Credits: I II III IV

Quotes of the moment.
"When you get tired, think back to days like this when you regretted it. Think of the days you treasure. Receive strength from it and live on."
-Shin Jihyun(49 DAYS)

"At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world. Some are running scared.. some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day.. others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good.. struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls -- and sometimes.. all you need is 1."

-Peyton Elizabeth Sawyer

"We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love." -Tom Robbins

"Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."
- Ida Scott Taylor

Peyton: That's what he writes. But what he says is a totally different story.
Haley: Sometimes people write the things that they can't say.

"Tree Hill is just a place somewhere in the world. Maybe it's a lot like your world, maybe it's nothing like it. But if you look closer, you might see someone like you. Someone trying to find their way. Someone trying to find their place. Someone trying to find their self. Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by. But that feeling's a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there. And that someone will find you."

— Lucas Eugene Scott

"Don't leave, don't leave.
Lies, lies.

My name is Sherlene.
A girl who loves 동방신기 (DongBangShinKi) so much since 2005 but never met them even once. Even though they had been close to me a few times...
One day, I will. ;)
Music is my soul.
Take it away from me, takes away my life too.
One biggest weakness, once truly and faithfully in love, there's no more "I'll find someone better." Love is the only way that could lead her to become a complete idiot.


Sunday, September 28, 2008
As Long As You Love Me ;) @ 4:11 PM
It's been a while since I last sang this song. I'm singing it again.. (:
New version by a Korean group singer, U-Kiss. There's rapping! <3
Watch here>As Long As You Love Me

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leaving my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
How you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like its deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like were meant to be


I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're coming from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby.


For some reasons.. this song made me happy. And U-Kiss made the song even nicer with the rapping.
note: the bolded sentences are meant for someone. (;
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Pressure @ 5:13 PM
So.. yeap. I screwed up. Everyone knows about it already. The MUET test. It was a disaster. The topic was about natural disaster and it's definitely a disaster to me. I had to talk about why medical supplies had to be provided first. Before the test, me Shalomie and Vishnuu was nervous. Really. I never thought I would end up like that. Then.. something happened. That made me become quiet suddenly. And I don't know whether I was feeling nervous or angry. Everything were mixed up. I kept the confused feelings and just go in. Then, yeap. It started when Shalomie was presenting, and I was too amazed by her presentation. Then, the pressure came. And yeap, mixed up even more with the confused feelings. All my ideas, I couldn't write it out. The pen's ink is starting to finish. More pressure coming.Then..

"Candidate C you may begin."

The starting was okay. I was able to said it out. Then, there's come the points. I stopped half away. And quickly went to the second point. But, I couldn't go on anymore cu's I was too nervous. Everything just went blank. I hope I could just black-out that time. When I started saying "sorry" to the teacher, I realised tears coming out from my eyes. Damn. I hate it. But I can't stop it from coming out. It's embarassing. Crying for some small matter. But I just can't stop it. I don't know why. The confused feelings, the pressure.. Everything that I tried to hold on all this time..why does it have to come out at that time. I was really angry with myself that time.

Why? Why do I have to be so sensitive? Why can't I control it? Slowly, I'm beginning to turn into my old self. The girl who was hated by nearly everyone, cus she cries easily and has lack of confidence in herself. I'm beginning to start thinking the negative thoughts and it won't stop anymore. I realised. That's the only thing about me that I couldn't change. Why?

I don't want him to see me like this. I don't want him to hate me cus' I cry easily. I don't want him to hate me cus' I'm sensitive.

But I just can't. It's my true self. And history will repeat. :(
Damn I'm so stupid.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Hopeless @ 3:37 PM
What's the point of saying you like that person, but you couldn't do anything for them?

When he's angry, you don't know why or what happen because you're too scared to approach him.
When he's sad, you keep wondering why does he have the sad look but you don't even bother to ask cus' you keep have this thoughts that he won't tell you since you're not so close.
When he's happy, smiling to you, is he really happy? You have that thoughts. But you just can't assume and ask him straight away cus' he might end up saying, "You don't know me."

WTF. Why is it so complicated to like someone? Ergh. I'm hopeless.
I just want to understand him. But I guess.. I'll never will.

edit: Kuan Yong just told me when I'm gonna stop thinking about him. Just don't affect my normal life.

