No, I'm not scaring anyone lar. Just scaring myself so that I could take care of myself even more. Ergh. I kept telling myself, "I'm gonna be okay. I'm gonna be okay. I'm gonna be okay." I'm gonna be okay right? My stomach pain "attacked" me again this morning at 3 am. It was scary. This is the first time I felt really scared. My whole body was cold... And I was thinking of death that time. O_o; Serious. No joke. Ate some pain killers and fell asleep. "Maybe it's just normal stomach ache." Trying to make myself feel good. ^^; But..it should be lar kan? But then...I remembered Vishnuu telling me to go do some check-up..it can be ulcer. And he started babbling about how they put the tube through the throat... -__-; omg. I don't want to know any further. Then.. JUST now.. Mom said about her friend telling her to take me to take X-Ray or something. O_O;
I'm gonna be okay. I'm gonna be okay. I'm gonna be okay..
(Kristen Kreuk is damn pretty!!)
more to come... (:
And I just realised Stacie Orrico is one of those talented singers who are not appreciated.
by Stacie Orrico
I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go
CHORUS:
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... There's gotta be more
(Than wanting more)
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half-way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
CHORUS
I'm wanting more
I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed....
Always... Always...
CHORUS - repeat twice
More to life
There's gotta be more to life (more to life)
There's gotta be more to life (more)
More to my life
It's my heart and it's going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I can feel like I can do anything
One Tree Hill's episode yesterday is... about struggling. Struggling to face the truth. Struggling to fight back. Struggling to forget. That's what I think. Most interesting is the ending when Haley called Lucas and said, "You can't marry Lindsey." I wonder why. O_o; Cus' Haley is the one that said Lucas picked the right person to spend the rest of his life. And now... well..surely can't miss this week's episode. Peyton is beautiful as usual. (: I just love watching her and how she react with things in her surrounding. She's one strong girl.
Exams coming. Don't ask. *sigh*
Hani: Orang cakap kalau mengeluh, akan memendekkan umur.
Me: *sigh* *sigh* *sigh*
;P

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing
to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did this to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Or maybe... I don't even have a heart.
This is my story..."
If you do, please SHOW it.
Cus' I do... love you.
But in the end.. if it's still hard... I'm giving up.
I'm glad some things are back to normal and most of us become even more closer and starts to appreciate each other even more. (: But it seems new problem kept coming. I guess it's the result of my selfishness and greediness. To whoever that's out there who's thinking what I've done is terrible, awful and selfish, I admit it. I had hurt the feelings of two person that really trusted me. Before that, I've also hurt my friends, but what I've done to these two are too terrible. So terrible that I'm starting to call myself a bitch or maybe a slut. Yes. I know, what I did was wrong, but have any of you people ever imagined if you're in my situation? I know, most of you would go.. "No, I will never do something like that." Haha. I once said the same thing. But, I did it. And now I know.. people do mistakes. And whatever that mistakes are, I can't hate them or said bad things about it cus' I've never been in their situation. That doesn't mean, I'm proud with what I've done. What I've done is really bad, really bad that I'm not enjoying it but I actually suffered a lot of pain. The pain that you guys would never understand.
Lucas Scott had to make a choice. And he did. He's happy about it. But me. It's just too hard. I can't bare it. I chosed to let all go. And of course, I'm not happy about it. But most of you might said I deserved it. I chosed to take all the pain and hold it to myself. Are you guys satisfied now? This bitch+slut is getting the payback that she deserves. *laughs*
note: I did not mention any names, and PLEASE don't assume that this post are for any of you.This is just my point of view about what people might think if they looked at my situation now.
About what's been happening, we had a mini drama advertisement competition between the form 6 classes. X) We had fun. I enjoyed it even though we lost. Hee. What's the main point of the competition? I don't know what the others would think, but to me, it's like trying to help us all to get along together. Things had been complicated even between our classmates now and all I ever wanted is the close relationship we had last year. I just hate it when everyone argues. The feeling sucks. I'm not sure yet what's the situation right now, but I hope things would get better since this is our last year together. You'll never imagined what would happen when each one of us would go to our own paths after school. There is possibilities that most of us won't contact each other anymore. That's why, appreciate this one last year with the fullest.
