♫ Lene's Eternal Happiness

Monday, August 31, 2009

The Shadowlands @ 11:11 PM

The Shadowlands
by Ryan Adams

God, please bring the rain
Yeah, and bring it soon
Let it flood right through the houses
Into Judy's room

With a father on amphetamines
Her mother hides the pearls
Reach out into the darkness
And find my little girl

'Cause she's angry like a salesman
who just couldn't make a sale
Threw the wedding rings in the sewer
And damned them all to hell

Please lead her to the mountains
That you fashioned out of sand
While the roaches climb the walls
From the hotel where he calls

Most people never find the love
Most people never find the love
Sometimes you just cant be a man
Sometimes you just cant be a man
When your living in the darkness
Of the shadowlands
The shadowlands
The shadowlands

This is a short but meaningful song. Looking at the lyrics, really short, trying to tell a story. But the meaning behind the story is what matters. (: What makes the song duration longer is because of the guitar solo in the end. I seriously love the solo in the end, well played. The first time I heard the full song, I somehow realized it was played in One Tree Hill before. And yeap, I was right. :D I'm so proud that I'm able to recognize a song that I've heard only once.
Another one of the amazing quotes in the series. ;)

Old Guy : I want to tell you something son, it's the most important thing there is -- love, finding the right person to spend your life with.

Lucas : I know I made the right choice.

Old Guy : (Laughs) That's where they get you, thinking you got a choice. Love finds you son. You don't find love. Its got a little bit to do with destiny, fate, whats written in the starts, and a lot to do with the simple fact that most women are smartter than we are. And wily. But if you want to believe that you had a choice in the matter, I'd say you made a good one.

Lucas : Why is that ?

Old Guy : Because she showed up. And she sure is pretty.

Happy Independence Day, Malaysia. (: @ 12:00 AM

It's the 52nd Independence Day for Malaysia, the place where I belong. ;) I'm proud of it. I think Malaysia is like, the only country that has three different main races (Chinese, Malay, Indian) that together, shares this beautiful country made by God. It's really amazing to see different people mixing with each other, sharing and respect the different cultures of each and every one of them.

Went surfing the net and found some good quotes about patriotism. (:

"If you are ashamed to stand by your colors, you had better seek another flag."

-Author Unknown

"Love your country. Your country is the land where your parents sleep, where is spoken that language in which the chosen of your heart, blushing, whispered the first word of love; it is the home that God has given you that by striving to perfect yourselves therein you may prepare to ascend to him."

-Giuseppe Mazzini

"Men love their country, not because it is great, but because it is their own."

-Seneca

"Patriots always talk of dying for their country, and never of killing for their country."

-Bertrand Russel

"I like to see a man proud of the place in which he lives.
I like to see a man live so that his place will be proud of him."

-Abraham Lincoln

Love the last two. :D My hopes for Malaysia, well... more peace and let the good things stay and the bad things go away. That's all I could say and pray for. It's an awesome country actually, just that lately, bad things kept happening. I hope it would get better, and I realized there's not much of a patriotism spirit this year. Usually we could see it everywhere during the month of our National Day. But, this year's seems... quite empty? I hope all the Malaysians will together continue to help develop our country even more and to make this place, which is our home, to become even a better place. ;)

That's all for now. Owh, went to the gift shops today and found this cute fella. :D

quack quack!
He's adorable right? I named him DUCKY. ;)

P.S. I love HIM. ;)

Friday, August 28, 2009

Cutie pie. :D @ 6:01 PM

Found another Korean cutie to add in my list of hottie guys I like. ;P
Song Seung Hyun from FT Island. Yeah, the newest member. I found him cute after watching their latest MV, "I HOPE". I was like, "Omg, the guy with the white hat is soooo cute!" *___* His smile is ... omg. And he RAPS! :D I guess that's where he steals my heart yow! I'm into rappers okay. ;)

hot hot! @__@

Shut up Ashwin. ;P Nichkhun is still MINE! Muahahahahaha! *greedy mode*

aaaawww.. Nichkhun!
sawatdee kaa... khun naa-rak jang na ka!
dichan rak khun ka! ;)

Hee. ;P No matter how long the list will be, the first one will never be replaced. Who? This guy lor.

