A Snow Angel's Happiness

Reasons are excuses

2012-01-11T20:52:00.005+08:00

Listening: It Will Rain by Bruno Mars

"'Cus there'll be no sunlight, if I lose you baby,
there'll be no clear sky, if I lose you baby."

I love this song. The melody of the chorus part is beautiful.

I'm in an emo state right. Nothing much to update. I'll skip today's nostalgic moments. Need to study and... haiz. Play along with my mind and heart. Confused and complicating.
But, this quote by Elena Gilbert from Vampire Diaries really suits me at this moment.
So, I'll just end this post with the quote.

"Dear diary,
today I convinced myself it was okay to give up.
Don't take risks.
Stick with the status quo. No drama.
Now is just not the time.
But my reasons aren't reasons. They're excuses.
All I'm doing is hiding from the truth.
And the truth is that... I'm scared.
I'm scared that if I let myself be happy for even one moment that...
...the world's just going to come crashing down.
And... I don't know if I can survive that."
-Elena Gilbert

P.S. Sarang hae

Can't you see the music?

2012-01-10T11:07:00.007+08:00

Listening to: Cry Cry by T-ara

Baby can't you see the look in my eyes.
I'm so in love with the dance.
Finally finished watching the continuation of this MV. (: So cool. I love Jiyeon's acting. Very touching. :D I'm starting to love T-ara even more!

So... Skipped 5 posts. =X Haiz. Blame the STAGUN. The paper totally killed my mood. I'm just hoping I could pass it. The first paper that made me disappointed so much that I regret it until now. Forget it~ trying to forget about it.
So now... three papers left. I'll be fighting for these three till the end. Such crazy essay papers. @_@ My roommate left me as soon after the third paper. I thought she was just thinking about going home, I didn't know that she would actually dumped me when I was sleeping. Leaving a love note to me.

Roommate. Can't blame you though. All this time I'm always busy and are always out from the room, I think she felt bored too. I'll never be angry with this girl. XD Even if I would, I'll end up forgiving her anyway.

Trying to finish up my food storage. D: Need to start keeping all my stuffs. Too many things. LOL My room is getting messier as time passes by. Oh, screw it. I'm always busy and lazy. XD
Haiz. I hate the fact during examinations, I will end up having to face this lovey-dovey thoughts. And my mind keeps making it complicated by questioning every actions I did. Am I wrong? Should I just come out with a decision? Why is it so hard? Why do I have to think so much? There are times I felt so selfish. It's like... I want it, but I avoided my feelings. Why? I don't know. There's so much things I'm considering. My future life. My dreams. The future planning I'm making right now to get out from this future-career situation. I don't want to be standing at this same place. I want to chase my dreams. So, so badly. But how can I relate it with my love life? Well... the future can be a scary thing. I don't want to hope or expect anything.
But, I have to admit. I'm madly in love right now.

-Nostalgic moment-
EON MEMORI AIDILFITRI 2011

So this is obviously a Hari Raya celebration event.
Well, it's actually just a normal dinner.
Got asked by my roommate to join as Protocol.
Not so formal, we just have to guide the the VIPs and serve them.
The last photo is actually with our College Principal.
Yes. Our principal. Still young. XD And funny.
Lastly, we could only eat after the event.
Thanks to TOI and SAW, for saving the food for us. =D
It was a tiring and yummy night.

I think I need to get my eyes closed for a while. Or maybe more.
Slept around 5 and woke up at 6.30 am to watch sunrise. Too bad, it's a cloudy day.
It's nearly noon, but... screw it. My sleeping pattern is a mess right now. I'll re-arrange it when I'm back at home.

Jaejoong just uploaded this today.
LOL naughty Yoochun. Look at his face.
^-^ Adorable guys.
Totally made my day.

P.S Sarang hae.

STAAGOON

2012-01-05T22:32:00.008+08:00

Listening to: I Hope You Find It by Miley Cyrus

Hurm. Kinda' miss Miley these days. No more Hannah Montana. =/ I wished to see her acting again. Or at least a new song. She must be busy.

Anyway. Ergh. Skipped one day post? Ooops. Blame the exams. :P Man, I'm hating this paper that's coming up next. STAGUN. An acronym by fellow students for Statistik Gunaan which is Applied Statistics. -.- Oh-I-so-not-good in using my right brain.

-Nostalgic moment-
N-JOY DAYS
This event is meant for our juniors.
Main point is to encourage interaction of senior-junior.
First photo is the artwork of the groups formed by juniors and seniors.
No one wants to be an informal MC, and I got dragged. D:
I embarrassed myself again in front of the juniors. -.-
I can't even make proper jokes. Haiz.
But thanks to our seniors that helped to lift up the atmosphere.
The best thing of this event is my bureau.
Food & Beverages. The best bureau with the best leader. (:
I'll never forget how nice he is to us, our Rabbit TK. hee.
The last photo is a photo of every bureaus artworks.
Well, the pink one is ours. Made by me & Kang Ting. :D

Anyway, after the event is over, Convocation Carnival was on.
I ride ATV for the first time.
It's really exciting and cool.
I thought I was addicted in riding the ATV.
I was riding so fast, the guy asked me to slow down. :P
Too excited.
And I tried out Zorb too.
Two people inside, I got in with Huey Yong.
She cried. XD Which is very cute.

So that's all. I need to continue the craziness of my STAGUN.
Wish me best of luck.

This is what JYJ looks like when thinking of their future.
:P Adorable. *pinch all of them*
Yoochun♥

I'm Me.

2012-01-02T23:36:00.005+08:00

Listening to: You by B2ST

End of one paper. 5 more to go. T_T I have to hwaiting~

Anyway, I'm suddenly in love with this song after reading the translation. Really cute. Haha.
I'll be updating little by little about what had happened last year. Me and dancing have been getting serious lately. ^^ I guess I'm loving it more and more. Hurm. This sem... I've danced for two events, despite having too much work and responsibilities, I still stubbornly wanting to dance. :D It's like an addiction. I can never say no! That's why when one of my friends said, "You're so busy, why do you still want to dance?! You don't need to dance lah.." My answer? XD "What?? Dance is not a problem at this moment. I'd rather choose dancing and let go all my responsibilities. In simple words, I'd rather perform 100 times than having another position in those events." Hard-headed as usual huh? That's me. Haha. Nah... I just want to have at least one thing that I enjoyed doing for every semester in this university. The course I'm taking now is already ruining my whole enjoyment, (the fact that I still DO NOT like it) add up with some loneliness I'm facing sometimes. I get lonely so easy here... D: I must really missed home.

-Nostalgia moment-

So this was during "Hari Malaysia".

Beginning of sem 3. On September 16.
The first task I received with these two girls,
Kher Shin & Evelyn.
Three of us were given the task to train the new juniors...
Cheerleading! D: (I was like "What???")
But it ended up more like a big cheer,
since there's SO many of them!
Around... 50? Maybe.

That's not all of them, yet, I think. O_O;
But, they were awesome and cooperative. :D
I wasn't good in interacting and was even worrying about having to
talk to juniors before the 3rd sem starts.
And yet, suddenly they gave me this task. =O
I successfully embarrass myself a bit, haiz.
But they are nice girls.
Too bad the full version of our cheer couldn't
be shown 'cus of technical problem. -.-
The event's problem.

Anyway, that's all for tonight. Have to finish up my last minute assignment that's still hanging and starts studying STAGUN. D: I totally loath this subject.

aigoo... oppa getting old now.
oppa, when are we getting married? ^-^

2012

2012-01-01T23:39:00.003+08:00

Listening to: 너 때문인걸(Because of You) by B2ST

Happy New Year! :D
So, it's 2012.
And I'm starting to blog again.
Finally.

A LOT of things happened last year which I haven't been updating 'till now. In sem 3 now, currently having finals and I'm wishing this sem to end quickly. In simple words, I shall conclude that this sem is the most exhausting for my mental health than my physical health. (Though there are times when I fall sick badly) But that could not compared to my emotional breakdown due to so many dramas by the people here. They made me realised how much I missed my home over and over again. There are moments when I nearly gave up about what people think, but I know I can't and I chose to wipe those tears and tried harder. It paid off... a bit I guess. At least the ending is not as bad as I assumed it would be. Humans are hard to handle. Especially as they gotten older, selfish and thinks about themselves and their problems more than others. I can't believe I can still see some betrayals here like those times in high school. Humans are scary. However, they also make me confused with their ever-changing personalities. I can never hate or dislike anyone here. Why? Because every time I do, I'll end up owing them a favour. @___@ They make me have second thoughts every time I have this negative image every time I see the bad side of them. I guess this could actually come to a conclusion that no one is perfect. The only way I could do is to try to solve it and not choosing sides. At this age, I guess anyone has their own problems to deal with and their reasons for their wrong doings. I myself is not a perfect person, so it's better for me to concentrate more on fixing myself instead of judging people. I want to stay as the person I am since last time. No hatred. No sides. Empathy is a necessity.

Another side of the story.
Love life is blooming.
But I'm still stuck with fear and the past.
When will I ever get over it?
I don't know.
This. I don't know how to deal it.
I just don't.

Pessimistic Conquering Mind

2011-03-20T01:20:00.003+08:00

Listening to: F***ing Perfect by Pink

The music video is inspiring. It shows mostly about self-esteem and to make you realised when you're different, you have to accept it in a good way no matter what 'cus one day, someone will realised it too.

And let me warn about this post. It's gonna be filled with pessimistic thoughts and feelings which I chose to let it out here so that I could take it off from my chest instead of keeping it inside and might affect me mentally.

First of all. I know. I'm a Chinese but I can't speak the mother-tongue language, fine it's abnormal for most Chinese people. Some would call me the "banana" or "English-educated". The banana part, I'll accept it as a joke, and the English part, it's not that accurate, 'cus I don't speak English at home. But I might just be wasting my time explaining what Kelantanese-Chinese speaks because we're from the minority ethnic in Malaysia. So, I accept the staring when I said, "I can't speak Mandarin." I accept that glaring, that whispering, that "what-kind-of-Chinese-she-is" look. And mind pls, I've been hearing the SAME sentence since I was in primary, I'm nearly sick with it, and those sentences are going to be the Chinese sentences that will remained in my mind permanently 'till I die.

- "She can't speak Chinese"
- "She don't understand"
- "Why can't she speak Chinese? "
- "How come she don't look like Chinese?"

2nd. I know I don't look like Chinese. I obviously know that since I was small, believe me, childhood experience affects your whole entire life. Yes. Dark skin. Non-straight hair. I know the dark skin seems like the most reasonable thing for you all to say I'm not like Chinese. Fine. So I accept that staring and glaring when you just find out that I'm actually the same race with you.

3rd. When the first two existed, fear grew inside of me. I'm too afraid to socialise, I always wonder what people think, or expect the same answers and questions from people. And I seems like a burden, no matter how many times they explain that I'm not a burden to them, but I still know that I am. Obviously, what do you feel if people is busy chatting with their friends and one of them would always remind them that I'm there and said, "Eh.. you go talk to her.. she's so quiet." And the answer, "My English is not good... you lah.." And the conversation goes on and on and I felt like saying, "I do understand what you both are talking about. So, don't worry." I really don't like the feeling. Though no matter how hard I try to fit in their conversation, sometimes I get annoying response that I'm sick of hearing, "Eh? You understand what we're talking about?" This response is one of the reason that stopped me from joining the conversation in the end. Even if I understand, I chose to said I don't.