Btw, looking forward for the Science class performance tomorrow. Good luck. ;)
Anyway, they changed One Tree Hill in 8TV on Sunday now. And I was waiting patiently for today! :D Omg. I think I'm addicted to this series. Seriously, English series that gave a deep impression on me goes to One Tree Hill.
Old Guy : Three simple Cards. Three beautiful ladies. It's real simple son. All you got to do is pick one.
Lucas : Alright.
Old Guy : Come on now son. Three Queens, three choices. Just follow the heart.
Lucas : That's the one.
Old Guy : Well, well. Looks like you found your Queen. Not many do. How did you know which one to pick ?
Lucas : I guess I always knew.
Old Guy : I want to tell you something son, it's the most important thing there is -- love, finding the right person to spend your life with.
Lucas : I know I made the right choice.
Old Guy : (Laughs) That's where they get you, thinking you got a choice. Love finds you son. You don't find love. Its got a little bit to do with destiny, fate, whats written in the starts, and a lot to do with the simple fact that most women are smartter than we are. And wily. But if you want to believe that you had a choice in the matter, I'd say you made a good one.
Lucas : Why is that ?
Old Guy : Because she showed up. And she sure is pretty.
Interesting huh? (:Then.. first week of school after that, had a major stomach ache. Well..not lar that major. ;P Went to see the doctor with mom on Friday night and yeah. Had a little shock when the I showed the doctor where I felt pain and he looked at me with a serious face, "That's not gastric." I was like..okay.. Then, he tried checking where the pain is again and asked for urine test. >_<>Malu betol. XD Then, he checked it and looked at me with his serious face again, "That part that you felt pain is actually your kidney." O_O; Seriously lar. You have no idea what I was thinking at that moment. Too many things. Then, he said I had bacteria in my kidney and my blood and some infection and all. ^^; Outside, was kind of worried, look at my mom and asked her again to confirm, what actually the problem is. Then, she said it's not serious, just an infection. So...yeah. I'm grateful. Need to pay attention on my kidney more now. Take care of it with love. :D But had to see the doctor again this Friday though. Tsk tsk. Dah lar the next day Valentine's Day.
Anyway... Things had been quite confusing and complicated lately. I still need some time..to really understand what's going on.. and what is true and what is false.
"Close your eyes, and listen to your heart carefully. There..lies the answers for your questions."
Thinking of You by Katy Perry
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
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What's In February'09 - Part 1
1. What did you dream of yesterday?
YH: I can’t remember
CM: Didn’t dream
JJ: Can’t remember
YC: I didn’t dream
JS: I didn’t dream
2. What’s the first thing you see in the morning?
YH: Hand phone
CM: Manager’s face
JJ: Manager’s smiling face
YC: Hand phone
JS: Manager’s face
3. What do you feel like doing most right now?
YH: Snowboarding
CM: Travelling
JJ: Jogging
YC: Fishing
JS: Travel
4. What’s your hand phone ringtone?
YH: Hand phone ringtone (T/N: Think he means default ringtone)
CM: Vibration mode
JJ: [Mirotic]
YC: It’s usually on silent mode
JS: [Don’t Say Goodbye]
5. What do you do when you’re alone?
YH: Drive
CM: Read books
JJ: Sleep
YC: Roll around at home (Lene: hee. Cute. Like Shin Chan.)
JS: Drive
6. If you had a week’s holiday, what would you do?
YH: Ski resort
CM: Travel
JJ: Travel alone
YC: Snowboard
JS: Travel
7. What’s the pride of your room?
YH: Prizes we received
CM: It’s wide
JJ: Sofa
YC: Pecha (T/N: No idea what that is either.)