I'm trying, okay. Hope it won't get serious. Cus' history might repeats.
Kiss Kiss @ 2:47 PM
kiss kiss fall in love...maybe I'm in love.

Okay. This song is funny and cute! ;D Sakura Kiss by Chieko Kawabe. Opening song for the anime, Ouran High School. Haha.. I love the lyrics.

Today.. Oh yea, Pn Mazlin told us the exam is tomorrow. Ergh. -___- I don't care anymore. I'm gonna simply crap. I HATE that speaking exam. Giving me too much pressure that I really tired to feel pressure. I'm gonna just crap tomorrow. What to do? I can't avoid it right? So, I'll just face it then eventhough I don't want to.

Tiring. I think I walked alot today that my leg is hurting like hell right now. >__< Hani, I blame you! XD

I miss watching Eun-Hye's acting. ;)
She's the best! <3
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Whatever. @ 2:09 PM
I'm confused again. Whatever. wake up! wake up! You made me like you even more. >_<

Pn Suhaida is still in school. O_o; So, I guess we got the wrong information. Well, that's a good thing cus' we need to cover up some topics for the exams.
We had AGM Koperasi today in the hall. -___- Me, Hani and Pei Fen are the only lower sixes that joined, so yeah. We went to the hall, giving papers to the teachers and staffs. Oh and playing around with the prefects. Of course lar. We have Kopal and Ashwin, add up with Hani, habis kecoh. X) I was not in the mood at first, for some reason. But then, I was ok. But there's the blur moment. I don't know lar what's wrong with me. And there's Arif Ashraf taking pictures of us. Haha.. He's cute. Brandon Lau was saying about his love to Ashwin. O_o; Yeap. Weird. No wonder Hani called him "gay partner". Ash's gay partner. XD Oh! Yeong Shen cuts his hair! Haha.. And he's still shy. Comel btol.

We stayed back and yea, Ash started singing this skeleton song. And omg, he's like brain-washing me with that song! I mean, imagine lar.. Ash, singing while acting like he's playing a guitar. -__- It's in my mind already. Over and over again. Me and Hani laughed so hard when he said the song is for Kopal. >_<>because of Ash, Kopal pinched me and become emo for like few minutes. Kejam betol.

Me and Hani went to Amcorp Mall today. ;D But before that we told Ash we wanted to follow him go home. Haha.. I love his reaction when he saw us went to the LRT with him. Innocent giler. But, we didn't find anything in Amcorp. >_<> *sigh* Nevermind lar. We did this for SOMEONE. ;D Hani did this for someone. ;P

Omg. Ash just gave me the skeleton song. I'm listening to it and I kept singing it. -__- This song is addictive. Gee..thanks Ash.

hee hee.. I miss Marie from Onegai Twins. <3
Choo kawaii!
Monday, September 22, 2008
Tasha Reid has her Black Happiness. @ 11:35 AM
Okay, this is quite random. I never post about a singer before. But this woman really caught me. What so special about her is her song. Well, after I listened to one of her song, "Black Happiness". I really respect her.

Tasha Reid or her birth name is Yoon Mi-Rae and also known as 'T' is a Korean-American R&B singer and rapper born in Portland,Texas on May 31 1981 to an African-American father and a Korean mother.

(read this)
Translation of "Black Happiness"

My skin was dark from my past
People used to point at me
Even at my mom Even at my dad who was black, and in the army
People whisper behind my back
Said this and said that
I always had tears in my eyes
Although I was young
I saw my mother's sadness

seemed like it was my fault
Because of my guilt
I washed my face everytime during the day
With my tears I melt the white soap
I always hated my dark skin
why O why
Does the world judge me
When I hate the world
I close my eyes

I put my soul into the music my father gave me
I feel the volume
And fly higher and higher
Far away
la musique

(When I hate the world)
(Music soothes me)
(you gotta hold on)
(and love yourself)
(When I hate the world)
(Music raises me up)
(so you gotta be strong)
(you gotta hold on)
(and love yourself)

Time passed and I was thirteen
My skin was dark brown
Music doesn't judge color
They give me light
I lead my music
We lean on eachother
I don't feel lonely
Then one day
I was given a chance
I held on to my microphone

And suddenly I was on stage
I say goodbye to music and ask it to come back
Then I became nineteen
I have to lie
I put white makeup over my face
They told me to wear a mask
They said my mom's race was okay
But not my dad's
Every year my age was nineteen
During times when time stopped