4th. Judgment. Obviously from my looks, to those who love to "judge a book by its cover" would reject an impression towards me already. Though it's kind of obvious how they treated me differently compared to my friends, and well... I don't have the right to comment about this. Obviously most Chinese guys would look at girls with fair skin first. MOST, I said. Why I said this, is because it did happened. To me. I can't say anything about that 'cus God made me who I am. And I never hated about how I look like, 'cus I love how I resemble my father a lot. But please, DO NOT insult my looks, because it's like insulting my parents.

Because of all this I less talk. I stayed by myself. In addition of that, I have no confidence to even like the guy I had a crush on. Because I know how different I am. And I know, to some people, it matters. When a person is different, they will forever be different in the eyes of other people.

Hectic

2011-02-15T02:35:00.003+08:00

Listening to: "My World" by Avril Lavigne

When I watch Gossip Girl, I envy the way the white people strive for perfection. Even the things that I think is really hard to cope or situations that are hard to handle, they seems to handle it quite fine and easy. Even at the young age, they are a million times matured than me. I wished I could be as good as them in that. But seriously, is not easy. Obviously no one said it's gonna be easy, but I think I'm turning myself into a Superman this week. I never thought I could do all these things in a week, or even used up my whole 24 hours by doing tons of different things. I'll show through this post how hectic my schedule is.

SUNDAY
8:00 AM - Class.
12:30 PM till 5:00 PM - Class. (1 hour break)
5:30 PM - Basketball match - canceled but have to train a bit and watch other match.
9:00 PM - Planning/doing/preparing the name tags for 2nd floor
11:00 PM - Spring Wonderland meeting.

MONDAY
2:00 PM till 5:00 PM - Class.
5:30 PM - Meeting and went to Tapak Expo to put the rubbish bags.
10:00 PM - Perarakan SUUKOM Meeting
11:00 PM - Block Meeting
(believe me... the meeting lasted longer than I thought.
Then, continue doing assignments and finishes the name tags.
Not sure whether I'm gonna sleep.)

TUESDAY
7:00 AM - Basketball training.
(after training, continue assignments.)
3:00 PM - Cheerleading practice.
6:00 PM till 12:00 AM - Starts duty which is cleaning the rubbish and keeping it clean for Exhibition Day.

WEDNESDAY
8:00 AM - Class.
12:30 PM till 5:00 PM - Class. (1 hour break)
8:00 PM - Perarakan/Cheerleading SUUKOM.
(not sure till what time.)

THURSDAY
12:30 PM till 5:00 PM - Class.
6:00 PM - Basketball match.
(supposed to be on duty today too,
might go for duty after the match and YES, the duty is also until 12:00 AM)

FRIDAY
7 AM till 12 AM - Seminar Formula One
(Might skip the last session of the seminar because joining to help
the last day of the exhibition day. Will be till overnight.)

I wonder how am I after all these ends? The craziest day is on Tuesday because all of the things I'm going to do since morning till night uses energy. Hopefully I won't faint from exhaustion.

My heart beats the footsteps of mice

2011-02-01T14:25:00.004+08:00

Listening to: "Ghosts" by The Hundred In The Hands

This song is mysteriously amazing. The music is so... imaginable and mysterious while the lyrics is epic. "My body a senseless device".. D: the girl's voice is soo ghostly...

Anyway, I've been trying to access blogger for these few days but I couldn't. Blame the UUM's system for blocking certain sites making them hard to be access or crappy line. Can't believe YouTube can only be access during the weekends, when the office hours are off. TT_TT My source of entertainment. That's why I've been going out for a walk these days... I guess on the good side, I'll be healthier by getting some fresh air instead of locking myself in this room, watching movies, which I don't think is a bad thing though. XD Neways, starting of this sem, I actually forgotten to bring my bed sheets and so, went to Changlun and took nearly half an hour just to pick a bed sheet. Most that actually caught my eyes ended up for Queen size bed. So... in the end, I had this one. (: Not a fan of pink or lovey-dovey words but the writing and black+pink makes it look so Avril-Lavigne-ish. :D So I bought it.

So... I'm going back tonight for CNY holiday. Going Kelantan. Wow. How I missed my hometown. (: Actually Kelantan and Kedah are quite similar, but how come I feel my hometown are not as hot as Kedah. Maybe because of the big trees, even the road seems dark on day. And I love staying in the wooden house. It just seems cool to me, even though it can be scary sometimes at night but... well, I guess I can live with nature a bit. Minus the insects, I don't mind to be Mrs Tarzan. XD
It's quiet now.. Is it just me, or I'm too used to being the last one to go back. D: Haih. Anyway, lots of unexpected things happen these days. This short term are filled with assignments but with good lecturers, so I don't mind. Classes seems interesting to me because of the lecturers. (: And... I do wished to dance for this sem... not quite sure whether I'll get the chance. But... =O I got drag into a basketball competition which is crazy 'cus I used to watch people play from the side and I only play netball. O_o; Kinda' creeps me out looking at people playing basketball, and now I have to join. I hope there's luck left for me here. Or the bad luck are still lingering around. TT_TT
Oppa(s), please help me be strong.

The smiles of the people I love is
what I love the most. =)
I guess that's why I kinda fall for 'him' too.

P.S. Sarang hae

A Passion That Never Dies

2011-01-11T22:33:00.006+08:00

Listening to: Pyramid by Charice

Found one article about Jang Geunsuk getting interviewed regarding one of the movies he acted. It's not the movie that interest me but the answers that Geunsuk himself give about dreams and achieving it. It really moves me. I love his passion. I want to have his passion and reading this made me want to chase my dreams so badly too. Everything that he says here is so true. I envy him because he's able to achieve his dreams and do the thing that he loves.

Jang Geunsuk says the movie 'Happy Life' is one that asks,

'Are you living and doing what you want to do?

Or are you living and doing what you have to do?'

and that is the question that dominated his head throughout the filming.

"I started acting in middle school. It was my decision. Then one day I asked myself, 'Jang Geun Suk, are you happy right now?' and realized I was climbing stairs with no particular goal and no composure. I asked around about what a happy life is and asked my seniors as well. Of course there is not right answer, but thankfully I have found a little bit of composure in myself. And now I can enjoy things, at least to the point I can smell the scent of fall outside of the window."

The movie features a father who works day and night to pay for private lessons and education for a talented son, and a father who sends off his child and wife abroad to study but ends up facing a divorce. They all live amidst self-gratification, or excuses, saying it is all for their children, and this is not much different from parents in the real world today.

I asked Jang Geun Suk who is still in the position of being a parent's child what he wanted from his parents. He says that his parents, while not fully approving when he said he wanted to act, supported him by telling him to do what he wanted to do.

"Are children truly happy when they achieve the social status their parents want them to? They all just go towards the one goal forgetting whether it was the parent's dream or the child's dream. I wish parents would trust their children and let them pursue what they want to. If only they could understand that children wander in their youth not because they don't know what to do, but they are struggling and trying hard to find what fits them. I believe everything is about the 'trust' between the parent and child."

In that sense, he says, "The movie 'Happy Life' can serve to be a meaningful opportunity to reflect on life with all the fantasies and reality barriers set aside between a father and son."

Jang Geun Suk is also chasing a dream.

"I became known through commercials and the sitcom 'Nonstop.' Until then I wasn't really an actor. If anything, I was an entertainer with a cute image. But after 'Nonstop' ended and I saw the spotlight that was on me shifting immediately to another person, I fell into a slum. And not being admitted to the college I wanted at the time put me at a loss of what to do. Fortunately, I was cast in two musicals and I was able to be satisfied seeing myself on a large stage. And I think I was able to become known as an actor through the drama 'Hwangjiny,' and I can feel more of that through the movie 'Happy Life.' But this is not my final destination."

He restlessly spoke about his dreams.

"I don't believe myself to be an adult yet. I still have a mind that is not quite yet fully matured. But I hope people who meet me can become closer as a person and respect and trust me."

Then what would be the image of an 'actor' Jang Geun Suk be?

"I want to be pure. Whether I become 40 or 60, I want to be a humble actor who doesn't loses passion. I am extremely happy right now by just being able to act."

Oppa~ you're so lucky. =/

I want to do the things I love too.

I want it so badly...

but sometimes it seems impossible.

Does that means, I'm lack of passion?

I always ask myself too...

"Am I happy with what I'm doing now?"

The truth is... my answer is no.

Fact:People Do Change

2011-01-10T14:56:00.006+08:00

Listening to: 나쁜 남자(Bad Guy) by JOO

JOO from JYP has returned! (: She has a really nice voice. And I really, REALLY love this new song of hers. She sounded like she really wanted to cry and when I saw her comeback stage in Music Bank, I think she actually had tears in her eyes. ;___; Such a touching song.

However, that's not all. The music video is... touching. Even though it's so short, but there's meaning behind it. The bubble gun part was so... artistic? No, no.. there's this one word that suits it, but I've forgotten. LOL I need to read more to improve my vocabs. ;P

Anyway... my most favourite part in the MV was the part when the video shows how much the guy has changed by differentiating the "now and before" of the guy.

This part really touches me. I mean... I'm sure a lot of people encounter this kind of situation when the person you once love more than anything in this world, changed so much that you feel, you don't even know them anymore. Well, people do change.

Just that... sometimes it's scary to think or even believe that fact.

Looking at a brighter side, there might be a good thing about people's changes. There's also the bad ones. No matter how hard it is to accept that fact, humans have to face tons of situations when they live in this world. And sometimes, things that happens around us throughout our lives are the ones that forces us to change. Sometimes it's beyond our knowing. And sometimes... it's beyond our control too.

Every God's Child Is A Gifted One

2011-01-06T23:33:00.003+08:00

Listening to: "Change" by Taylor Swift

Taylor Swift. (: Watched the special show about her. You know what. I don't give a damn if people hates her (and that includes my friends or family members) 'cus after I watch that show, I'm even certain myself that she's amazing. She's the type of person that works hard even at the age that I'm still playing around living in my childish world. I wished I could be like her. Seriously. I want to work hard like her to achieve my own dreams. =O I really respect her for working hard just to make good songs that could actually influence people. I love how she could composed music that really... beautiful... and I don't know how to describe anymore. Just. amazing.

I SERIOUSLY, don't care if people said she's playing around with guys. Even if argue about it, people would just say, "Oh..your her fan, of course you'll protect her." Every time people says that, I feel like telling them, "Yeah. Maybe I'm your fan too, 'cus it seems I ignore your flaws and I'm still talking & hanging around with you right now."

I know... I hardly judge people. I don't know whether it's a good thing, but I guess it has its own consequences. Pros and cons exist in everything anyway. Believe me, there are things I don't like, but I judge myself first and this phrase would just came into my mind - "No one is perfect." Even the person that judge the singer that I like is not perfect, so... why bother? ;)

Anyway.... :D speaking of the show, Taylor was so adorable when she was small. She's in love with the stage even at her young age. Amazing. I think around that age, I always chickened out when I was told to do something in front of people... but she... really WOWs me. XD I'm very sure that she deserves the fame she has now. (: And I love the way she treats her fans. AND also her performances... hopefully I'll be able to attend to one of her concerts one day. Oh yeah, even Katy Perry loves her. :D And I love Katy Perry too.

Miley. Taylor. Katy.

These three are definitely my favourite girls. :D

They are all different, but I love the fact they are close.