JS: The big window where the morning sunlight comes in from
8. What do you do to cheer yourself out when you’re sad?
YH: Dance, exercise
CM: Drive
JJ: Talk a walk
YC: Drink and talk to my brother
JS: Drive
9. What was your scariest experience so far?
YH: When I fell from the rooftop in my church
CM: When I saw a ghost (T/N: The Junsu? Or the bird? He mentioned it here)
JJ: When I injured my leg during a dance rehearsal
YC: When I first came to Japan
JS: When I heard Changmin sleep talk
10. The last time you cried?
YH: Award ceremony
CM: During a Korean award ceremony
JJ: None
YC: Not really (Lene: yeah rite. Such a big lie. XD)
JS: A little during a Korean award ceremony
11. When did you feel that you’re really blessed/happy?
YH: When I’m singing on stage
CM: When I’m singing on stage
JJ: Award ceremony
YC: When I stand on stage
JS: When I lie on my bed after a day’s schedule
12. What’s your ideal type?
YH: Someone who’ll only believe in me, an optimistic person
CM: Someone who’s mature, with deep thoughts
JJ: A woman with pretty hands (Lene: that's all? O_o;)
YC: A gentle woman
JS: A bright/cheerful woman
13. Something a female does that makes your heart beat faster?
YH: When she brushes off the dirt/lint on my clothes
CM: When she places her hands on her chest when bowing
JJ: Nothing special, just when I feel she’s feminine
YC: When she’s washing clothes
JS: When she places her hands on her chest when bowing
14. What will you give to your girlfriend?
YH: I’ll write a song for her
CM: A bouquet
JJ: I’ll write a song for her
YC: Myself (Lene: look at this guy. He's always good in cheesy talks. ;D)
JS: Necklace
15. What do you want for your next birthday?
YH: Shoes
CM: Car
JJ: Car
YC: Time to spend it with the people I treasure (Lene: Sweet & meaningful as always)
JS: Holiday
16. If you found a million yen?
YH: Give it to the people in need
CM: Give it to the police
JJ: Give it to the police
YC: Save (Lene: ish ish. This dork~! XD)
JS: Give it to the police
17. If you were reborn as a girl tomorrow?
YH: Cry my heart out
CM: I want to go to an onsen
JJ: I want to buy clothes!
YC: I want to go to an onsen (T/N: hot spring)
JS: I want to go to an onsen
18. What do you want to say ‘bye-bye’ to?
YH: Injuries
CM: Cold/Flu
JJ: Muscle training
YC: Troubles
JS: Everything sad (Lene: Awww.. I wonder if he's sad these days?)
19. You see a shooting star. What will you wish for?
YH: That time will fly faster. I want to be 30
CM: That my family will be healthy
JJ: That THSK will be a band that receives more love
YC: Happiness (Lene: Me and him always had something in common huh? :D)
JS: I want to win the lottery
20. A recent lie you told?
YH: None
CM: I didn’t lie
JJ: None
YC: Saying I wasn’t sick (Lene: -__- Baka! Must take care of yourself oppa!)
JS: I can’t remember
21. What left the deepest impression on you in Japan?
YH: Eating at a restaurant with a pretty night view near the Tokyo Tower
CM: Budokan live
JJ: Appearing on [Kouhaku]
YC: Budokan live
JS: Budokan live
22. Your favourite Japanese food
YH: Motsunabe
CM: Ramen
JJ: Udon
YC: Ramen
JS: Natto
23. What food would you recommend that has kimchi in it?
YH: Tuna Kimchi rice
CM: Kimchi fried rice
JJ: Kimchi jjigae
YC: Kimchi jjigae (T/N: Kimchi stew)
JS: Kimchi fried rice
24. Your ‘enemy’ is?
YH: Myself
CM: Junsu (Lene: XD hahaha!)
JJ: Myself
YC: Supper
JS: Changmin (Lene: something happen between these two? XD)
25. What hair style would you like to try next?
YH: Permed hair
CM: Please give me Jude Law’s hairstyle
JJ: Blue hair (Lene: XD Blue betol..)