I felt like I was in jail
And I leaned on myself
I spent endless, painful days
I ignored their warnings
And because I missed music
I tried to escape
But no, I got caught
I prayed all night
And now I'm

This is a story about a girl who's forced to live as a stranger in Korea, enduring racial prejudice. Tasha (korean name- yoon mi rae) is half African American and half Korean. As she grew up, she had a hard time searching for self identity. Korea was a sort of narrow minded society colorwise.
creds: doolee10 in YouTube

Get it now? This song should be known whole wide world. Cus' it's giving a big message on judging people like Tasha. The music video for this song is awsome. I love it. Watch here.

Tasha Reid. You're awsome!
Atarashi (: @ 9:06 AM
At last, I can blog. -__- Blogdrive is being stupid yesterday. Plus, I haven't blog for like.. 3 days now. So many things happening.. I guess.

On Thursday, 18th Sept, I was poisoned! >_<>nasi beriani we bought in Bazaar Ramadhan. Ergh. I'm not gonna buy from there anymore. I vomitted for like..3 times. In school! So embarassing. Everyone(nearly) knew I vomitted. And even the cleaner heard it in the toilet when I was vomitting. Eeeew. I don't want to remember bout it. Well, at least I'm still strong enough to stay back and finish some work in the library. O_o; But I was seriously sweating and my body was weak. Luckily I didn't faint. (:
On this day though, me and Hani got to knew another guy that's nearly the same with Ash. Or maybe.. he's Ash's twin I can say. -__- But the only thing is that he's too shy. X) His name is Yeong Shen. (see I spelled it correctly, I budak baik)

On Friday, 19th Sept, we were informed a news from Pn Mazlin.

"Next week is my last week with all of you."

O_O; I was like.. "WHAT?!" She said she's gonna move on her career to the next level. She's going to work with the Ministry of Education in Putrajaya. I can't believe it. I'm gonna lose another good English teacher. >__<>Pei Fen said "Why does all the teacher leaving us?" I was like..who else? Then I remembered, oh yea. Pn Suhaida has taken MC cus' I guess, the baby is gonna be out when we're gonna have exams. -__- Pn Haslida pulak told us before that maybe she's gonna move to a new house and she have to transfer school too. O_o; Yea. All the teachers are leaving us.
I was on duty this day, and Kopal, Suren, Ash & Yeong Shen stayed back too. Ash and Yeong Shen was being like twins, disturbing me like budak kecik. *pinches both of their cheeks* And Ash tried to kill himself. =X Using MY knife.

TVXQ's new album has shown how matured they are turning into now. They revealed a lot. X) Which is..er..a good thing? The image is awsome, but of course I'm looking forward on the music rather than the image. Are they gonna make me love them even more with their music? I'll be waiting.

The Fourth album, MIROTIC

*___* omg. HOT.
Park Yoo-chun, you melt my heart. ;D
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Absolute Boyfriend @ 2:38 PM
The end. Yeap. Yesterday, I finished watching "Absolute Boyfriend". Eh, not yesterday. This early morning. 5 a.m. X) Yea, and then I woke up at.. you don't have to know. XD
So.. I'm gonna recommend this J-drama to all of you drama lovers.

Robot maker, Kronos Heaven, finally develops "Night Tenjo", the perfect male humanoid programmed to be devoted and completely loyal to his lover. The company chooses temp worker Izawa Riko to take part in a 5-day free trial. At first, Riko only sees Night as a household appliance. But when she finds out how deep Night's devotion to herself is, Riko finds herself falling in love with him. Joining the love triangle is Asamoto Soshi, a distinguished young executive at her company who has feelings for her. --Fuji TV

Hayami Mokomichi as Tenjo Night

The robot that was created to love and become the perfect/ideal boyfriend. He was programmed with the characters that Riiko wants. But, as time goes by, he has true characters of his own. Caring, lovable, protective and blur sometimes. He's funny too. Especially when he smiles like a small kid. He's the perfect boyfriend that every girl would want.