Happy 21st Birthday Yang Yoseob! ;D

2011-01-05T22:48:00.001+08:00

Listening to: "Stand By Me" by SHINee

I still think SHINee's songs are really nice. (: Weird that I don't grow fond on Suju as much as SHINee. I have a cousin that doesn't approve them because she thought that they are a replacement for TVXQ, but I never think in that way. :D They have their own music style and I love it too. And they are such sweet boys. ;)

Anyway... I'm dedicating this post for our deary BEAST cute-charm, Yang Yoseob. ;) Gosh, I felt weird thinking that I wanna hug him and have him as my lil' brother because of the fact he's the same age with me. :O Why do I kept seeing guys in my age that looks younger than me? Even now I realised Kikwang has this adorable baby attitude. XD Damn you guys made me feel old now. Or is it I can never do aegyo? D: Aigoo...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 21st BIRTHDAY

YANG YOSEOB!

I realised sometimes your Twitter status sounded like

you're having a lot of stress.

So I wished you to stay healthy and happy.

And get plenty of rest of course. ;)

Looking forward to listen to more of your AMAZING voice. ;)

Happy Birthday.

Where The Truth Lies

2011-01-03T01:52:00.003+08:00

Listening to: 총 맞은 것처럼(Like Being Hit By A Bullet) by Baek Jiyoung

This song is heartbreaking. Baek Jiyoung's powerful voice made the song sounded even deeper as if she's releasing the pain out through the lyrics...

Nah~ not in an emo mood. Just appreciating the song. ;)

Recently I watched a movie acted by Jang Geunsuk. Titled, "Where the Truth Lies" and also called, "The Case of Itaewon Homicide". Now, I never planned to watch this movie, 'cus I found out about it when I was viewing Geunsuk's profile and was curious. At first I wasn't interested, but when I read that it was based on a true story, I tried reading the synopsis and watched the trailer... and well... I decided to search for the DVD at various CD shops, however it seems that it's not that well-known. Never gave up and found it at one of the CD shop in One Utama. (: Was so excited, and decided to drag dad to watch it with me, in case I have trouble understanding it, and the fact that it's based on a true story - my dad is interested in movies like this too. Oh yeah, besides that, I read some comments saying that Geunsuk's acting here was praised by a lot of people, before he becomes well-known.

Based on the true story of the April 3, 1997 murder of college student Jung-pil Jo. The murder took place in the bathroom of Burger King in the Itaewon district of Seoul. Jung-pil Cho was stabbed 9 times in the chest and neck. The names of the murder suspects were changed for the movie.Two men, Arthur Patterson (the son of a U.S. military service member) & Edward Lee (a Korean-American civilian), were the primary suspects. Because of the inability to clearly identify which of the two men murdered Jung-pil Cho, the two suspects were eventually freed from lengthy prison sentences.

The case was quite famous because of the unfair decisions regarding the release of the two suspects. I read somewhere saying that they were going to open the case again early 2010, but I couldn't find any further informations anymore. I mean, after watching the movie, since it's based on a true story it made me feel even furious thinking about the fact that the murderer is free from any punishment. The most ridiculous line that made me angry in the movie was when one of the suspect said to one of their friends that they both killed the guy for FUN. Yeah, for fun. I mean, it's a line from the movie, but if it's really true... seriously, humans can be really scary. I guess, this is more like a psycho movie. Can you imagine Jang Geunsuk as a psychopath? After watching the movie, I kept thinking about the murder, sending a cold shiver down my spine. >_<

There were a lot of questions throughout the movie, and I kept bothering daddy with my questions. I was confused a bit too. The movie is quite specific in showing the stories told by the two suspects but I'm still wondering why is Geunsuk's character behaving as if he's admitting/showing that he did kill the guy but he's also very sure that he didn't kill the guy. I mean... like seriously, there's something wrong somewhere and I still don't get it. Or maybe it's just the movie. Btw, the guy that acted as the victim is Song Joongki.

And I shall go to sleep before I start thinking about this movie again.

Thank God, Geunsuk is cute. Still, scary in that movie.

Happy 7th Anniversary TVXQ!

2010-12-26T03:22:00.004+08:00

Listening to: "You're My Melody" by TVXQ

Miane~ been busy, and I'm posting this late. ;) I've become lazy to update my blog, but for the sake of TVXQ's anniversary, nothing can stop me. :D

I don't have anything much to say, because the faith comes from the heart and I will continue trusting it no matter what happens. (:

Kim Jaejoong, Jung Yunho, Park Yoochun, Kim Junsu, Shim Changmin.

These are the names that contributed in brightening my life throughout these years and it will remain the same. ;) And let the photo-love begins.

You’re my melody; I’ll perform for you, on & on,
You’re my song, my life’s soundtrack,
I love you, for you brighten up my life’s stage,
I’ll continue to sing to you, you’re my song.

P.S. Sarang hae

Always keep the faith.

The Beginning

2010-12-24T16:08:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Memory by Younha feat. Tablo

I remembered how much I whine about the problem I had, communicating with people in university. Even though it's not easy, but I do try to fit in. Though I'm quieter than when I'm with my friends back at home, but I'm still thankful that I got closer to this group of girls. I might be quite a boring kind of person around them, but I know they tried to

help me fit in. Still, I'm the quiet one there. XD I owe a lot from these people when I go through the life of Sem 1. LOL I sound so dramatic, yet I have 4 years to go. Anyway, I had fun with them though. (: They are amazing. Thank you.

Thong Zi Wei

(I found someone as crazy as me. She pampers me a lot.)

Cheok Sze Khay [middle]

(Very thankful that I have her as my roommate. ^-^)

and I spent most of my whole Sem 1 with these girls.

I'm very thankful they accept me the way I am.

And struggle hard in communicating with me sometimes. (:

But obviously I wouldn't go through all the worsts in uni life without watching and listening to these guys every day. (: They make me happy. And I'm glad that I met them right before I went for university, it's like a great gift to me. And also made me become stronger. Besides that, they made me realised what I really want to do in my life. And I still want it.

Yong Junhyung.

He made me believe in love again. ;)

Park Yoochun

There's never another day that I regret I know you.

Please wait, I still have to meet you.

P.S. Sarang hae

Beautiful Memories Should be remembered

2010-12-23T03:13:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Loving You by Crown J feat. Lyn

I love it when Crown J collaborates with female singers. The song would turn out really, REALLY nice. (:

Recently, been watching "Playful Kiss" with my younger sis. Kim Hyunjoong is the main male character. I first had a crush on Hyunjoong after I saw his smile in one of SS501's MVs and I really really think his smile makes me feel so... happy. He has that friendly smile that would just make you feel good. I'll show his photos next time. (:

What I want to talk about is just.. the drama. It's funny and cute and well.. gives hope to those who love someone but had to deal with rejections over and over again and never gives up. More like being stubborn. XD But, well.. at least it works. Which makes me wonder, does things like this happens in real life? I mean, I do believe there are this kind of miracles, but obviously I wouldn't have a chance like that. I really think things like this would ONLY happen to people as patient, and has the character exactly like Oh Hani. Which I'm waay too far from her. People would say such guy like Baek Songju doesn't exist, but I also think there are hardly any girls that could be exactly like Oh Hani. She only loves a person, and only one person her whole life. And obviously, I'm already out of the list when that condition is required to have a beautiful and true love like her. XD

However... somehow, the guy's character and things that happen between them reminds me of someone again. It might sound crazy... but the guy is slightly similar.. with him. Which made me feel how ridiculous it is every time certain parts in the drama reminded me of the memories I had with him and made me laugh by myself. I guess, I can never hate him because of those nice memories I had with him. And the way she likes him, imagines things about him... I must say, I did have those moments too. Even the part when he confessed to me, my reaction was like... I'm in another world. Haha... It makes me smile sometimes. If only it could last longer. I wished you would ask me to continue love you. But... it's a good thing that it ends too. Because I wouldn't have realised how much I wanted to achieve my dreams even more. ;)

Just wanted to say that this drama brings back the good memories. I'm glad it happen. It was beautiful and meaningful. You taught me a lot of things and I learn a lot of things by myself too. And I felt I was really in love at that time. Maybe I did experience a short fairy tale after all. And it felt good. ;)

To love you,

and

to be loved by you,

...it was beautiful.

I was happy and thank you.

P.S. Sarang hae

Happy Belated 24th Birthday Xiah Junsu!

2010-12-21T23:10:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Still In Love by JYJ

Supposed to be listening a happy song, but I'm in a mood to listen this song. Heart-breaking music and lyrics. To tell the truth, JYJ's English album is not so bad 'cus they use the Korean style music, combined with the English lyrics. Kind of promote how Korean music sounds like to those who only listens to English songs.

Okay, so I delayed my wish to Xiah due to trying to search more of his latest photos. (: I'm sorry Xiah for the 6-days late wish.

December 15, 2010;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM JUNSU! :D

Oppa, I know how much you miss to smile a lot.

Especially to smile together as five.

I wish to see that too and I believe one day you will.

I hope you will be even happier in the future and good things happen to you.

"It's not important who gets to use the name TVXQ right now.

We three were and still are TVXQ,

all five are members of TVXQ."

- Park Yoochun

"Even though it is disappointing with the current situation.

We would like to welcome the activities of the two members.

When the five of us are together,

we bring out the best of TVXQ and it gives us great pride that

we are part of the group that is worthy of that name.

If you are true to the name TVXQ, please buy their album."

- Kim Jaejoong

creds: dbsk sleepless night

Happy 22nd Birthday Yong Junhyung! ;D

2010-12-19T23:39:00.006+08:00

Listening to: Just A Dream by Nelly

I love this song. (: The music composition is so amazing that I decided to download the instrumental version.

Though the song doesn't relate myself with a person I'm going to blog about now, but the title suits every time I dream about him.

So... today is Yong Junhyung's birthday!

December 19, 2010

생일 축하합니다, 용준형!

My lover, my life.

My Joker, my knight. ;)

My only wish is to meet you again.

...and if can, I want to meet you when I've

succeed in reaching my dreams.

I must tell you, that you're one of the people

that made me who I am at that moment.

Oppa, stay happy and healthy! :D

날 기다려! ;)

Bye bye Duck

2010-12-12T02:18:00.003+08:00

Should I just "kill" the duck at the left-side of my blog?

"Kill" means getting rid of it.

Since last time, it has been trying to fly-off,

I might as well just let it go now, right? ;)

Blake Lively in Jenny Packham Fall 2010's gown.

2010-12-12T01:21:00.006+08:00

Listening to: I'm In Here by Sia

The piano version is so... creating "that" kind of mood which I have no idea how I could describe it. :P I just knew that she sang a song for Twilight: Eclipse's soundtrack too. Her voice suits the movie's genre anyway. Neway, found out about her when I watch Gossip Girl, the Chuck-Blair's dramatic scene.

Talk about Gossip Girl, thanks to Ms Hani, I ended up geting myself addicted with this series now. YES. I'm in love with Nate Archibald. ;P Though his last name seems soooo hard to pronounced. AND Serena van der Woodsen is my favourite character due to her sweet voice and at first I thought she was the evil rich girl or something in that show, turns out she's the one that sees good things in people. (: Though there are some dramatic moments when she gets jealous. O_o; And she falls in love SO easily too. I like Vanessa too, she's soooo pretty. *__* She reminds me of those pretty Hawaiian mix or something like that. Okay, enough mentioning about things that you can read in almost all of their fans' blogs. :P
Just I would like to share a gown that Serena wore in Season 4, that caught my eyes. Usually I'm not into these fashion thingy (especially the expensive ones. And I can't even remember the branded names).. BUT, yeap this one gown really made me go, "WOW. I want that." ;P I mean, I want to try that out. Obviously I won't look as good as Blake Lively (Serena's real name) but I think I would feel good when wearing it which I doubt people would think the same way too. :P

Black and white Jenny Packham Fall 2010 gown.