Micky;Park Yoochun
The guy that made me smile every single day. ;D

But YOU made me smile all day long for every single day.
Dasyat kan? I blame YOU for this pain on my cheeks. ;P

"Heading To The Ground" Teaser (YUNHO's new drama!!!) @ 1:23 PM

Omg omg. The teaser for the drama is out! Though it's for 30+ seconds, I'm excited like crazy here! *squeals non-stop* Yunho appa~ damn hot and funny!

1st teaser.

2nd teaser.

I DEFINITELY WANT TO WATCH THIS DRAMA! OF COURSE! It's YUNHO! :D

Thursday, August 27, 2009

We are different yet the same @ 10:47 PM

Went to Neverland with my sayangs today. (: We had a wonderful moment together. Neverland fairies that attended yesterday's activity:
- Nat
- Siva
- Kavi
- Thinesh
- Kopal
- Ashwin
- Yeong Shen
- Sasi
- Tabitha
- Joanna
- Hani

- Sherlene

Fairies' photographers of the day. Mother & son. :D

the last three pictures are my favourite. :D

"A moment that can never be repeated again"
You know, when you're with friends, how you look in the pictures doesn't matter anymore? It's like "Who cares I look suck, I'm with people who loves the sucky me." XD

I cherish every one of them. (: The pictures of course. The people in the pictures? I appreciate every one of them and thank God for letting me meet them. ;) I don't know whether this is the first time I would say this but, yeah, I'm glad I chose Form 6 and came to SMK (L) Bukit Bintang. I had wonderful moments and got to know wonderful people. And of course, I met a wonderful guy that I fell in love with on 16 August 2009. ;)

I didn't post the Merdeka celebration yet on 21st Aug 2009 huh? Here it is. (note:there's more in FaceBook of course)

Hani+Nik = Negeri Sembilan
Kopal+Lene = Pahang

hee. ;)

Full of happiness during that day. It might not look like a Merdeka celebration much but the only thing that made me realized is most of the people in that hall were smiling. It was a beautiful view to me. And the ending was extremely fun, reminded me of how fun those schools in Japan and Korea. When they celebrate any occasions, the bonding between the people matters the most. Hey, on that day, I tell you, if you want to relate with 1MALAYSIA, you definitely see it on that day. Especially the "train" that they made in the end of the celebration. Different people, holding each others' shoulders, reunited. Now that's what is called Perpaduan. Just wish they could stick with that, and at least bring peace to the country a bit. I think they can, if they realized it on that day. That day, might had made a difference on one person. Anyone can be. You? Me? Him? Her? Them? Us? At least, one person had changed his/her view on people who are different from them.
It doesn't make a difference to the whole school, but at least it makes a difference to that person's whole life. ;)

Things that happened to me... everything. Felt like I'm in the series, One Tree Hill. Know why I love the series so much? It really concentrates on the reality of life. Maybe those who never watch it before would think, "This is just another series that show's how perfect life is with the happy endings and all...bla bla bla..." But no. There's issues, problems that are faced by people in the real world. How they go through all those problems? Not by getting happy endings or suddenly had the happy things just like that. It shows how they make the happiness to happen. That's what matters. I guess my life is like that too. Just that it's called One Petaling Jaya. ;P

You know when things are too good to be true? I could felt it like something bad is going to happen. Our relationship. That's why I just want to be prepared.
Do you think so too?

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

6 billion people @ 11:44 PM

"At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world. Some are running scared.. some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day.. others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good.. struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls -- and sometimes.. all you need is 1."

-Peyton Elizabeth Sawyer

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Nobody's Fool @ 3:46 PM

"Fall back, take a look at me and you'll see
I'm for real, I feel what only I can feel
And if that don't appeal to ya, let me know
And I'll go, cause I flow better when my colors show
I'm not nobody's fool.
If you want to bring me me down, go ahead and try."