YC: Long and permed hair
JS: Bald (Lene: O_O omg. Oppa seriously ah?)
26. A secret you’ve never told anyone
YH: I don’t have anything to say
CM: No comment
JJ: I don’t tell my secrets ^^
YC: Actually, I’m lonely (Lene: Omg.*hugs* This guy ah.. Haih. I want to be by his side! :/)
JS: None
27. What’s a ‘rumor’ that you found interesting recently?
YH: That the economy will get better
CM: That the ice in the North Pole will melt
JJ: That Changmin has caught a cold
YC: I’m not interested in them
JS: Beckham’s AC Milan
28. How do you relieve stress?
YH: Drive
CM: Eat, sleep
JJ: I just blank out
YC: Supper
JS: Game
29. A recent drama/movie you’ve watched.
YH: [Mamma Mia]
CM: [Hanazakari no Kimitachi e] (Lene: YAY! :D)
JJ: [Ponyo]
YC: [Naruto]
JS: [24]
30. What would you do if you could read minds?
YH: I’d like to know what others think of me
CM: I’ll just read them
JJ: I would be boring if I could read everyone’s mind
YC: I think I’d be really distressed, and wouldn’t want to meet people
JS: Enter FBI 31.
When do you feel lonely?
YH: Before I sleep
CM: Before I sleep
JJ: When I’m separated from my members (Lene: They can never be separated.)
YC: When we’re on the move after our schedule ends
JS: I don’t really feel it
32. The theme song for today is?
YH: [Kiss mini cooperamama sayonara]
CM: [Killing Me Softly]
JJ: [Wasurenaide] (T/N: Please don’t forget)
YC: [Kiss the Baby Sky]
JS: [I Believe I can Fly]
33. The first time you travelled overseas?
YH: Taiwan (T/N: That would be 2004 for the Golden Melody Awards, I think)
CM: Taiwan
JJ: Taiwan in summer 2004
YC: 1998, America
JS: Taiwan
34. What do you collect?
YH: Card keys (T/N: Hotel card keys?)
CM: CD
JJ: Accessories
YC: Plastic models from [Gundam Seed]
JS: Beautiful pictures from around the world
35. Who’s the person you want to meet most now?
YH: Obama
CM: Obama
JJ: Monkey King (T/N: Character from [Journey to the West], Sun Wu Kong, or Son Oh Kong in Korean) (Lene: XD Aiyoh. This guy.)
YC: Santa Claus (Lene: So childish.XD)
JS: Jesus
36. Which animal do you think you resemble?
YH: Tiger
CM: Deer
JJ: Cat
YC: Polar bear (Lene: awww..! CUTE! *bear hug*)
JS: Hyena (Lene: O_O Junsu! You look more like a sheep! Your laugh is like hyena!;P)
37. Truthfully, what’s your fetish?
YH: Voice
CM: Feeling
YC: Pretty nails. Not really magnificent things..
JJ: Forehead
JS: Hands
38. What do you buy unintentionally at convenience stores?
YH: Milk
CM: Hot lemon juice
JJ: Health drinks
YC: Donuts (Lene: *coughs* alert alert! *glares at Hani* ;P)
JS: Fried chicken
39. Where do you start washing your body from in the bathroom?
YH: Hair
CM: Face
JJ: Chest
YC: Right arm
JS: Hair
40. When were you most embarrassed?
YH: When many people saw me fall
CM: When I fell in front of many people
JJ: During my audition
YC: When I fell in front of people
JS: When I was in 1st grade of elementary school, I went with my mum to the ladies section of the public bath and saw my female classmate… (Lene: omg LOL!)