:D Pretty huh? That's all for my post today. Meant to talk about this gown only actually. ;)

My BAYBEH

2010-12-11T09:48:00.000+08:00

Listening to: Favourite Music by Double K

It's been a while since I listen to this type of songs. :D Always been a fan of this kind of genre.

Finished my third paper yesterday. Despite the fact that I hate talking about exams in my blog, Management paper are too hard for me to handle. -_-; I exp

ected it though. Managing is really not-my-thing. However, what more disappointing was I couldn't finish my Maths paper. -_-; I never expect I didn't have enough time, yet I even planned to go out early. In simple words, I screwed both papers. End of talking about this. However people around me won't stop from asking about it. Wished

everyone could at least understand that "examination", ain't a fun topic to talk about. Unless I'm extremely smart. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy learning, and getting education, but examination? I hate it.

Anyway, good news, BEAST won their first Mutizen in Inkigayo~ :D YAY. I'm so happy for them, I even made some art. King Julien celebrating for them. :D

AND.... they also won "Rookie Award" at the Golden Disc Awards. :D

Congratulations BEASTly guys~! ;D

Saw photos of Yunho acting for "Goong" musical. O_o; I think this is the first time seeing him wearing eyeliner so obvious. He looks different. He doesn't need that touch up though. (: He's fine just the way he looks. I wished they would release video of the musical, wonder how he looks like as a prince. :D

I've been seeing Yunho in interviews and magazines, but no news about Changmin. Well, sometimes he appeared in some events. Wonder why SM is keeping him away. Plus, his drama hasn't been released yet. I want to see Changmin acting! Enough keeping him SM. :D I want to see the grow up Changmin.

Ooooh. For now, JYJ is entertaining me with their sexy photos. :P Gosh, Micky if it's not the hair, I would surely fall for you all over again. Thank God, you cut it now. :D hee. Seeing Xiah, I saw some of the videos of him lately, and realised he's quieter than before. It's very rare to see him and hear his dolphin laugh.

Someone so sexy in the last photo. ;P Shall continue reading TITAS. I wonder why do I think this is more interesting than "History" that I learnt in secondary school.

Oh well. ;)

Come to think of it, I love dorkies.

Like these two. :D

Yong Junhyung, that pretends to be cool,

yet such a dorky in him.

Park Yoochun.

A natural dork. And always fails to act cool.

He's just a guy that shows how he felt.

But I rarely see him cry now.

Looks like my oppa, had gotten stronger.

P.S. Sarang hae

Give me one better day

2010-12-03T20:42:00.005+08:00

Listening to: One Better Day by MBLAQ

I need cheery songs at this moment before I start getting emotional.

So, I read people's status about December, last month of the year... and so on. Kind of ironic that my name means "snow" in Chinese and I'm somehow attracted to cold things, (ice-cream, abc, ice-blended) and also Winter is my favourite season BUT December always turns out to be the month when something unhappy occurred. Don't make me remind about last year. -_-;

However, if I was myself on those days when I directly showed my feelings to people, I'll start crying, whining, complaining on how terrible life is and expect comfort from people while demand to get something I want no matter what... well, I guess that part of me changed. I'm turning into that quiet-keeping-things-to-myself kind of people that uses her self-defense mechanism more often than anyone could even realised. Sometimes, I prefer people not to ask or even mention a thing about my course, what I'm studying or what-so-ever my future lies from this thing I'm learning now. There I said it. No, I don't enjoy studying this, and I swear I never will. And you know what's even hurting, the fact that I had this image of myself, sitting at those offices, buildings, wearing that working attire, doing paperworks, wow... seriously, I can't barely even look at that image. If my parents didn't raise me well, I might be hanging myself in this room already. O_o; Okay, that's scary. I hate it when I got emotional talking about the career that I don't desire. I shall shut up now before my panda eyes turns me into a gothic girl.

So basically, the disappointment I'm having now is actually regarding the concert I'm gonna missed tomorrow.(and also the chance to go Singapore/oversea/out from Malaysia for the first time) But I still have that habit when I'm sad about something, I'll start thinking back all the other sad things and made myself feel so pathetic. Well, it would sound childish to be pouting about not being able to go to a concert, but I guess, things like this had always been something that matters to me alot. The last time I had this kind of disappointment was when I missed TVXQ's concert 3 years ago because of my exam and obviously it was the last concert where they had five of them together. I remembered crying in the room, listening to their songs instead of studying Accounts. (the last paper that made me missed the concert) But I don't do that now anymore. Honestly, I'm sad, but I don't know how to react anymore.

I could tell that some of my old school friends that haven't contact me for quite a while might said I've changed, and I never denied that. Like I mentioned before, I might be showing my feelings to people last time, but rarely do that anymore now to the fact that sometimes I'm afraid I might turn inhuman. Since I came into this University, there are a lot of things happen, mostly unhappy ones. The worst part, it always happens in one shot. "Attacking" me with multiple shots at one time. To that extend, I was too used to it, that I couldn't care less anymore. It's like the word "hope" is fading from beliefs on my life. The only thing I expect was awful, terrible things in the future. On the other hand, the people here might assumed that I'm the type that wouldn't care about anything, without feelings. Regardless my history.

*takes deep breath, let go* And there goes my sadness. As easy as that. Though it would occur again when I'm sad about something else. Dancing helps too though. It helps me more often now. Anyway, I'll smile and move on. Like I had always do. Sometimes, I feel like being an adult is hard. Well, I think a lot of people would agree with me too.

So... I thought I could meet you tomorrow for

the 2nd time in my life.

I guess I was wrong. >_<

But, I still love you, Yong Junhyung/Jaesoon.

:D it's great to see your smile oppa.

You're a strong person too, and it made me learn to be strong too.

I still want to meet you, please wait.

P.S. Sarang hae

Stronger With You By My Side

2010-11-18T04:57:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Been Here All Along by Hannah Montana

It might sound insane, or maybe I'm just in my own world.. but Park Yoochun and Yong Junhyung... you've been here all along... (: My dreams seems sweeter and less nightmare thanks to you too.

Yeah. I guess, I'm more like a die-hard-fan. I could even thank my idols like this. Hard to make people understand, but I bet there might be fans out there that experience the same feelings with me.
Anyway.. bathed at 2 in the morning, and it's 5 am and I'm still awake. I guess that already explains how abnormal I am. Some issues came up into my mind and starts messing it up. Again. Though I do believed that one day my head might explode due to extreme tense which actually wasn't necessary to be even think about. I really do hope problems should stop from coming, but I guess, "There's no getting up without falling". I have to keep falling so that I'll learn to find the strength to get up back as a stronger person.

Sometimes, in life, we would always encounter those "misunderstand" moments with the people who are close to us, but I guess you can never blame them because they themselves are not perfect. But no matter what, humans have expectations on people. I do admit that I wished that the people around me could at least understand my feelings and situations, but on the other side might think the same way too. The different thing was how and what we want people to understand about us. Assumptions and early judgments are obviously unavoidable though. So what more can I say?

Sometimes I just felt like screaming out all the problems I had that no one ever knew, but what's the point of it? What has been done, is done. What for mentioning it again just to put it as an excuse? People would just say that's a lame excuse or somewhat ridiculous but of course, the people who do have that sort of thoughts wasn't aware that each humans in this world, has some way of handling their emotions, some way of things that would make them sad or angry. No one is the same. Just a little bit of consideration would really harm a person... is it?

*sigh* As I mention in my previous posts, for a million times, I really hate talking about sad things in my blog. It's supposed to be a happy blog.
My tense was reduced by watching Junhyung's fancams in YouTube and made myself listen to their songs over and over again. Besides that, I'm glad my family makes me feel really happy too. I guess it's true that family is the only ones that would never treat you differently no matter what happens. Amazing how God could create such a beautiful bond in this world.

I'll end this now. Maybe I shall doze off a bit. Goodnight.

Yong Jun Hyung
Thank you. For coming to Malaysia
and made me fall in love with you.

Park Yoochun
I know it's been quite a while since you disappeared,
making me feel lonely and suffering from the thoughts of missing you,
but oppa... I'm glad you're doing okay. (:
I'm happy to see your spirit again.

P.S. Saranghae.

You still there for me.
Wherever there might be.
You're with me.
You've been here all along...

Give Me a Break

2010-10-17T00:31:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Airplanes by B.O.B. feat. Hayley Williams

Can I really pretend the airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? 'Cus I really need a wish right now.

Dad's supportive words before I started my uni life was, "From now on, you have to learn to be responsible." It's true, that this sentence was the one that kept me standing until now. To me, life is starting to get tough, never easy and I certainly do not trust my teacher's word about "Life in university is so much easier." Now, that's a lie. The place wasn't the real problem in the first place. It was the sudden responsibilities thrown to you and troubles you faced because of these responsibilities were the main problems since the beginning.
I just finished crying and I've been crying really hard today. My eyes are fully swollen now, I wished it would disappear in the morning. My cries today were real, it's like I haven't cried out loud like that for quite a while. It's like releasing that heavy burden in my heart, thinking back all the bad things happening to me since I started this life and even before that. A few weeks ago, my beliefs on luck has gone into the drain. One by one bad things happened that I could conclude them all as "terrible" things already. Well, luckily my roommate "dumped" me again this week, so that she wouldn't see this whiny-attitude of mine. Can't blame her though, if my house is nearby, I would go back every week too. I miss home. I really do. I don't hate this place. It's just this place "hates" me. It kept bringing me all the unluckiness. Living here is not a problem, never was. But seeing all these things that are happening to me, do you think I even have the feeling to stay here longer? Yesterday, I felt extremely sad and angry to the extend that my mouth becomes dry, my head was beginning to ache and I even felt like vomiting. That proves how stress I am. And yet, I kept telling myself that everything's gonna be alright, repeating it again and again and again. And when I do believed in it, another disaster comes in. I seriously do not understand why do all these had to come altogether at one moment and attacked me. What's the point of all these? I'm really getting tired of all these. I'm surprised that I could still laugh and try to pretend that nothing has gone wrong in front of my friends. Can't believe I'm that strong.

Still living.

2010-10-06T04:44:00.004+08:00

Listening to: Life by SHINee

Well.. SM still come out with great ballad songs. *sigh* Reminds me of TVXQ's songs. I really miss listening to their great combination of voices. Don't get me wrong, JYJ sounds great, but no matter what there's something missing and I know deep in every Cassiopeians' hearts, they believed that too. However, it never stop us from supporting those guys, one day, they'll be reunited, I just... had faith in that.

So... I'm still awake. And it's 5 am. Yeap. I mean, it's normal for me to be like this, since I'm used to it when I'm at home. Wait, does that mean it's a sign that I'm getting used in living here. Well, living here wasn't actually a problem to me in the first place, just that my lacking in social ability is the major problem. Well, blame me for being different huh? Nah, I never questioned my uniqueness anymore, just that humans are all the same. The same questions, the same perceptions, the same judgment. Meeting new people, I still get the same reaction no matter where I go. Anyway, I shouldn't complain much huh? My straight forwardness are turning even worst, or should I call it "better"? I just... can't lie when it comes in expressing my feelings. Well, obviously there are some moments when I lie about it, for the sake of someone/something, but as Dr Cal Lightman says, "A lie is still a lie." Can't deny that fact. But which human doesn't lie anyway? Even Loker lied. XD Oh, I'm starting to love him and his basic life of living in honesty. Sometimes I felt he and I are quite a like.