Currently listening to Avril Lavigne's "Nobody's Fool". (:

Went to tuition and had another interesting class with Mrs Mahani, my Business teacher. She's so funny. XD She could be a good counselor. I think she's the most optimistic person I've ever met. She even said "If your husbands were to cheat you (advice for the girls), just let them be. Pray to God and move on with your life. Don't care about them cus' they are the one that'll end up suffering." The funny thing is when she said all of it in Malay, it's really funny.

"Tak payah kau nak fikir, sedih-sedih kalau suami kau curang. Nanti asyik stress mati camtu jer, kaya dia dapat duit kau. Kau teruskan hidup biar die nak curang, sabar jer, nanti dia yang stress sorang2 pastu dia mati, kau dapat duit dia, kaya jugak. Banyak tu duit insurans. "

XD That made me laugh like hell. She can really talk non-stop and joke. The best two quotes I got from her today was:

"Life is like a bowling. You have your own track, and just hit the pins on your own track. Don't interfere other people's track"

"It's better to plant a new tree rather than watering the one that has already wilted."

The first quote was about not being a busybody in other people's life while the second one is more about moving on with a relationship.
Owh yeah, she even mentioned about if a guy made a promise like "I'll do it after marriage..." something about smoking or bad attitude, don't ever believe it. She's very confident that they won't keep the promise. XD So, it's better to tell them to change now, that's what she said. She's one interesting teacher huh? :D I don't mind having classes with her every day. Cus' each of her class, I learn something.

Went back home and Star Movies played quite an old movie. XD It brings back the memories to me though cus' I had always love watching that movie when I was small.

Haha! Do you know this movie? The baby is really cute and the three kidnappers are really funny. Very hilarious movie. A must-watch for baby lovers. :D I just knew the baby was actually acted by twins. O_o;

I realized I'm into web-cams lately. X) Playing around my brother's laptop and he gets annoyed every time he came back and saw me in his bedroom. ;P Owh... and I'm starting to love my original hair. ;) Thanks to Peyton Sawyer(Hilarie Burton) and Taylor Swift. Of course theirs are really nice ones, but I kinda' like mine too. Peyton's hair in Season 6 is definitely the BEST. So recently, I've stopped using the iron-straightener. Plus, I'm not in the mood in looking good lately. ^^;

ONE TREE HILL rocks! :D

O_-; Web-cams kills my time. Had to go study now. Still online though. ;P Anyway, a picture of my idol. (: Peyton Sawyer with her awesome and sexy hair. I love her green eyes too.

She's awesome. Love her lots. ;)

P.S. I love HIM. ;)

Monday, August 24, 2009

Stay by my side @ 10:25 PM

"Sometimes i wonder if anything's absolute anymore. Is there still right and wrong? Good and bad? Truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable,left to interpretation, grey. Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth, transform it, cause we're faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes things simply catch up to us.

Truth is still absolute. Believe that. Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful than you've ever imagined. And even when truth is more cruel than any lie."

- Lucas Eugene Scott

I don't know what's right or wrong. I want to cry to someone. I need someone to let it all out. I need you, right now, right beside me. But things can't happen the way I wanted. It's okay if you can't help me, it's okay you can't give good advices to help me. What's important is... you can still keep me alive in this world. Just by being there for me. That's all I asked for.
With this sadness controlling me inside, I felt numb and lonely. I need you. Just you. I want you to understand how I felt right now. I don't know what to do. All I know is... I just want to cry to you. I don't care anymore if I look childish and are being immature. I just need you right now. Really... need you. It's really hard. I can't go through this alone. I felt so weak. So useless. :( I hate this feeling right this moment. But I need you... so badly cus' I trust you the most now.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

The littlest things @ 4:15 AM

I want to watch, I want to watch, I want to watch... these two dramas. Why? Cus' there's two of my oppa(s) acting in it. Kim Jaejoong and Jung Yunho. (: Always the proudest fan on earth.