Aibu Saki as Izawa Riiko

Cute and bubbly girl. She's the happy-go-lucky kind of girl that would always make people smile because of her bright characters. Innocent and naive when it comes to love and she's the kind of girl that looks clumsy but are actually good in some houseworks. Falls in love easily too. Treat Night badly but actually she appreciates him alot. :)

Mizushima Hiro as Asamoto Soshi

Grandson of the founder of the famous ASAMOTO company. He's a grandson that always remembered his grandfather's cream puffs and hope to make famous cream puffs made by Riiko because it reminded him of his childhood. He can be stubborn but actually a determined person and also has the talent in tasting food. His determination on doing things he wanted makes him looks like a guy that works hard for his own dreams. A nice and kind person too. And thinks low of himself.

This drama really shows alot emotions and feelings from a person no matter if they are humans or robots. What counts in love, is the true feelings. My favourite quotes in this drama is these two:

"If you truly feel happy in the present, then you'll surely be happy in the future."

"Love is the start of every miracle."

Oh yea, and this drama made me cried in the early morning like a baby. I was sobbing so hard. TT_TT Damn touching. I think everyone should watch this show. I love it. And it means a lot to me. I learnt a lot more things from this drama. (;

I'm gonna miss their romance together. :)

and.. I'm gonna miss you, Naitou.
The best boyfriend in the universe.
Good night, our 'Night'. Sweet dreams. ;)
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
After Love. @ 2:35 PM
Today is my best friend's birthday, Athirah. And I haven't even wished her. What a bad friend I am right? *gets whack* This year, I've been forgetting all my friends' birthday. Useless friend betol. Akith, gomen. >_< style="text-decoration: underline;">promise. I wish I'm rich right now. -__-
Hope you had a great birthday. :)

Last picture we took. :D
Athirah with the ugly me.

told me to watch FT Island's new MV, "After Love". -__- Hani, you're so evil. The song made me turn emo. Why? Read the translation of this song.
This song.. is ok lar..to me.

I thought you were my love
I thought you were my everything
I believed that you would be my last love

I laughed only for you
I lived only for you
I believed in your love and that it was happiness

It's all lies. All lies
Your love for me was all lies
You've hurt me so
You left me crying

You said you'll love only me, protect only me
Your love was all lies
You took away my heart and my love
and leaving me was love

Being loved by one person
Giving love to one person
I foolishly believed that person would be you

It's all lies. All lies
Your love for me was all lies
You've hurt me so
You left me crying

You said you'll love only me, protect only me
Your love was all lies
You took away my heart and my love
and leaving me was love

To say it was love was a lie
Saying that you loved me was a lie
Saying it was eternal was a lie
did she go (We're falling further apart)
WHere did she go We're falling further & further apart
I'll love only you

Just in case you came back, back to me
I can't love again
Even though you hurt me, and saddened me
I'm waiting only for you

It's all lies, All lies
Our separation was all a lie
Because you are my love, my all
I'm waiting only for you

Gile emo.. I know. -__- Malas lar want to emo now. Eventhough I want to emo. I'm trying hard not to. Cus' I think it's stupid. That's right, I should just keep myself busy.

Today, I stayed back alone. Well Pei Fen too, but cus' she has duty. There's Kopal and Suren and also Rebecca and Yohvin, so I was not alone walking to the LRT station. After that, I took the bus and stopped at Baazar Ramadhan and walk from there to home. X) Crazy right? And I was damn tired that time. Don't know what got into me. Making myself tired makes me forget some things that shouldn't be in my mind. Which I guess..is a good thing.

Gonna continue watching "Absolute Boyfriend" while eating ice cream. YUM! ;P As you can see, I got my blog a comment box. So, just comment there. Easier. :D Stole the idea from
Arif's and Ash's blog. Bwek. :P

"drawing in the sky" ;)
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Desperate or Stupid? @ 2:25 PM
Am I desperate or stupid? Wait. What does it mean by I'm desperate? Is it the way I like someone? *sigh* I guess that it's quite true. Whatever. I told someone about I had a crush on someone and that person said I'm stupid. >__<>

Today...Suprisingly.. I studied. O_o; Yea. That's kind of weird, I know. I don't know, the only thing that can make me forget about my so-called-confused feelings is by keeping myself busy. Yea, it works for me. Today, me & Hani experienced another back-stabbing moment. -__- Yea. Someone seems to be jealous and well.. trying to make up stories. Fine whatever. I don't want to make it become a big matter. Lets just leave it to God to do the rest.

haha.. I just love this. ;D sweet.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Pianist. @ 2:17 PM
Believe it or not, one of my so-called-never-gonna-be-a-dream-come-true is to become a pianist. Hey, if I'm from a rich family, I would have forced my dad to send me to piano classes. >__< *sigh* What to do.. some people are just lucky to get to learn how to play piano. That's why I envy Korean people. For their music subject, they have to learn piano. In Malaysia, we had to learn recorder. -___- And I don't like instruments that needs to use my breath.