Last Saturday, performed at the big stage for the first time, with around 1000 people I supposed? I felt so... relieved and satisfied. I want to continue doing this... not as something fun, but... more than that. Well, I felt it long time ago, I've been keeping it for so long and when people ask me, "Did you dance like this before?" and when I said, "No." they were surprised. Well, believe me, I actually waited for this moment to come, but I never though it would felt like... this good. Training by myself in my room, for this few years, having my foot hurt several times, I guess it paid off huh? But there's a long way to go, if I really want this.. I'm doing it. For the moment now, I'm practising "Mystery" by B2ST, something tells me it's difficult but my other self tells me that I had always been the stubborn, unless I can do it properly, I'll never stop. I think learning the dance steps is always about pushing myself more and more, it's just that determination in me that really got into me. I don't know. Blame the passion for music.

Currently these guys are the ones who's lifting up my spirit in doing things these days. Believe me, I do still love TVXQ, but it's not easy now to support them in different ways. I still do. That's why I need to watch his new drama. (: Everyone is actually praising Micky for his acting skills which I actually knew it from the first time I saw him acting. Funny though, a few years back I already believed that he's gonna be popular if he goes for acting and I could even see his passion in acting, and now... well, let's just say, my expectations was true.

Before that I can't deny the fact that
I'm starting to fall for this guy too.
It was love at first meeting.

I miss you, you know that right?
I still have dreams of you at night.
I still want to meet you oppa.
I need to meet you.

P.S. 사랑해

Hello Change

2010-09-14T03:47:00.002+08:00

Listening to: "California Girls" by Katy Perry

Daisy Dukes, Bikinis on top~
Isn't there any Katy Perry's songs that doesn't make your heart feel better? :D Love her.

Wow. It's been a while huh? Time totally passed so fast... wait, too fast I meant. I'm in university, my cousin brother is getting married, Tiger has grown so much and it's getting quite hard to meet my friends now. Well, blame that to the different schedules; everyone's busy. I guess it can never be avoided. There are those moments when we realised things which are beyond our control have to change whether we like it or not. People change their perspectives on others that they've known long enough to the point that they are sensitive towards the difference they had. Things obviously changed, but some stays the same. It makes me wonder, what kind of changes that are going to occur in the future? Should I be prepare on that?

Okay, I'll stop my philosophy writing. XD It's turning into a habit these days, even my assignments sounded too "shakespeare". I guess I'm just born to release my emotions and opinions through writing. I'm more quiet from the outside which explains how I'm actually struggling in socialising in this university. It's not like I'm that shy-type anyway. :P So far, I've gotten closer to music all the time there. I just fill my whole experience with music as the strength to move on. O_o; And I think dancing is really becoming a part of me now. My body just can't stop moving everytime I listen to a song. X)

...anyway. There's a lot things in my mind right now. Just that, I'm too...tired to write now. XD
Good night for now.

1460 days

2010-06-21T01:34:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Promise You by A.N.JELL

Had a huge crush on this group recently. (: Kang Shinwoo♥.

Back. After 2 and a half months of part time, and lazing around. Few days ago, I was surprised by the faith again. Chosen by UUM, under Marketing. It's so funny, I forgot to laugh. -_-; It's not that I'm unhappy about it. It was absolutely unpredictable. I actually forgotten that I put "Marketing" under my options. And most of it was Economics and Mascom, which either these two were the ones I predicted. Boo-yah, God gave me a surprise. Oh yeah, the title for this post is actually the number of days I'll be away from home when I start this so-called "new life/journey". Something just tells me that I'm not gonna have an easy life there. In simple sentence, I have a bad feeling about this. But.... as usual, life just goes on. Though deep inside this heart really yearns for a twist in faith to happen to me.

It's gonna be 2 am now. Still awake. Looking at my room, I'm gonna miss this paradise-room of mine. :( Imagining what would happen in those 4 years. Being in a new place, new people, far from my family and friends. I so-don't want to think too much about it. Chongmal destiny shemika?

Strong Women are Sexy ;)

2010-03-31T01:31:00.008+08:00

Listening to: 하늘에서 내려와(Descend from the sky) by Miss $ feat. Oh Wonbin

:D Sweet song. This song makes me happy. I never realised that Wonbin from FT Island has a really soft voice.

Come to think of it, I realised that I really love movies/stories that has woman as the main character, as a fighter. I found women in action movies are really sexy, compared to those who wore sexy clothes. ;D I wished I could be as strong as them.

Drew Barrymore, Cameron Diaz, Lucy Liu
Hottest spies ever. ;D
I was always excited every time I watch their fighting scenes.

Zhao Wei, Shu Qi, Karen Mok
One of my most favourite Hong Kong movies.
Besides this, I love most movies that Shu Qi acted in. :D
She makes a good fighter.

Lena Headey as Sarah Connor
I admire her toughness.
I want to have that kind of strength!
And yet she still looks beautiful. O_O;

Milla Jovovich as Alice
She's hot.
O_o; And I love her outfit in the movie.
The 4th Resident Evil gonna be out this year. ;D

Michelle Rodriguez
Letty in Fast & Furious
Trudy Chacón in Avatar

Summer Glau as Cameron
Never missed out this hot cyborg.
Her randomness sometimes are really funny.

And I find this photo extremely cool and hot. Daebak!

Right? LOL I'm talking to Tiger now. She kept following me, when I ask her what she wants, she answered softly, "Meow..." Can anyone translate to me? XD I'm not very good in communicating with cats.
Anyway, I had tons of fun today, thanks to Hani. ;)

Bowling and karaoke-ing are fun especially when you're trying to release your anger towards certain people. LOL. The best part when both of us imagine the pins as certain people, we could hit it! :D The power of anger. I nearly lost my throat due to the screaming in the karaoke cubicle. Kekasih Gelapku, Ayat-ayat Cinta and When You're Gone brought an absolutely jiwang moment to us. :'( Love hurts like hell, I know. Just lucky I'm still alive though.
Thanks to Hani again. Good luck for both of us starting this Thursday. ;D

"God of Study" episodes are getting sadder and touching. I cried again today. The annoying part is the fact that I won't get to watch the last episode next week. *whines* Watch online only lar. And "Cinderella's Sister". TT_TT Chun Jung Myung♥ & Taecyeon...
That's all for now. ;D Going out with my WeeN unni tomorrow to hunt for some Korean food. LOL. We both seriously have to go to Korea together one day. Actually, if I could, I would want to bring my whole family though. First, gotta let some Korean wave get into umma and appa first. ;)

They have such thick hair. -_-;
Oppa(s), donate some to me. ;P

Jang Wooyoung♥, you're too adorable.
Park Yoochun♥♥, why do you have to be so hot?

P.S. Sarang hae

Without a Word

2010-03-29T02:17:00.002+08:00

Without Words/Without a Word
by Park Shin Hye
(Listen to the song HERE)

I shouldn't have done that
I should have pretended I didn't know
As if you were invisible, as if I couldn't see
I guess I should have never looked at you
I should have run away
I should have pretended I couldn't hear
Pretend that I couldn't even hear, as if I was deaf
I shouldn't have listened to your love

Without a word , you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love throws me away
what should I say next?
my closed lips were startled on their own
because it came without words

Why does it hurt like this?
Why does it keep hurting?
Except for the fact that i can't see you
And that you are not here
Otherwise, it's the same as before.

Without a word , you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me hold your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love throws me away
what should I say next?
my closed lips were startled on their own
Without a word, tears fall
Without a word, my heart breaks down.

Without a word, i waited for love
Without a word, I ache for love
I'm lost in confusion. I became a fool because I only look at the sky and cry
Without a word, separation finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me
I can't be ready, having to send you off, I think my heart is startled
Because it came without a word.

Without words, it came
Without words, it's leaving
Like a passing fever
I think it might hurt only a while
Because it only left a small scar

The lyrics says it all.
P.S. Sarang hae

If Only The Time Stopped at That Moment

2010-03-25T20:25:00.011+08:00

Listening to: 時ヲ止メテ(Stop The Time) by Tohoshinki(TVXQ)

TT_TT I shed tears as I listen to his voice again. Yes, Park Yoochun. I miss listening to his voice. This song makes me miss all of them. The lyrics... touched my heart. Haha. Or I'm just being corny. I love their voices here. It's been a while. Stars♥

I was mesmerised by the PV because of the concept that has stars. (: They even stand in a shape that shows the star, Cassiopeia. It's just so... beautiful. (: Plus, I'm a big fan of stars. I was kind of surprised and impressed when I saw Jaejoong in the beginning. If you look closely, he has tears in his eyes. I never seen him in tears before. It's quite sad when I look at it. Even though it might be an act, but it looks like he has expressed it very well. I took some caps. :D I miss watching billions of stars at my hometown.

You can watch the music video with subtitles HERE. Enjoy. ;) The CD is quite nice, all the members are in different colours. :D Anyway, here's some extra. (click to enlarge)

Toki wo tomete..!!

Please listen to it alot..!
Its a song that makes your heart skip a beat ^^
Byee ^^
- Jejung

Toki wo tomete is a really sad song.. makes you cry ^^*

Please listen to it alot~☆
-Yunho

Everyone~!!

Gokigen Uruwashu (* ^u^*) (How are you in very formal Japanese)
Is there a time that you wished time stopped out of all your memories??
P.S I am now
-Yuchun

Toki wo tomete!!

It really a soft and sweet song so I want
everyone to listen to it and relax. bye bye~ ^^
-Junsu

Toki wo tomete

You can't actually Toki wo tomete~ (stop time) HaHa
So try your best to not regret~
-Changmin

Translation: Rieko@sharingyoochun
Shared by: sharingyoochun.net + DBSKnights

LOL I love how random they are. Micky uses "P.S."! Hee. Love this guy.

Moving on... yesterday, March 24, 2010 was SHINHWA's 12th anniversary. It's kind of odd that I haven't heard any of idols these days takes Shinhwa as their role-models. I think Shinhwa is one of the BEST Korean idols. Besides that, I really miss Eric. :( His rapping is one of my favourite 'cus of his fluency in English and his voice. And his acting. Ohmygawd, he's hella one of the hottest Korean actor. He better go back acting when he's back from military! Dongwan and Eric would be out this year! Omg, can't wait! :D

hee. Sorry, I'm into Eric so much that I had to post some of his solo photos. ;D He's the reason I might fall for a guy soooo much older than me. ;P I love the last two photos. I love to see their friendship. Shinhwa is one of the group that lasted long, and it's great to see the friendship they had. Amazing. (: This was one of my fav song from them.

Seriously, most of their songs have friendship meaning in it. ;P To be honest, I fell for Eric after watching this MV, the way he raps and his voice when he speaks in English makes me go... "Ohmygawd. That is one sexy Korean guy." ;D There, I said it. Watching this now still makes me smile. Their head-movement dance in the MV is simply adorable!♥

Anyway, that's all. Hani and I got a job! I had the feeling it's gonna be a tiring one. O_o; Plus, I never work till that late. Gah~let's hope things go well. Oh, and I'm in love with Jung Yonghwa. LOL. Blame "We Got Married" and "You're Beautiful". I must be insane 'cus I had the feeling of wanting to buy CN Blue's CD. -_-; Oh God.
I should forget about my love for Yonghwa. ;P It can't be! He's so-not my type. Omona. Imma blushing right. O_O I should go to sleep.
Goodnight~!*stares at these two cuties*

I want to stop the time, and stay next to you forever
I look up at the sky, and wish with all my heart
One by one, I link together the glistening stars
And I ended up looking for the shape of you

I want to stop the time, and stay next to you forever
I want to hold you even more
While remembering every single thing about you
I had faith in only forever

Do you get it?
P.S. Sarang hae

Nothing lasts forever, it just lives in the heart

2010-03-22T23:31:00.003+08:00

Listening to: 가슴에 살아 (Living in the Heart) by Untouchable feat. Narsha

I grew fond with this song after listening to it every time on Music Bank. (: Nice song, sounds sad... well, I haven't read the lyrics yet though.