Full trailer of "HEAVEN'S POSTMAN", Jaejoong in it. The drama is done.

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Yunho filming "HEADING TO THE BARE GROUND", still filming.

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I'm happy that they are starting to enter the acting world. They are both the umma and appa of the TVXQ family. Jaejoong umma and Yunho appa, that's what I called them. (: Of course, I would like them to stay as a singer too but that might be too much of work for them then. Maybe a little acting for now and later back to singing is okay. Cus' I looooove their music and I really want to hear more new songs from them. These guys are amazing. Always. Since Hero and U-Know is the highlights for this post, I'll post pictures of these two hot guys. ;)
(click on picture to enlarge/original size)

Hero Jaejoong umma

U-Know Yunho appa

Umma+Appa (JAEHO!) :D

Hee. (: Love both of them.

Recently my phone kept randomly played Lily Allen's "Littlest Things". And even the radio too. -__-; Plus, the trailer of "Gossip Girls" in 8TV also uses this song. Must be coincidence... as always. But I love the piano played in this song. So cute and sweet.
Baby, I need you. :( I feel so pampered right now by him. Even the littlest things done by him makes me smile till' my cheeks hurt. So NOT me.
Love is turning me into another person. O_o;

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you.

"I don't know why I trusted you but I knew that I could."

Friday, August 21, 2009

I'm berry berry strawberry lovey you. (: @ 8:02 PM

The ceremony is over. It was a success. ;) Pictures coming I guess since I didn't take any using my phone. Anyway, for now... What I got from my daddy at Cameron Highlands.

strawberry pillow. :D
I think he still thinks me as a small girl.

And today, my beloved sister, Angeline and cousin, Jesica bought me this cute T-shirt.

Hee. I'm lucky to have them right? (: Looove them. Thank you sooo much!

Currently listening to some Michelle Branch's songs from my brother's laptop. "Goodbye to You" sounds depressing. ^^; But the music doesn't sound so sad with the sound of the drums. I like the ending, "You're my shooting star." I love "Everywhere". Very catchy and kinda' rock-ish.
Anyway.. I had the feeling to listen more of Secondhand Serenade songs. Seriously, their songs... haha. Really gives me the mood. And the lyrics are beautiful. ;) Love them.

To be honest here. People said we should be happy with what we had. But I have too much worries now. One of it is love of course. (I don't want to start talking about my future worries of what I'm going to do in the future cus' I'm gonna be hell sad.) Love... Cus' I'm afraid I might get too into with it. And then... end up hurt. I wonder... how does he REALLY feel? His words are convincing, but his actions are not. But yet, I felt like I'm falling for the words. I'm scared. I'm sorry for having doubts on you. But it just scares me. I don't know which is right or wrong. Which is good or bad. Gosh, damn it. I'm so in love with you. But.. you know what's the scariest part? I'm not sure how you really feel for me. You've done a lot, I know. But... still. I'm not angry, I'm just scared. Are you scared too? That's why... you can't look straight into my eyes and said, "I love you"? Is it? I don't know.

Ish. I hate the ME right now. -_-; Gi blaja ah Lene.
*takes the strawberry pillow and runs to the room* oh yeah, Bye. ;)

Thursday, August 20, 2009

I'm lost @ 12:24 AM

"I'll always be there for you."

A familiar sentence to any of you? Did you fall for it? Or did you just ignore it cus' you knew you couldn't trust that sentence. Does it give any meaning to you? Does it leave a scar in your life? Does it make you trust a person again? Or does it make you have no trust to anyone anymore? Does it make any sense?

What does love need? I know I need something, or someone. Is it a need because of love, I don't know. It's just a loneliness that's screaming inside. "Move on." Is always an easy sentence to say. Yet, it's hard for most to do. Currently listening to The Script's "The Man Who Can't Be Moved". The guitar played beautifully, together with the lyrics of a story. I wonder, if this kind of story does exist in this reality world. Haha. Maybe one in a billion.