The reason I talked bout pianos suddenly cus' recently I started watching the Korean drama, "Spring Waltz". I must say.. this drama is beautiful and definitely a lot of flashbacks. And of course, a lot of piano playing. That's what attracts me the most about the drama. :) Oh! And Daniel Henney is hella HOT. But the main male is still the best. Haha.. Korean's main male always has the same character. Cold, mysterious kind of person. Yet, full of interesting characters in him. I guess, this kind of guy really attracts me. ;)

I haven't blog for few days. Lazy. ^^; Nothing to blog anyway. Well.. I missed out a lot of news bout TVXQ. Trying to catch up now. Anyway, that's all for now. So sleepy but want to do some work a little. *sleepy* I'll go have some ice-cream to keep me awake! X) but i still want to sleep. =__=;

haha.. Good night to you too Yoochun oppa.
I miss you soo much. ;)
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Jiwang. @ 5:20 PM
I wonder..

what's the percentage of the person we like to like us back? Even if it doesn't reach 1%, I stll have hopes that it's not a one-sided love...

Berapakah agaknya peratusan bahawa....
....orang yang kita suka....
...akan suka kita juga?

Walaupun tidak sampai 1%...
....aku menaruh harapan agar.....
....aku tidak bertepuk sebelah tangan.

Love can sometimes be is painful.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Itchy. @ 2:18 PM

Anyway, nothing happen today. School as usual. Oh yea, Pn Mazlin said we'll have our exam next week cus' she don't want to come on holidays. Damn. Pressure of MUET is coming. I'm still not good at all in speaking skill. *sigh*

Everyone is studying hard now. And I'm still being a playful and lazy girl. *bangs head to the wall* Wake up! Come back to reality! Don't know lar what's gonna happen to me. It seems as if I have no way of life. Mom asked what I'm really aiming for. I told her, maybe the ones related to business. Like sales marketing. I don't know. It's not what I want, seriously. But I remembered my sis told me about let what we're good in becomes the first choice, what we're interested in should be the second. I have to try first. Eventhough I don't like it, I can still take it lar. Don't know lar. I'm stupid and lazy. -__-

Kind of latest picture. Maybe for new single? Or album? Don't care, but it's HOT.

Beautiful. :)

Anyway, nothing to talk about. Better go finish some work.

omg. X) This picture is so gay but still HOT.
Haha.. Micky! Let me kiss you! *kiss*
Loves him..lots. ;)
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Smile. :) @ 9:42 AM
I love his smile.
I love to see him happy.

Today is Arif Fahim's birthday. :) Yeap. Our cute head perfect. Haha.. He's so mature for a 16 years old boy/guy. 16 already! Getting older but still younger than me. -___- Damn. I feel old. Ashwin called me grandma yesterday. =__=;
Anyway, I got Arif a present though. Well..I think it's not that special I guess. I don't know how to choose presents for guys lar. Hope you like it anyway Arif. (:
Hope he had a good time for this year's birthday.

So, when I first arrived school. I was so in a good mood to clean the class and throw the rubbish. Went to wash my hands at canteen and suddenly, I felt a pain on my hand. I looked at it, seeing an insect, I quickly pushed the insect. O_o; Don't know why, my hand is burning suddenly, I look at it again, and I can see something like a small needle stuck on my hand. And something came up my mind, "Is it a bee??" >__< style="color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">Kopal and Rebecca saw me and came to me. I told them about it, they told me to put medicine. Brian took me to the lab and find a medicine and put it a little. =__= At first my hand is getting swollen but after that it's ok again. Still, the pain is still there. Burning~!

Dad told me this, "When a bee sting and the needle was torn off, the bee will be dead after that."
Don't know why, I had this thought, "Poor lil' bee. Why did you hurt me just to sacrifice yourself?"