Watched this twice already. I knew that I'm going to love this movie, but I never knew I would love it so much. I guess, I didn't waste my time anticipating for it, great movie. To me, it kinda' reminds me of "Forrest Gump" a bit. Well, at least I do learn something from it too.

"My name is Benjamin Button, and I was born under unusual circumstances. While everyone else was agin', I was gettin' younger... all alone."

Believe it or not, that voice when this sentence were told, kept repeating in my ears. Seriously, this movie gave me goosebumps the first time I watched it. The disease he had does not exist, it's true there's no disease that could make a person aged backwards. But there is a disease where a baby was born old. It's called Progeria. Usually the baby doesn't live long. On the other hand, Benjamin lives his whole life, becoming younger until he dies in a baby-physical state. I think the main point about this movie wasn't the disease itself. In my opinion, it's more like showing people the importance of appreciating the life we had, loving ourselves, who we were born to be and also, we can never escape death. When I was explaining to my mom about the movie, something caught my mind. Instead of going through life like a normal person; born to be healthy when we were babies, having an easy life during our young age, enjoying it while we still can, and as we grew older, life gets even harder. We felt the difficulties of being an adult, having responsibilities of our own, handling things ourselves and most of us wished we could go back to our younger times. As life goes on, we became old, suffering and fighting with tons of diseases, not only our mentality were challenged, even our physical state has become a burden to other people and ourselves. At the end, we die either in an easy way or in a painful way.
In Benjamin's case, it's different. Everything was backwards. The suffering, the pain that we were supposed to go through at the end of our lives, he had to go through it as soon as he was born into this world. He grew up with the mentality of a small boy yet he had to face those physical sufferings that old people had to go through. It might look like a beneficial thing for him since he would grow younger at the end and he doesn't have to suffer when he dies, but it's not that easy for him too. To be different from other people in this world is always the hardest task that is given to any human being in this world. Some people couldn't accept him, including his own father. And as he dies, he dies alone. Instead of suffering physically, he suffered mentally. Reminded me of one conversation he had with an old woman.

Benjamin: I'm getting younger.
Mrs Maple: I feel sorry for you. You have to watch the people you love die before you.
Benjamin: All this time, I never thought about life and death...
Mrs Maple: We were meant to lose people we love. How else would we know how important they are?

To me, having the people I love die before me is my biggest fear. If I were Benjamin, I don't know how I could handle that. And Mrs Maple was right about most people would only realise the importance of the people they love when they lose them. Sad right? There's another sad part when Benjamin couldn't play with the girl who's the same age with him just because it doesn't look nice at all since he looks a lot older than her. Yet, inside his heart, he's still a child. It's really sad when he said, "What's wrong with me momma?" and starts to cry. :'( He's still a small boy. When a disable child were treated differently and he/she could feel it, it's really sad when they ask things like why they are different or what's wrong with them. That's why, no matter how different a child is, they are still children that wants to be treated the same like other children.
There's also a man that has been struck by lightning for 7 times. It's funny how he mentioned it a lot of times, but I believed there's actually a message to be told when this old man were shown. There was one time Benjamin came back home and said, "It's a funny thing about comin' home. Looks the same, smells the same, feels the same. You'll realize what's changed is you." The old man actually represents the situation where he's still the same person when Benjamin came back and everything was the same, it's just that Benjamin himself has changed. Other than that, the last time the old man said the same sentence, he said, "Blinded in one eye; can't hardly hear. I get twitches and shakes out of nowhere; always losing my line of thought. But you know what? God keeps reminding me I'm lucky to be alive." (: And he's right. He was struck by lightning for 7 times, and though he had to suffer a bit, God reminded him that he's lucky to be alive. How bout you? Do you feel lucky to be alive? Or do you want to try out getting struck by lightning for 7 times too? Think about it.

Favourite quotes:
“Life can only be understood looking backward. It must be lived forward.”
“You never know what’s coming for you.”
“You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went, you can curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.”

There's a lot more of my favourite quotes from the movie. I'll just post them up at my tumblr since tumblr has really nice post-settings for quotes. :D
Anyway, did you know that Changmin just got married?
Nah, joking. ;D It's for his latest drama, "Paradise Meadow". Cute huh? Lee Yeon Hee is sweet. Can't wait to watch the drama.
That's all for now. Gonna go job-hunting with Hani tomorrow. Oh, my sister, WeeN got her job already! :D Congrats to her! Besides that, Ashwin just started college today! Best of luck for him in college and my sister on her job. Yah~ next would be me and my up-coming future. Wonder what is God's plan for me. O_o;

Night night. If only these two guys gonna be in my future, pls? ;P

Nah, I'm not selfish. I just love them both. (:
They brought happiness in my life. Always.

Jang Wooyoung♥ & Park Yoochun♥
Be mine? ;)

P.S. Sarang hae

I'll Survive ;)

2010-03-17T13:32:00.015+08:00

Listening to: Alice by Avril Lavigne

Her songs never fails to get my attention. It's for the movie, "Alice In Wonderland". Avril looks absolutely beautiful in the music video. Should I go watch the movie in 3D? My brain needs some imaginary visions since the reality is getting difficult day by day. Aigoo. But I haven't watch "Valentine's Day". Plus, "Eclipse" and "The Last Song" is coming soon. O_o; That two movies is a MUST.

Anyway, like I mentioned before, I'm glad that I still have these awesome people around me. ;) Amazingly, I've been going out with my friends so often since the beginning of this year that I felt that I'm gonna miss them a lot after this.

ALOT. ;) These people are called 'friends'. Besides that, my life is filled of joy because of another group of people. They are called 'family'.

There's a lot of reasons that could make me give up on my life. There's a lot of reasons for me to hate this reality world. But, there's a lot MORE reasons for me to be here and keep going with my life. All of these people, they are a part of my eternal happiness. Anyway, it doesn't mean I didn't post your photos here, you're not part of it. You are. I just wished you could realise it. Instead of assuming that I've stop loving you. Like I said before, when I make promises, I keep it. When I said "forever" & "always", it's true. And when I said, "I love you", I meant it.

Thanks to these two person.
They were the ones who brought me into this world.
And I thank them for that. ;)

I'm giving speech as if I'm dying or something. XD Weird.
Mom and dad are starting to watch Korean shows with us. My dad was the most into it though. He even dance along the Korean songs when I watch Music Bank. ;D He even imitates Jiyeon from T-ara in God of Study, everytime she said, "Hubby!". Oh, surprisingly, he even ask about Suju's concert. *cries* I wished he ask this 2 years ago during TVXQ's concert. Surely can go already. Mom likes Minho after watching Dream Team 2. ;D She even said Yoo Seung Ho (Hwang Baekhyeon in God of Study) is cute! And dad said he's really good-looking. X) Oh yeah, maybe I should start finding a Korean son-in-law for them already? Hee. ;P Nah, I'll leave that to God. After watching "Dalja's Spring", I realised the possibility of me not getting married is possible. :X Age 33 years old, still not married. Yeah, like Dalja. But it's good that she has a good career. Maybe it's not that too bad since you achieved your dream-career. I want to. One day. Aja aja hwaiting! :D

Did I mention already? Hani and I passed our driving license! ;D Thank you God for your blessings. Thank you Uncle Lee for giving us a hard time when you're teaching. Your strictness gave us strength to work harder. (: However the ironic part after I went back from the test on that day, mom said, "Do you really can drive? Should take her to one big field and let her practise driving there". Yes, even though I already passed the JPJ test, I haven't passed the MOM test. ;P

Anyway, I miss these two guys. TT_TT Why is it that the groups that I admired the most had some problems and it's hard for me to get to see them in the net that often anymore. :( I hope they are doing fine.

JANG WOOYOUNG♥♥
Aww. That smile. ;)
He's actually a crybaby too. Be strong okay?

PARK YOOCHUN♥♥♥
Oppa ya~where have you been? I miss you. :(
Pls appear quickly.
I miss watching you do the thing you love the most, singing.
I miss listening to songs made by you.

P.S. Sarang hae

Run, run and RUN away

2010-03-11T21:00:00.006+08:00

Listening to: Run by Epik High

This song makes me want to run and run without stopping. It's like a motivation to release anger by running. The music video is unique and creative. It shows the life of a person and what he's going through and how he deal with it. He just run and run and run. Reminds me of Forrest Gump. ;D

I think besides using tumblr as a blog to show my love towards TVXQ & ONEDAY and also the Korean entertainment, I've used it as some kind of a place to release my anger and sadness. In short, it's just some kind of an emo place. HAHA. I guess, it's better that not many people knew my tumblr site, so they don't have to deal with my emo craps. Well, except Ashwin. Sorry son, you have to read all that. Just ignore it, okay. Besides that, I guess tumblr is the best place to post photos. (:

Went to school today and got the school magazine. I can only say... nice photos. Met Suren and Kopal after for so long. Everyone's been busy, I guess it's kind of hard to see them. And I had the feeling in the future it's gonna be even harder due to...well, some reasons. So, I guess it's better to spend time with them now and appreciate the moment. Except that my moment right now is not going to be that great, thanks to the upcoming driving test. -_-; Ergh. I prefer driving at Arcade only. Anyway... I wonder who's "Anonymous". Don't ask why.

I'm sorry if I'm not that pretty enough for your eyes to see.
Then, just look at my beautiful friends and blind yourself from my image.

Anyway, I have formspring now, thanks to Ashwin. O_o; I don't know why I created it, 'cus no one would want to waste their time asking me questions anyway. XD There's nothing to ask actually. So yeah, if anyone "accidentally" came to my blog or something, ask me questions here then. http://www.formspring.me/snowlene520 It can be Korean-related too. ;D Since I'm such a big fan, so yeah. Advices? I'll try my best to answer it. Though I might end up giving ajaran sesat. ;P

I had these thoughts, that people might think are stupid,(well, IT IS.) that loving one person and being faithful towards that particular won't be so bad even though it's just a one-sided love. Why? 'Cus I'll be busy loving that person only and won't fall for any guys and end up hurt again. So yeah. I should keep it up. Learn from the Korean dramas. Even though the perfect guy doesn't exist like in the drama, I'll just make the strong and determine, stupid and faithful girl in the drama exist. At the same time, I might end up concentrating on my work anyway. Marriage might possible be out of my dictionary of life. HAHA.

It wasn't a good day, yet not that much of a bad day too. So yeah. I still had fun hanging out with my friends. :D I hope I could see them again this Saturday. And more people to come! I'll go for my daily routine now. One of it is stalking these two hot cuties. ;P

JANG WOOYOUNG♥♥
You admit that your body is not as hot as your other members. ;P But hey, I don't look at your body much. Your character is jjang! Gah~ I want to meet you and the other ONEDAY members! TT_TT Why do you only go to Thailand?

