Pelanduk got 2nd and Beruang got 1st. You know what Hani? We should be really proud cus' in previous school Bintang was last and now we're in a different sports' house and we are the BEST. (: Bangga kan? Kita hebat. But I'm kind of dissapointed we didn't win for cheer. :( We were awesome wey!! Thanks to Sasi, our captain. Takpe takpe. We know ourselves that we're the best. I enjoyed it ALOT. :D On Sports Day, each and every one of us were winners. Why? Cus' we all made it happened, that's why. :D Too bad we didn't get to take pictures with each other much. Haih. But, I owe aLOT of people during that day. I even overcome my fear that day. 23rd April 2009, another unforgettable date in my life.
At the same time, unhappy things had been happening recently. Well, there are always ups and downs in life right? I looked around. There are SO many different ways to love someone. TOO many I could say. And some... it's just hard to understand. And sometimes, things just won't happen the way we wanted. It never was meant to be that way actually. I realized it. And yeah. I've made up my mind.
O_o; Omg. I just finished type that out, and suddenly Fly To The Sky's "Good-Bye" starts playing. Scary. These days I've been hearing the same line coming out from few people...
"If you really love someone.. why.."
Yeap. It even came out from my ownself. But humans get tired easily. I'm tired. So tired that during I fainted, I was somewhere else. Yeah, something happened.
Some things are hard to explain. Or maybe can never be explained.
Anyway, I'll end my post with these cover magazines that I made which is simple and kind of a lazy kind of artwork. ;P I love the last design the MOST.
Listening to Stephanie Sun's "Yu Jian" meaning "To Meet" over and over again. How I wished I could play this song on the piano...
Hani and I had a quite awful day today, but yeah... we're still strong. (:
Pei Fen said "Sometimes when we want something, we can never get it."
As usual, no matter how many million times I have to go through bad moments, I still HAVE to keep moving on. Like when I ran on the track that day. I'm glad I didn't stop, even though I couldn't take it anymore. The journey for me to find my eternal happiness is still a long way to go. Aja aja fighting!! :D
I just love expressing my feelings on music. Playing the keyboard makes me feel calm in the end.
Hani pulak express on money. XD Gi gi rompak bank.
I'm gonna be alright. I always do. So, don't worry and stop blaming yourself.
I miss your warm smile.
I miss staring into your eyes.
I miss your voice saying "I love you."
Gosh, I MISS YOU.
Look what you've done to me. I'm such a mess.
I should stop complaining, no used of it.
chaegyung: i wanted to be the person who looks good with you. but its not working out the way i wanted to.
shin: you don't look good with me. you shine so much that i can't even look at you. and because of you, i was able to know the real world…. shin chaeygung out shined everyone that i have met before.
shin : Chae-Gyung is the most brightest person that out shined everyone I have ever see in my life.
chaegyung : The only reason I was able to breathe in the palace was because of shin goon. That's why… I want to stay with you. The person I love is not the crown prince, just you. I love you. If my heart hurts so much, I think I love you.
shin: if you stay by my side… i might break your wings
chaegyung: i don't care…just say that you want me next to you.
shin: I don't want to be alone anymore... so please, don't leave me away, don't leave me alone...
"You shouldn't do like that.."
"Maybe you shouldn't.."
"How could you ..."
Maybe people should just come to my face and said,
"You're the BITCHest, SLUTiest whore I ever met."
But what people said, I don't mind at all. They have the rights.Like I said, I'm born to hurt people. Yeah. I'm also a fake. My tears, it's just to gain sympathy, right?
My mind is a mess right now. And it's even messier. My heart.. hontou itai yo.
Like I said, who cares what they say. But when you expect this one person to understand and they don't...
I thought you understand. Haha. Yeah, I'm a slut. Shut up and thanks for reminding me about that.
If only I could laugh as much as I cry...
If only I could laugh as much as I cry...
If only I could laugh as much as I cry...
Every one of us has our own way. Mine is just simple. Though crying is not a good solution cus' it would make you feel the pain even more in the heart but in the end I would felt relieved. Then, I'll put my earphones on, or play my favourite songs on the radio and just close my eyes, go into my own world. In my own world, there's only good things. Good people, good thoughts. I can even see people that I want to see, example my idols. Like now, Park Yoochun appeared most of the time in my imagination. (: The feeling is good. He's right beside me saying, "Don't cry. Don't worry. I'm here. Always." It's amazing how high imaginations can change a person's mood. Well, it works for me lar. ;)
Actually, the existence of that one person in my life also had made me happy. Yes, YOU. Thanks for being there for me. Sarang hae.
Recently, tried saving a kitten in the big drain, but it kept running away. Crawling in the drain is sooo not a good experience. In the end the kitten went into this hole and disappeared in the darkness. I don't know why... this situation could be relate with situations that humans had to face in this reality world. Tell me. Have you ever met someone that refused to accept the help from others even though they needed it? Like how the kitten refused to accept my help. It's not because they don't want your help actually... but it's just it's hard for them to open up and trust a person. Yes. They didn't want to accept the help because they are afraid. Like the kitten, it needs help. Looking at me with those big eyes, I'm sure the kitten was wondering whether he can trust me or not. Whether I would harm him or not. The fear of trust is really big. It can conquers a person's whole heart. Just because of that fear, they refused to accept help, listen to people's advice or even accept a person into their lives.
Moving on.. I miss Yoon Eun-hye! I want to see her acting again! Owh! And I miss watching Princess Hours. :D Want to watch again!
They said that, "Nafsu perempuan lagi kuat." I agree about that. ;P
Even in Princess Hours proves it all.
What happens when a girl is so in love with this one guy and had been holding on from "doing" certain things? This happens.