Weird right? XD I'm glad I didn't have allergies of bee's sting.
Believe it or not, I decided to join Hani on fasting today. Well.. for some particular reason. :D Man. I'm hungry. I woke up at 4.30 am and make myself a special maggi goreng. Hahahaha.. Don't know if it's enough or not. Now.. there's like one more hour to go. I'm not hungry that easily but I really loove to drink. And yea, I'm thirsty. At least I made it at school. Seeing people eating and all. X)

Don't care lar. I'm just happy today. Smiled too much till my cheeks hurt. :) And Ayaka's "Okaeri" song playing is making me smile even more. Love this ending song for "Absolute Boyfriend".

happy birthday Arif Chan. (:
My oppa(s) wished for you too.
Micky. <3
Monday, September 8, 2008
Quiet. @ 2:29 PM
O_O Kind of suprising though. Why? No one is online! Yea. I mean..Usually they would be online at this time, but no one stayed up late online. Weird. >_< ___=";" style="font-weight: bold;">My God. So boring.

Went to GIANT today with my lil sis. Stopped by at Living Cabin and found the plush toys of the Olympic's mascots. :D

Beibei (Fish)

Jingjing (Panda)

Huanhuan (Olympic Flame)

Yingying (Tibetan Antelope)

Nini <3>(Swallow)

My fav is Nini. (: So cute. I want one!! >_<>
"Bei Jing Huang Ying Ni" means "Welcome to Beijing". Cool right?
Oh yea, and also.. don't you think they resembles TVXQ. X) There are five of them and usually Xiah wears blue, Hero wears red, Changmin wears orange and Yunho wears green. Micky is different. But.. the others..same!

Even the places they stand is the same. X) Cool.

Gonna go.. try to study a little bit. Then, sleep sleep. Oh yea, I started watching "Absolutely Boyfriend". Now in episode 8 already. A J-drama. Talk bout it next time. :)

I just loooove plushy toys.
Oppa, buy for me? ;)
Sunday, September 7, 2008
G.e.m.b.i.r.a.? @ 2:36 PM
...is happy.

Am I happy? "I am!!" I said that with full of confidence. But then, still... am I really happy? Maybe haven't fully found my happiness yet. Still ok lar.. I should be happy. :) Too many good things happening in my life. Well... even though there's bad things, I tried to forget it by remembering how lucky I am to have the good things. Er..something like that. Mom said, "If you starts to think your life is miserable, you should think of those who is worst." and yet they can still be happy. Mom has got a point there. I should learn more to appreciate the good things I have now rather than complain bout what I couldn't get. (That is..him.) I know God is just being fair to every one of us. No one is gonna be perfect.

Went to school today. On Saturday. -__-; Bored. Studied a little because Pn. Mazlin so semangat. I was sleepy. Scribbling the books and chit-chat with my classmates. Let me see, there's Rebecca, Riba, Pei Fen, Shalomie, Franklin & Iskandar. Yeap. 7 of us including me. :D We very rajin right? Hani couldn't come cus' she went back to her hometown. -__-; Everyone kept saying the same thing, "This girl going back hometown every week!" X) Me and Pei Fen spent most of the time going to toilet a.k.a. merayau. ;P Stayed back with Kopal, Suren & Arun cus' the rain won't stopped and Kopal starts his gossip again. X) Arif showed some of the designs for the magazines which has the pictures of events that we're in it. =___=; My god. The Form 6 Orientation with the flour. And Konsert Perdana, there's the picture of me and Kopal dance. >///< Memalukannyer. I look funny. Orientation Night that has the BOD performance and Hani, me & Pei Fen's performance. -___- He zoomed to show it. I look terrible. *faints*
The conclusion, there's lots of funny pictures of me. *dies*
That's still not the problem, the problem is all the pictures, have been seen by him. *dies again*

haha. cute? Imagine that happens. :D The dog is really cutee~!
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Past. @ 2:08 PM
...is refreshed back in my mind.

Thanks to Ashwin. It's been a long time since I last talk about my past. Damn. I don't even want to remember it. But I still will. Duh. That's why it's called a 'memory'.
Whatever lar.

Today, let me see.. what happen at school? Oh yea, Vishnuu with his "today is my last day...". Oh yea, Brian showed me the cat beside his class that just had kittens but sadly all of the kittens died before I was able to see it alive. -___-; Yea. Even the last one in the box is already dead. The mother went in the box, lie down and her legs was on her face as if she's crying. Omg. That really makes me sad. The dead kitten is still inside, and the mother just continue in that position. Poor thing. They can't live lar in that box. The weather is too cold. Plus, it's raining season. How the hell can they survive without having a warmer place to live.

