes cus' that what makes you become a better leader.

Dear Kim Jaejoong,
Being the umma in the group. I'm very sure you're a really warm-hearted person. You're like a mother to others. You took care of your members like your own family. You have the voice that no one could ever imitate. You have the beautiful face that no other guys can have it. That makes you special. :D

Dear Park Yoochun,
Since the beginning, I've been loving you. You are the guy who touched my heart with your tears. Being the crybaby is not a bad thing cus' it shows how much you cared about the people around you. At first, you didn't showed much how good you are in making songs. And now, people are starting to realised your talent, all thanks to your own hardwork. (:

Dear Kim Junsu,
You didn't steal Changmin's image, but you deserved it. You're a true angel. You considered other people's feelings than yours. XD That's why you're easily get bullied. You not only have the voice of an angel but also the heart of an angel. X) You have the gift, that is your voice and you have the talent to entertain others.

Dear Shim Changmin,
Being the youngest must be hard too right? The tears you finally showed at MKMF this year shows that you finally released what you have been keeping inside. Just let it out. (: Crying at that moment doesn't show that you're still childish but it actually shows you're matured already. It's never wrong. Just remember, your hyungs love you and we fans too.

Dear DongBangShinKi,
It must have been a long journey for all of you. And there's more to come. (: So far, your success this time proves how much you had worked hard for it. You all deserved it. Every single reward that you get. (: I want to say thank you so much for all the support you gave me until now. I can never imagine myself not knowing you guys. It was the greatest gift to be given the chance to become one of your fans. Thank you. I will always continue to support you guys till the end of your journey. ;) Forever.

I'll share some more pictures of these amazing guys in this amazing post and on this amazing day. ;D

Today's date is actually also a date we have to remember. Yeap. The tsunami disaster in 2004.
It's been 4 years now. I would like to pay respects for those who lost their love ones in that disaster.

Went to Tabitha's house today. Shalomie picked me and my sis up from our house. O_o; We nearly got lost. Tabitha's house area seems deserted. It's so quiet, scary but somehow feels calm staying there. I suddenly felt like I'm in my hometown suddenly. We can even see some goats and cows there. X) Anyway, there's Franklin, Kavi, Siva, Kasmehra, Vishnuu & Park Boon. We spent time chit-chattin and "anticipating" about school opening. Omg. There's one more week for holiday. O_o; Time sure passed so fast. =__=;
Oh yeah, I started using my devianart back. And also made an account for flickr, thanks to Arif. XD

Damn tired lar. Gonna go sleep early. Athirah is coming tomorrow. That's all for today. (: Oh! And
Happy TVXQ day! :D

You are the reason I'm still standing here right now.
Stay with me forever, Yoochun oppa? ;)