PARK YOOCHUN♥♥♥
Hee. ;) I still and will always think that you have the hottest broad shoulders. (even though Rain's one is broader ;P) One of the reasons why I fall for you, well, after loving your character. ;D Oppa, hope you're doing great. Stay healthy okay? I miss you~ *hugs* Warm warm.♥♥

Even if I run and then look back, you're there.
I don't know whether it's a beautiful dream or just a nightmare.
'Cus you're always there.
P.S. Sarang hae

Keep Going, Just Follow Your Soul

2010-03-07T20:50:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Follow Your Soul by 2PM

2PM really surprises me by singing this type of song. It's for their latest OPPO Mobile CF. Seriously, this is exactly the type of song that TVXQ would sing. I could even imagine TVXQ singing this song. And somehow, 2PM really sounded awesome. I really love it. (: I'm looking forward for the music video. 2PM jjang!♥

Yesterday, watched one of my favourite movies. I'll never get bored of this movie. :D
Can't believe that this movie came out when I was 4 years old and now, I love watching it over and over again. It's a story that teaches everyone a lot of things. Well, if you get what the movie is trying to show you. The last time I watch it was during my early teenage days and I learn something at that particular time. As I grew up and matures, I watch it again, that is, yesterday. It's the same story, the same movie, but it taught me something different. It might be because of the different thoughts I had now and last time. That's why my interpretation of what the movie is trying to show me is different. Maybe after a decade, I should watch it again, and I'm pretty sure there are other things for me to understand through this movie. I would easily realise it if I had seen or experience the things I've seen in that movie. In the movie, there was one part when Forrest ran for 3 years, 2 months, 14 days and 16 hours. Something got into my mind when he said this,

"I ran clear to the ocean. And when I got there, I figured, since I'd gone this far, I might as well turn around, just keep on going. When I got to another ocean, I figured, since I'd gone this far, I might as well just turn back, keep right on going."

What I could interpret is that whatever happens just keep going. Keep moving on. Forrest said he had gone that far, and yes he reached a dead end (since he can't run into the ocean), he said he might as well just turn around and keep going. It's true that we usually heard this phrase, "There's no turning back". But this "turning back" that Forrest mentioned does not mean, turning back to the starting. I could say, he turn back because it was a dead end, and find his way to another path. To me, it means that you turn back, look back at those mistakes you've done, you find another way and keep going. Why? Because you had gone this far, you should just go for it. Don't even think of giving up. (: Just go on 'till you finally realised that everything is done, that's when you can finally say, "I'm pretty tired... I think I'll go home now." Life is a long way to go. A long journey. Sometime I wonder, where will I ended up? Where would my death take place at? Nobody knows. ;)
Anyway, here's some of my favourite quotes.

Young Forrest Gump: Mama. What's vacation?
Mrs. Gump: Vacation's when you go somewhere... and you never come back

Jenny Curran: Do you ever dream, Forrest, about who you're gonna be?
Forrest Gump: Who I'm gonna be?
Jenny Curran: Yeah.
Forrest Gump: Aren't-aren't I going to be me?

"I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze, but I, I think maybe it's both. Maybe both is happening at the same time."

"My momma always said you can tell a lot about a person by their shoes, where the go, where they've been. I've worn lots of shoes, I bet if I think about it real hard I can remember my first pair of shoes."

"My momma always said, "Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get."

"Mama always said, dying was a part of life."

The last quote, as I clearly remembered, my mom said the same thing. I still remember crying about not wanting to die and not wanting my mom to die. I remembered her laughing on my childish acts. Well, I was still small at that time though. The first time mom told me that all humans had to die, I cried every night thinking about what would happen if the people I love die. Thinking about it now, well... I think it is actually one of my fears.

Anyway, here's an interesting TVXQ translation from Non-No Magazine. :D I love the photos. Beautiful and artistic.

Jejung

I’m a bit masochistic during work. I don’t want to become overly full of myself.

Even though I thought my image in my first meeting was very important…how should I say this…my image was a bit weak?? It’s more like I looked like a bad boy. But after I debuted in Japan I became a brighter. I thought my image was colder in Korea, and I wanted to change my image a bit. I mean, wouldn’t you dislike it if my personality was the same as my appearance? I’m sad when people misunderstand me. For example, if Junsu says “Idiot!”, others would see it like a joke. But if I say the same thing, everyone would probably think I really mean it. The normal Jejung is absolutely not cold at all~ If I had to say it in one word, I’m a bit M (laughs). When everyone says “I’m tired~ It’s too bothersome~”, I’ll say “I’ll do it first!” Changmin is the same. We like work!! I am a bit spontaneous too. I would suddenly become happy and sad sometimes, a bit masochistic in work, but I think I’m an S-type in love… But I’m conscious of these sides. Because I know myself the best (laughs). I want to treasure this gap. Well, I don’t want to become overly full of myself (Lit: Doesn’t want to refer to himself as ore-sama). I would hate that. I want to become a friendly companion to everyone.

Yunho

I’ll protect the person I love with my life

I work hard as Tohoshinki’s leader, but when I’m with my friends or members, I’m just a normal guy. I am courteous, and tell jokes too. Although my original personality doesn’t change, I’m different from the Yunho you see at work. I’m a bit more energetic. Changmin always tells me, “Yunho-aniki (older brother) seems pure and simple like a high school student.” That’s because Changmin usually emits more of an aura than I do (laughs). Lately, I personally enjoy traveling here and there. Even when I’m busy, I try to make time for travelling. Changmin is filming in Jejudo right now, and I went there to cheer him on, telling him to do his best. I also snowboarded there! It was a great adventure. I didn’t know how people my age pass their days before. I wore a mask and a cap, and dressed like a normal university student. Just by walking here and there in that 5-6 hours, I felt that there are so many people living their various lives to the fullest. That became my drive, and I carried a new attitude towards my work. Because I’m the leader, I tend to be the leading type in love. If I like someone, I would date her for a long time, like 3-4 years. I cannot date or love someone lightly. But I would probably observe her as a friend for 2-3 years before dating her. If I then think she really is a good girl, I would immediately confess to her. But right now, I still have my dreams and I need to work hard at my job and level myself up. After that, I’ll protect the girl I love with my life.
Photo Inspired by Purple Line

Yuchun

I have various charms (laughs)

I’m not really sure about myself, but people around me say I’m free, sexy, difficult to approach, and other things… But I guess that means I’m charming in various ways! Hahaha (laughs)!! I always treasure the people I like, like the staff, my family, and others close to me, but to not let others who don’t really know me misunderstand me, I usually only say greetings. That’s why, I hear that I have a cold personality often. They tell me greetings are different from properly talking to them. It’s not that I’m afraid of showing myself to others, but I’m not good at making friends with others from the start. But personally, I think greetings are important, and I greet others often, so I wonder why others still tell me that I have a cold personality… (laughs bitterly). When I’m with the members, I get high when Junsu does. I really want to thank him for being sensitive (lit: reading the atmosphere)and livening up the atmosphere at times. But I’m quick at reading the atmosphere/situation too! It’s not that I consciously read into something, but I can feel it immediately from others’ expressions and their words. But when I’m too sensitive to others reactions (lit: read too much into atmosphere) and hold back what I want to say, I feel like exploding from stress. To move forward from those times, and to forget things I want to forget, I hint to them sometimes. If I do that, I really do forget after a month. I’m proud of that (laughs). Well, I’m basically a positive person! I enjoy work too! I feel lucky.

Junsu

I want to become an adult who can handle work and love at the same time

When I’m with my members only, I’m really quiet. It isn’t that I’m super-quiet, but I’m shy. I was really shy back then, and it was worse then. I was really at loss when it came to meeting people for the first time, even in normal places. I didn’t know what I should talk about. I’m especially weak when it comes to girls (laughs). I really wanted to talk to them, but I couldn’t speak well. I’ve become better lately…but compared with the members, I’m not! Because I’m not good at talking, I like girls who are bright (Note: weird wording). But if I meet a girl I like, I’ll definitely confess to her first. That’s because I’m a guy! I work hard at telling jokes…and I really want to thank the people who tell me they’re funny even when they’re not (laughs). The funny thing is that I would tell them to myself to raise my spirits sometimes. That’s because I become happy when everyone laughs. However, I don’t want to have to think hard about carrying out jokes or relationships, I want to naturally do it. I want to live showing my true self to others. These thoughts may change as I grow older, but I really don’t know yet. But…I want to become capable adult, whether it’s for work, in private, or for my state of mind…and of course for the girl I love! It’s embarassing~~ (laughs)!!

Changmin

Recently, I’ve become more mature and fixed my shyness.

Even though it’s embarrassing to say this out of my own mouth, I thought that I had the face of a “good boy” and a “good student” from a long time ago. But I felt pressured because of those views. Maybe I’m the only one who thinks this, but I feel that I must always show my best side to others. Contrary to everyone’s thoughts, I’m really not a good student (laughs)!! The truth is, I’m usually unsparing (when criticizing). Actually, I’m more at ease when I’m like that. I feel that I can’t hold myself back anymore, and I’ve given up completely. I’ve become colder to others. I’m determined not to look back, even when it’s in love. People often say I’m shy, but I’ve changed recently and became more mature. But I still place utmost importance when it comes to consideration for girls. I have two younger sisters, and when I was young, my father often told me to treat girls kindly. Unknowingly, it’s become part of me. I do want to be kind to my sisters…but I haven’t said it aloud. It’s a bit embarrassing tell them that I’m grateful for them and for their love because it’s family… Actually, my whole family isn’t good at saying those things. I guess we’re all shy. But we have a sharp tongue. I guess we’re that type of family (laughs).

Credits + Translation: whisperpuppies [soompi]
Shared by: DBSKnights

Yoochun oppa, you'll never want to get separated with the piano huh? :D Well, you always look good with it anyway. It's quite recent, I think it's cute. Comparing all their interviews since they first debuted 'till now, some of their views changed and well, it's normal though. (: They are getting matured now, way matured and they go through a lot of experiences already.

That's all for now. :D I think my tumblr has more 2PM love in it. XD And blogspot has more TVXQ love. Ah, who cares. Love both groups anyway. And of course, both guys here. ;D

Jang Wooyoung & Park Yoochun
Aww. I love them both.♥

P.S. Sarang hae

PUU-RII-TY GIRL ;D

2010-03-07T18:49:00.014+08:00

Listening to: Pretty Girl by KARA

This song is addictive and the dance is kinda' fun. :D KARA girls are really pretty. I like how they pronounce "pretty". Really cute. "Girl, PUU-RII-TY girl."

Driving exam is coming up. *dies* I seriously have no confidence in this. STILL prefer riding motorcycle than driving. Vespa♥♥. ;D Yes, I'm a fan of antique stuffs, got a problem with that?
Moving on, I've watched "Phobia 2" for about 3-5 times already. XD Scary and funny at the same time. There's 5 different stories, but the last story is filled with twists. Just watch. What I did everyday is seriously turning into a routine now, let's just hope I won't get fat. D:

Anyway, I really love to take Korean celebrities as my idols. (: I mean, the girls. They are really pretty!!! And some of them have a really cool and awesome fashion sense. I have this habit when I watch them, I'll go like, "Whoa... they are so pretty, their hair, their smile, their skin..." And yes, envious feelings took control on me. ;D I've seen a lot of pretty girls in Malaysia, including the celebrities, but none of them really makes me go, "Whoa..." So yeah. XD Even if I see them, I still think Korean celebrities are so much prettier. :D

Ha Jiwon
(One of the most famous Korean actress. I really think she represents the natural beauty of Korean women. Watch "Hwang Ji Ni" and you'll agree with me.)