Stayed back for duty. Damn tiring. I cut the wrappers for some books and key-in 11 books. And so, that makes me successfully keying-in 20 books for this week. :D I wonder if the teacher is going to comment something bout my work. =__=; I don't think I did a really good job than the previous librarian that holds the post.
Oh yea, and there's a junior trying to be rude to me by being so racist. WTF. Who cares. I'm not in the mood to layan him anyway. But still, really kurang ajar.

I'm on dilemma again. What the hell is wrong with me lar? Why so complicated when falling in love? I hate myself like this.

oppa.. help me forget him.. ):
I want to love only you.
Friday, September 5, 2008
Emo. @ 1:42 PM
Okay, nearly everyone are emo today. Including me, myself actually. I was trying to go on with my plan and try to avoid looking at.. *coughs* him.*coughs* Still. End up looking at him. *sigh* Useless betol. Don't know why, after that I starts to go emo suddenly in class. I shouldn't be like that lar. My friends would get annoyed with my attitude. Yea. I shouldn't be like this just because of a guy. Haha.. Yea, cus' Kopal said something that made me terase. I mean.. I memang sedar diri, I don't have any good things about myself. He won't even look at me as a girl that he's gonna like. I know all that. Just that, erm.. Tak payah lar.. like straight-forward said like that to me. Sedih tau..
Haha.. I'm sensitive. *bangs head to the wall* Somebody should just shoot me now.

Haih. That's not the main point. I'm really not good in cheering up my friends that's sad. I mean.. I don't know lar. I felt bad for not doing anything for them. Okay, I admit. This school is damn problematic. Too many problems happening at a time. -___-; My god. Teruk than my previous school. Really don't understand this people. And yea. Some people just won't makan saman. Didn't realised his own character. I thought he would change after I said some things to him, still. Just the same. It's no use talking to this kind of person. They just won't change.

Today we took class photo. Omg. The candid photos seem really funny and cute at the same time! I love my class. The people in my class are awsome people. (: Love them too.
Then, stayed back. I was able to key-in 9 books! YEAY~! Success. That means, left 11 books for tomorrow to be key-in. And I need to wrap it. AJA AJA HWAITING!

Okay, should I go on with my plan tomorrow too or not...that depends on the situation. I don't want to be emo tomorrow. I should be happy..right? I think.

Haha. Yea, I should be happy.
Having these special guys making me happy everyday.
Yoochun oppa, you're my source of happiness. ;)
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Childish. @ 1:19 PM
Some people.. the older they become, the more childish they are. I mean.. I don't care if you're younger than me, but since you're like older than me..at least show that you're.. I don't know. Whatever lar. Can't I get at least a peaceful mind for once? And can't some people just grow up at least! If you're not trying to change yourself now, when are you going to?
The moral of the story for today is, if I open my mouth, will only create another problem. So.. I'll just shut up.

Today's quiz was.. terrible. -__-; Well..at least I was able to answer some of it. But still.. *sigh* I'm so useless. How lar can become same taraf with him? We're wayyy too different. >_<

Vishnuu & Iskandar told us about quitting form 6. WTF. Me & Hani was soo angry. I know we shouldn't felt that way cus' it's their decision. We can't force them to do something they don't want. But still.. we like..terase lar.. Why want to quit? Maybe we're feeling that way cus' all of us are starting to be close to each other already. *sigh* What to do. I just hate good-byes. Realised that time has passed alot. I felt like yesterday only that we just get to know each other and all those times we had and with some few problems happening, time really passed too fast. Maybe I was enjoying and stressing at the same time since I came to this school. But.. I'm glad I did. This school, really had changed me into a different person. (: And of course, I met aLOT of unique and awsome people in this school.

Oh yea, me, Hani, Ash, Kopal & Suren stayed back till.. 2 something. For what? Chit-chatting, gossiping or like what Ash said, "bitching." X) It's been a long time since I gossip.. I mean, in previous school got lar. Thought will stop already, but started again. :D Who cares, that's what I'm good of. It's not that I talk bad things much, I listened more. Let Kopal do all the talking. :P

Lastly, what I like about some of the guys in this school, they are open-minded to each other. I don't think I can see much in my previous school that acts gay-ish. :D They reminded me of TVXQ though. I just loove guys that aren't gays but act like one. Thats what makes them look.. fun & special. :) To me lar.. But.. just not too much dramas.