The magazine's name is.. X) More HOT & sexy pictures of my idols.
note: click on the picture to enlarge
ALERT ALERT! Jaejoong, Junsu & Changmin's arms. *___* Omg. HOT wey. Yunho's chest is WOW. ;P And and.. Stop laughing at Yoochun's hair lar. His pose is SEXY. *drools* My God. Park Yoochun. Sumpah aku tergoda.
*sigh* I miss you. Please don't ignore me, sayang.
Someone, or anyone, please kill me. It hurts.
I smiled and recalled the memories we had ...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ...
You will know that you love someone
when you want him/her to be happy.
Even if that means you're not a part of their happiness.
My heart longs for you, my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you, my empty arms reach out for you.
Love can sometimes be magic.
But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.
When you are in love and you get hurt, it’s like a cut...
it will heal, but there will always be a scar.
The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye.
I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody
but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me...
Nobody said it was easy...
no one ever said it would be THIS hard.
hidup dan mati untukmu,
mungkinkah semua tanya,
kau yang jawab
Dan tentang seseorang,
itu pula dirimu,
A little boy from afternoon session came to me and said,
Boy: Kakak. Name kakak 'Senyum' ek?
Me: hah? Kenape?
Boy: Yer lar.. Kakak selalu senyum jer.
Me: Ye ker?
Boy: *nods* ok, Bye bye Kakak Senyum!
I wonder if I tell the boy I'm the biggest cry-baby on this earth, would he believe that?
Have you ever cried so much in your life? The tears just won't stop falling.
Before you sleep,
When you woke up,
When you're eating,
When you look at the sky,
When you sing,
Everywhere you go.
I'm starting to lose my smile again.
I'm stubborn. Sensitive. Nothing special. How did someone so perfect like you would fall for me?
I don't trust anyone so easily. But now, I'm giving my all for one guy.
Why does it hurt so much then?
Why do I care so much?
Why do I miss you so much?
Why do I need you so much?
Why do I want you so much?
Why do I refuse to let you go?
Shit. I'm in LOVE.
Best quote for this episode:
Lucas: I hate you. I wish you'd never came back. You ruined my life.
FAST & FURIOUS is awsome! Go watch it! Especially for those who admired the casts in the first movie! Went to watch with Franklin and two under-aged boys, Suren & Ashwin. ;P Tsk tsk. Luckily takde "censored" scenes.
Favourite parts in the movie? Too many! First with the hijacking fuel tanks, the race when there's this part Brian O'Connor tried to avoid one car that is turning upside down (something like that), and the part when they drove in the tunnel! Wahsei! (: I totally enjoyed the movie wey. Nak tengok lagi! :D Oh oh! But the sad thing was, Letty died. :( Poor Dom. Mia is damn pretty and hot!! Ish ish. She suits Brian better than the policewomen in the 2nd movie. ;P The part when Brian were given the choice to pick which car he wants to drive is damn... awsome. Oh oh! The ending is damn gempak. XD Go watch it now! Hopefully they are going to make the 5th movie!
And now.... MY favourite cars in the movie. (:
The blue Nissan Skyline GT-R BNR34 drove by Brian is hot, but I prefer these two:
Yummy yummy! I want all! *steals* HOT! SEXY! YUMMY!
Oh oh! Paul Walker is yummy too! ;P Vin Diesel boleh tahan gak! Tough giler.
I suggest people go watch this movie, especially those who has been watching the 1st, 2nd & 3rd movie.
Next is Transformers! :D
Gonna go watch ONE TREE HILL now! Lucas & Peyton! (:
One is a happy love story, and one is a tragic love story.
Which one do you choose? -__-; Ish. I'm listening to Rain's one. Dah emo dah. Sooo unhealthy.
Ish ish. XD Baru nak emo. Shah Rukh Khan's songs playing on the television.
Kuch kuch Hota Hai. :D *flies to Bollywood*
FAST & FURIOUS! (: Here I come Paul Walker! Panas panas! ;P
As I'm starting to realised, love is starting to scare me.
You turned this abnormal girl into even worst.
note: Mom is gonna kill me. *escapes*
Just finished watching 2Fast & 2Furious on TV3. My God. Can't believe I didn't go excited bout this movie last time! Seriously. The car is hot. The guy is hot. (: Perfect. Paul Walker is... omg. *faints* Sweet smile+Beautiful eyes = Lene's type. ;P Panas weyyy! I want this!!
Japanese girls came to school today. Damn kawaii all of them! :D Even took pictures with them. She said, "Arigatou." Comel giler. And one of them look at Hani, pointed at her tudung and said, "Kawaiii.." XD Japanese girls are really polite and cute! If they know Tohoshinki or LEAD, would be even fun to hang out with them talking bout those idols. (:
Lalala~ PAUL WALKER! Sexy, Hot, Cute. ;D
Then, there's house practice. But didn't practice much today. Mogok with Pei Fen. ;P
Stopped by at Taman Paramount to get CD from Rebecca. No, not porn CD, stop asking. Chit-chat with my beloved brother, Loo SHY SheRn that's not that shy anymore. XD
Then... I thought it's the end.. bought ticket to Taman Bahagia, was on the LRT already when suddenly I heard,
"Stesen seterusnya, Asia Jaya."
-___-; Banggang. I got fooled by the LRT also??? Teruk betol. Yeah, I got on the wrong LRT. Pabo.
On the LRT,realized someone wearing a T-shirt written,
But if you do take it seriously, it'll break your heart."
Stop making me go crazy.
I felt like I'm on a merry-go-round. Enjoying it while going crazy & dizzy.
And I felt like riding on it forever.
That scares me the most.