I've done with the class profile. Which is quite a mess for the second page, but I'm kinda' satisfied with the first page. (: It shows the kind of art that I love. And there's skies! I wished I could do better, but yeah, I'm not good in designing with computer. Gonna be in a fashion show for this Friday's Merdeka closing ceremony. Me and Kopal are partners, representing the state Pahang Darul Makmur. It's gonna be the last time for Hani and I to get involve with all this, I promised her. ;P My part for the class decorating is also done, now what's left is some touch-ups. I love my class. Thanks to Shalomie and Riba that gives out all the awesome ideas for the decorations. I tell you, these girls are good. Creative and original. ;) I hope we would win but hey, if we didn't won, I still believe that we're the best. Cus' of the hardwork that comes from each and every one of us. What's important is the people inside the class. We're family. Always.
Home feels more like home now, after my sister is back. :D We're back together as the six-members family again. It felt good.

Though my mind is kinda' messed up right now and I wished to have just one person to blurt it all out to... but... it's okay. Wait, it's not okay.
I need you. Yes, YOU. *sigh* I know this sounds really selfish of me but... you said you'll always be there for me. And I need you. I really really need you.

haha. Micky is making Harang annoyed.
Yoochun oppa, I'm lonely. :(

cus' if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
and your heart starts to wonder were on this earth i could be,
thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
and you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street,
so I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Anger kills! @ 10:02 PM

Today was a disaster. As usual, I'm really sick and tired of all these. -__-; Seriously felt like I'm back to those time when I'm in primary school and everyone fought because of stupid and small matters. That is still fine to me. What pisses me of the most is this type of people:

You're angry with one person and that only one person is the one that makes you angry, yet it seems as if the whole fucking world has to be blamed. Right? Even your friends? Wait, I don't know whether that can even be called "friendship". Hani was right when she said, "So much for FRIENDS FOREVER." Gosh, seriously grow up wey. Please. I act like a child sometimes PHYSICALLY but at least I'm not that MENTALLY childish. Yeah, of course people have the right to be angry when someone insults or hurt them, but hey, it's that OTHER person, not the people around that person. Gee. I bet these type of people, when a person just goes up to them and said, "Hey, your friend is backstabbing you...bla bla bla..." And you'll believe it right? I seriously couldn't believe it. And how many times you want to repeat the same mistakes and say "sorry"? Unbelieveable. You have to accept that some people couldn't forgive you all the time when you kept doing the same mistakes. I admit, I forgive people too easily, but I've encountered those who refused to forgive people at all. It's not hard to forgive each other, but some people have their limits.

I haven't felt that angry for so long, I think I nearly burst out. Luckily I managed to chill out after school. Haih. Less than 4 months more for all of us to stay together. Is it that hard to just stop hurting each other's feelings? And if you felt like your whole life is messed up, wait till you see those who are worst than yours, then you'll understand. Hey, and I'm not saying that I'm not at wrong too okay. I was totally pissed off just now, that's why I scream it out. People always have their limits, and yeah, I've reached the top already okay. I shouldn't be angry but yeah, I did and that's why I'm writing it out in MY blog. And now, even in class things are turning gloomy already. Puas hati? So much for celebrating Merdeka with the theme, "1 MALAYSIA" yet we're arguing among each other.

Admitting mistakes, saying sorry (and don't repeat the mistake anymore), forgive each other, be patient, respect each other, understand each other. All that... it's not easy. Cus' we're humans. But, that doesn't mean you can't try.

Katherine Anne Porter once said: There seems to be a kind of order in the universe... in the movement of the stars and the turning of the Earth and the changing of the seasons. But human life is almost pure chaos. Everyone takes his stance, asserts his own right and feelings, mistaking the motives of others, and his own.
-Lucas Eugene Scott

Xiah.Micky.Hero.Max.U-Know.
I admired their friendship. (: One for all, all for one.
TVXQ FOREVER.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Hatred @ 10:28 PM

Please don't let me do all these designing thingy with a software that I have no idea how to use it properly. =__=; I took hours just to make a simple design. Useless, I know.