Again. They are not gay but just act like one.
And I think they look HOT by acting like that. :D
Especially Micky. ;)
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Different. @ 9:16 AM
Today, I got to know more about that someone. And yea. He's like soooo much different from me.

"We're like the Earth and the Pluto."

That much big difference we are. -____-;

Today, mine & Hani's plan for today failed. We didn't get to do it..instead, we fall for it even more. *whacks myself* We're too lembut hati... *sigh* >__< style="font-weight: bold;">too different & perfect. Whatever. I'm being dramatic pulak.. X)

Tomorrow is the Business quiz. Wish me luck.
Shit. I didn't study at all. -___-; *hangs myself*

I didn't eat during recess. Trying to puasa with Hani. But, tak tahan.. I ate when school ended. :P

I'm hungry now. X)
Oppa! Give me food! YUM!
feed me? ;)
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Present. @ 2:43 PM
Should I or should I not give that present to that person? I'm on dilemma.
Hani and I are not in a good mood tonight. For some stupid reasons.
Well, it's kind of normal to be stupid when you're in love right?
Like what Sam-Soon said in the drama "My Name Is Kim Sam-Soon".

" People who are in love, do foolish things. Love is a stupid thing."

That's true. I agree. Whatever lar.. I really malas lar.. when I'm starting this so-called emo thingy again. It's just stupid. I should just concentrate in my studies eventhough I know I can never concentrate cus' of this stupid feelings eventhough I say so, but.. I should just, TRY. *kills all the hopes*

I want this for my birthday present this year, but still couldn't afford to buy it after my plans of buying this present myself. X) I saw a bigger one at Sunway Pyramid that day. :O

I'm gonna name it Snowy-bear. (:

Nvm. There's always next year. IF the teddy bear is still there. ):
I've never wanted a teddy bear as much as I wanted this one.
It's pretty!! And cuddly and white as a snow! ;)
Fasting. @ 1:33 PM
...is puasa in Malay.

Yeap. The month that all of the Muslims have been waiting for. The month when I have to go around answering the same answer when people started asking me these.

"Tak puasa ker?"
"Uzur ek?"

The answer will be, "I'm not a Malay." Maybe I should make a shirt written that. >__< style="font-style: italic;">(like all of them thought) it doesn't mean I am a Malay. If I start to eat in public during this month, there's those eyes staring and mouth chatting while looking at me.. like trying to say, "Isn't she Malay?" Hello~~ We're in Malaysia, Malays are not the only ones who are living here ok. Plus, if you go to Thailand, there's a lot more people that looks like Malay.

Anyway, today I didn't do anything much. Well, I was at home, studying. Haha.. Yea right. Studying like for few pages. I'm lazy lar.. I think I fell asleep after that. -___-; Maybe tonight I will be awake studying. Should stay away from the computer. ^^; Oh yea, meet the newest member of the family.

Junior-Flit. :D

My cousin gave it to us cus' this lil' guy keep fighting with its own companies at home. The reason we gave him that name cus' he looks similar with my bestest ham-friend last time, Flit. I miss him. TT__TT So, this Junior-Flit gonna accompany our ham-Hero who has just lost his best friend ham-Xiah. XD I know, I don't know what name I should give it to them. Sadly, ham-Xiah died last week.

This guy looves to take all the food and keep it by one side. As if keeping it somewhere safe. X) Cute, huh?

This is a few days before he died. >_<> He was already sick.
I felt like a really bad owner, couldn't do anything for him.

Since Flit died, I was too scared to love other hamsters as much as I love him. >__< Damn sad when seeing it died.

TVXQ. 1 September 2008 at Kimpo Airport.

Xiah & Max




They are working really hard in Japan. >__< style="font-weight: bold;">SM Concert in Thailand this month. Thailand. TVXQ is gonna be near with me again. And I still can't get the chance to meet them. Especially Micky. ):

Imagine Micky go through fasting. What would happen? This.

haha.. lazy Yoochunie. :D
joke joke.. X)
Oppa..I want to lay by your side. ;)