41. Which part of the body do you first notice when you meet someone?
YH: Eyes (Lene: appa! We're the same! XD)
CM: Clothes
JJ: Nothing in particular, but I would notice how they pose
YC: Legs (Naturally since you bow when greeting someone)
JS: The overall atmosphere
42. If you had a kid, what kind of ‘dad’ will you be?
YH: A dad who’s like a friend
CM: I want to be a dad who’s like my dad
JJ: A tolerant dad
YC: A dad who would participate actively in my kid’s sports day
JS: A dad who’s like a friend
(Lene: all of you guys would be a great dad! ;D)
43. What’s something you have to do without fail every day?
YH: Celebrate
CM: Game
JJ: Half- bathing
YC: Watch [Detective Conan] (Lene: omg omg omg! ANOTHER common thing with me!*happy*)
JS: Talk to my brother on the phone
44. If you could turn back time, where do you want to go back to?
YH: High school
CM: High School
JJ: Middle school
YC: Elementary school
JS: I don’t want to turn back time. The present is good!
45. What do you want to happen tomorrow?
YH: That our schedules will be cancelled and we’ll have a break
CM: That I’ll quickly recover from my cold
JJ: Win the lottery
YC: I want it to snow (Lene: Seriously..oppa.. Are we like related or something? XD Gosh.)
JS: Turn invisible!
46. What will you be doing 10 years from now?
YH: Continue making music
CM: Continue making music and preparing for my wedding (Lene: WOW. Good one!! XD)
JJ: Together with THSK
YC: The same thing as I’m doing now
JS: Singing on stage
47. What kind of year will 2009 be?
YH: A year where we’ll have lots of things to smile about
CM: A year where we’ll be able to carry out our activities without falling sick
JJ: A year busier than 2008
YC: The best year
JS: A year where we’ll all be healthy!
48. If you became the editor of [What’s In?]
YH: Only report about THSK!
CM: THSK’s tour around the world
JJ: Half of the magazine will be THSK
YC: Have a barbeque with all the staff and artistes!
JS: Have a [Globe-trotting with THSK] corner
49. A message to our readers
YH: Please support us in 2009 too
CM: Good luck!
JJ: To the readers, I’m always grateful to you
YC: Take care of yourself, don’t catch a cold!
JS: Thank you for always reading this magazine
50. A message to [What’s In]
YH: Thank you [What’s In] for always reporting on THSK from the very first time we arrived in Japan till today
CM: Please take care of us in future!
JJ: Although I feel like we’re indebted to [What’s In] since our debut days, please help us in future!! We’ll work hard
YC: Please take care of us in future. The cover too.
JS: Amongst all the magazines in Japan, [What’s In] was the first that ran a series on us. I was really happy. Please help us in future.
source and translated by: Sparkskey@LJ
credit: DNBN
In conclusion, Micky has a few ways of thinking like me. ;P Seriously. He does. And yeap, after reading this interview, my love for him is growing even more yow! X)
Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku..
Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku
Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku..
Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku..
Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku..
Ooh..
Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku..
note: Kekasih gelap means like a secret lover or someone that you love/in love with/being together with without anyone knowing/noticing.
In South Korea, women give chocolate to men on February 14(Valentine's Day), and men give non-chocolate candy to women on March 14(White Day). On April 14 (Black Day), those who did not receive anything on the 14th of Feb or March go to a Chinese restaurant to eat black noodles and "mourn" their single life.
The 14th of every month marks a love-related day in Korea, although most of them are obscure. From January to December: Candle Day, Valentine's Day, White Day, Black Day, Rose Day, Kiss Day, Silver Day, Green Day, Music Day, Wine Day, Movie Day, and Hug Day.
source: Wikipedia
Interesting huh? Usually we only see people celebrating only on Valentine's Day. X) But having a White Day makes it more interesting. Aiyoh. But who cares lar. Nothing happen to me every year on this day anyway. Stay at home, watch romantic movies, eat and sleep. :D That's how I celebrate it! But we're having school on that day though. Sooo looking forward. -__-;
Hee. But I prefer in our previous school how they sell chocolates and flowers, and dedicate it to someone. It was fun though. (: I'll buy chocolate and eat for myself. Muahahahaa. Yum yum! X)
Valentine's Day, here I come!