Why do humans have hatred? For example, a stranger came over and started scolding you and the next thing you know, you starts cursing this person and wished he/she would be dead. Yet, you don't even know the person's name. Humans can hate other person for any particular reasons of course. But hating too much would only bring the humans themselves to be hated which some of them wouldn't care cus' they would assumed the whole wide world are already against him/her, so might as well ignore about it. Ego, haha. Gosh, why am I talking about this. Probably cus' I'm angry with someone but I can't bring myself to hate that person. It's hard for me to hate someone though. -_-; Not a good thing.

My eyes are half closed already. I seriously don't think I'm doing these designing thingy again. =__=; It's torturing. I preferred the art that's full of freedom. (: No worries, no need to follow anything, just doing art with all your heart.
I think I should go sleep a bit now. Byeeee!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Picture of You @ 9:48 AM

Please be prepared for a really die-hard-fan post from me.

I can say this is the most beautiful music video from my favourite guys, TVXQ. (: Oppa(s), you guys knew that I love the ocean so much right? ;P Thank you so much for making my day happy again. *download the video to phone* Now, I won't be sad for quite some time if I watch the video. Thank you oppa(s)! :D

I seriously love the video. It's so full of... nature. XD And this is the most honest statement, EVERYONE look HOT. Yes. Everything was perfect. Yunho was with his old hair style, during Rising Sun days. He still gives the cute-and-loving-daddy mood. (: Jaejoong looks beautiful as usual and I just love when he sings with emotions. It's like he has become one with the nature. Junsu is seriously getting hotter day by day. Come on, he doesn't have that cute-angelic Xiah face anymore. Except he still has the cute voice. Changmin totally looks like an adult already. But of course, because we fans are too used in looking him as the "baby" in the group, he still looks "small" even when he matures. ;P And lastly, Yoochun. No word can describe how much he captured my heart with that voice of him. And he looks extremely sexy and hot and cute and sweet and beautiful. ;P And when he ended the song, the camera shoots his face only with the sunset.... *faints* Shut up, he's mine. Gosh, I love all of them. I'm so gonna continue buying their CDs even if I've gone to the working world okay. ;) Wait, I have to meet them! Korea, Korea, one day I'll come. Just be prepared. :D

I'm going to Cameron Highlands now! *squeals* Bye bye! I might edit this post with pictures of the guys. ;) For now I'll just put...

Micky;Park Yoochun
Okay, stop staring at his leg! He's mine okay. ;P I know he looks sexy.
But, my baby is sexy too. ;P

Friday, August 14, 2009

Mixed @ 10:37 PM

Class profile, class profile, class profile. @__@ I am seriously not good in using computer for designing. HELP! I need help from experts. Anyone? This class profile would suck. I'm still clueless of how to design it. -__-; Won't be sleeping tonight. And tomorrow morning, I'll be in the car half dead. XD On the way to Cameron Highlands. Owh, strawberries and butterflies, here I come! Gosh, I'm hungry right now.

Bryan Lee said my brain is sexy which I don't know where the hell he got that from. Horny I can accept, but sexy? O_o; Nothing much happen at school. Well... besides Hani bullying me like usual, we decorated our class for Merdeka! (:
Owh, swine flu had caused everyone to stay alert and stayed at home most of the time. I heard even at school we're advised by the principal to stay away from each other for... how many meters ek? I got memory problem. -__-; My brain disfunction a bit due to the three days of eating and sleeping at home. Yes, I'm gemok and bulat like what that SOMEONE said.
Ashwin just told me the biggest lie of all that is, "I don't want to love anyone." :P Ish ish. Dear son, you and your daddy need some daddy-son talk. Why? Cus' your mom here kept giving you terrible advices. XP

That's all for today. Nite nite my beloved bloggy. (:
I need food!! *crawls to the kitchen*

This is one sexy and hot picture of Micky;Park Yoochun.
I love love love him. But I love you more.
In one condition. Say "I love you" to me. ;P