Park Jiyeon
(From the group, T-ara. She has a really cute smile, and kind of resembles Kim Tae Hee. She acted in the drama, "God Of Study". These photoshoot caught my eyes, she looks pretty and sexy. The last photo is her natural look.)

Jeon Boram
(Remember her? The stalker/die-hard-fan of Nichkhun in the CASS music video. She looks like she has the potential to act in a horror movie. But she's actually really cute. Oh, she's also from T-ara.)
Im Yoona
(I still think she's the prettiest and has the most natural beauty look in SNSD. I watch her audition video and she still looks cute. However, I heard a lot of people hate her. O_o; I'm not sure why, but I know she's kind of every guy's favourite. Not only ordinary guys, but celebrities. That could be the reason. )
Lee Minjung
(She's one of the celebrities that makes me go, "Whoa...she's really pretty." I saw her appearance first in "Boys Over Flowers". Seriously, she's beautiful. And mind me for posting lots of her photos 'cus I can't find any photos which she doesn't look good in it. Yes, she's that photogenic.)

Pretty right? (: Ok now, talk about pretty girls, I was shock when WeeN unni showed me this video.

Yes, these two guys had made me shock after seeing how pretty they look as girls. O_O;
And that is what I call, "pretty boys". ;) Song Seung Hyun from FT Island on the left and Mir from MBLAQ on the right.

Here's their original look.

Mir
(Bang Chul Yong)

Song Seung Hyun

Hee. Seung Hyun is HOT. (: I seriously never thought he's the guy that caught my eyes in FT Island's "I Hope" MV. He's character is soo much different from what I thought. Mir is crazy though, I knew it from watching their prank on Lee Joon♥.

Anyway, the guys I fall for is pretty too. ;P Nah, they are just too perfect in my eyes.

JANG WOO YOUNG♥♥
Cute, funny and somehow kind of mysterious when it comes to girls.

PARK YOOCHUN♥♥♥
I don't have any reason to stop from loving you. ;)

P.S. Sarang hae

Confess What's In The Heart

2010-03-03T16:57:00.017+08:00

Listening to: 친구의 고백(Confession of a Friend) by 2AM

One of most popular songs by 2AM. (: Soothing and saddening. The singers' voices cry out the tears of the song. I don't see any reason to NOT like this song. Beautiful music, using strings and violins, piano, combined with amazing voices. The lyrics.... definitely represents an honest confession from a friend.

Dear God, is this a feeling of hatred or just some excuse for hiding those inevitable feelings? Could ignorance show how someone truly feels? Does it end when ignorance are ignored? Will the person get it? If this obvious ignorance are just meant to be ignored... what more can I say? If the effort of understanding the ignorance wasn't made, what more to be expect from this ignorance? Or... that particular person is just playing dumb 'cus there is nothing to be cared anymore? In the end, I'm just a pabo that had let my heart stop at that particular time. My whole mind is controlled with anger mixed with sadness.

Gah. Having to post an emo+artistic words after for so long. HAHA. At least it makes me feel great... a bit. I think. ;D Let's just fly on, (I'm tired of moving on, so I'll try flying on. LAME. ;P) here's some photos to cheer myself and any of TVXQ fans that's facing the cruelty of life. (sound so sadistic) at least these photos cheered me a bit. Miss these guys. :D

From VIVI Magazine April 2010 Edition.
(click to enlarge)

HERO

KIM JAEJOONG

U-KNOW
JUNG YUNHO

♥MICKY♥
PARK YOOCHUN

XIAH
KIM JUNSU

MAX
SIM CHANGMIN
creds: InfinityHK

Don't they all look good here? (: Jaejoong, gosh you're crazily the most photogenic human I've ever seen. Sexy, beautiful, handsome & hot at the same time? Damn, you're good. Yunho appa! :D I've been seeing you modelling a lot these days. Definitely suits you, you're too handsome. Seriously, TOO handsome. Your face structure is every camera's favourite. ;) *skips Yoochun* Junsu~! Your charisma never fails to amuse me. Since this is more of a serious photo shoot, couldn't see your bright smile which is the most attractive part about you. And don't you ever do anything to those single-eyelid eyes of yours okay. It's perfectly fine already. ;D Changminnie~ OhMyGAWD. Last time I thought of you as the baby in TVXQ, but seeing how matured and grown up you look now, I should start calling you oppa now. ;D And lastly, yeah, I'm saving the BEST last of course. Hee. *happy happy* Yoochun oppa, I'm amazed on how good you are in NOT disappointing me when you take good shots of yourself. That last two photos, are... *faints* No wonder I couldn't find any reason to stop loving you. Well, I don't want to find it anyway. ;)

There will never be the second version of TVXQ. There will never be anyone that will look as pretty as Kim Jaejoong, handsome as Jung Yunho, charismatic as Kim Junsu, adorably handsome like Shim Changmin & as handsome, cute, attractive as Park Yoochun. ;D Most important, no one would look exactly like them, sing exactly like them, having the same character with the same face like them. NO ONE. I believe that. That's why, TVXQ shall never be broken. Stay as five or there will never be TVXQ without each one of you. Oppa(s), I will always keep the faith. On one condition though, if your happiness is at stake, I will support any of your decisions that would give you happiness. I will always support you. ALWAYS.

I guess, sometimes staying at home, doing things to forget someone is easy. But that's what the brain thought though. It doesn't involve the heart. That's why I'm turning heartless day by day. Let's just hope I won't turn into a monster. Don't worry I won't. 'Cus what makes a difference is that I have family & friends. (: Hanging out with them of course doesn't cure the pain, but they help you find the right path in your life. And make you feel loved so much that you felt you doesn't even deserve it. ;) I'm heading for my dreams. I hope.

I love this dorkies.

Especially the guy at left. ;)

P.S. Sarang hae

Try To Be The Last One Standing

2010-02-24T20:39:00.007+08:00

Listening to: Savin' Me by Nickelback

Love this song especially the music video. Kinda' similar with Death Note concept, very unique.

CNY is over, 2 special guys' birthdays has passed too. Let me introduce both of them. ;)

HWANG CHANSUNG (2PM)

Happy Belated Birthday to the magnae of 2PM. (:
Chansung turned 20 (21 in Korean age) on February 11.
Hope to see you shine even more and talk more!
Don't waste that handsome face ya?

SHIM CHANGMIN(TVXQ)

Happy Belated Birthday to the magnae of TVXQ.
Changmin turned 22 (23 in Korean age) on February 18.
Can't wait to watch your drama! :D You worked hard.
I wish you more luck and happiness for this year. ;)
(extra: Changmin in SPUR Magazine)
creds: as tagged on photos

Coincidence? (: Both magnae(s) from my favourite groups. Birthdays are quite close and even their names sounded nearly the same. ;D Love them both. Magnae(s) are adorable.♥

My prediction is gonna be true. These guys ain't gonna be ordinary singers anymore. They are definitely gonna be a legend, well-known by the world. ;) They broke the sales record that has been held by Bon Jovi for 14 years. ;D Woohoo TVXQ jjang! Daebak! FIGHTING~!
Anyway, fighting for me for tomorrow's disaster. ;___;
Life ain't gonna be easy, no one can save me now.

Park Yoochun♥
Well, at least this guy saved my soul. ;)

P.S. Saranghae

Happy 24th Birthday Jung Yunho! :D

2010-02-06T20:08:00.006+08:00

Listening to: 웃겨(Funny) by 4Minute

Or 25th birthday in Korean year. (: Our appa of TVXQ, U-Know;Jung Yunho has grown 1 year older today. ;D

So far, there's a lot of news in Korea about our appa, he had been doing a lot of charities and quite recent, an endorsement for Evisu for Elle. I'll share the photos of our birthday guy now. ;)

Dear Yunho appa,
I would like to pray for your happiness in 2010.
I wish for things to get better for you because I know you're a great guy and you deserve it.
I want you to know that you are one of the kindest person I've ever idolised.
You are a guy with a good heart and God will always bless you.
Lastly, Yunho appa, aja aja hwaiting! :D 2010 FIGHTING!
I will always support TVXQ, don't worry ya. ;)
Happy Birthday!

GREATEST LEADER, JUNG YUNHO. ;D with his beloved members.

"ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH"

People always make a conclusion easily, "TVXQ can never be saved anymore." or "They are going to break up right?" Those assumptions came out from their mouth without their acknowledgment on how much these guys had gone through together after and also before their debut. Think about it, the success they had achieved now, you people have no idea, even I, myself don't know what kind of hardships they had experienced to become who they are now.
What I know, it's not easy at all. And I'm very sure that my journey to achieve my own dreams aren't that easy too.

Yoochun♥. Junsu. Yunho
Adorable huh?
I am proud to say, "They are my idols." (:
And the left guy, well, there's more than that. ;P

P.S. Sarang hae

Micky+Cars = Sexy = Xiah+Musical

2010-02-01T19:47:00.006+08:00

Listening to: Oh Yeah by MBLAQ

This was actually back in February last year, in IRON MAN, the protagonist Tony Stark drove around in a hot car. Well, Micky has that same car… The Audi R8.

Gosh, he looks hot in that video, driving that car. O_o; I never knew that he really like cars that much. Micky already owned a mini cooper and Lexus IS350. And of course recently, the Porsche Panamera.

Moving on, Xiah's Musical Mozart was a big success. :D A lot of people enjoyed it and even though Xiah looks a little scary with the make up and the wig, his smile covers all of it. (: Cutest Mozart.

This guy is amazing. His expression, his voice, this guy definitely suits the musical. (: Most angelic voice goes to Xiah Junsu! :D

And this guy?
Well, he is loved by me and he owns all those cars mentioned above. ;)
Park Yoochun;Forever My Love For You. ♥

P.S. Sarang hae

Laugh All You Want By Yourself

2010-01-30T03:05:00.005+08:00

Listening to: 웃어 줄 수가 없어서 미안하다(I'm Sorry I Can't Laugh For You) by 2AM

Nice song. (: 2AM's voices are incredible.

SO... I'm annoyed with those sickening **** girls (note:it's not a curse, but something that is too obvious to relate certain human beings). Gee, if you love ******'s boyfriend, should just ***** the guy in the first place, not wait later *** ***** people's ******* *****. Giving ***** to him through ***** and what-so-ever. ******* at the ***** he ****** to ****. What a ********-*******. Definitely a *****. Acting ******* and ****. -_-; What a joke. When I ****** those ***** of you people, makes me sick to the stomach. ******* ******. Pretending to *** people about **** *** *. *laughs* ******...

*breaths out* Much better. (: Love it when people don't get what I'm trying to say here. People nowadays... whatever anyway. Look who has turn back into a blondie!

Aigoo. Jaejoong looks good in any way lar. ;) I wanted to post about Xiah's musical, maybe next post. ;) Should watch the video first. Moving on... first I fall for Nichkhun, it was the first impression of 2PM. Then, when I listen to Junsu's singing, I fall for him then. Then, when I saw Junho's smile, I was like "omona, I'm in love." And after watching Taecyeon's hidden camera, his innocent and funny side made me fall for him despite his scary look. So..that's 4 people. O_o; Damn, they are good. I watch videos of Jaebeom singing English songs, and his voice... omg, he got me. And his shyness in Idol Army when they had couple selection with SNSD, omg, soo cute. Then, Wooyoung.O_O; Seriously this guy is kinda' weird, but he really is..attractive in some ways. CUTE. Chansung...seems like a small boy to me because of the way he acts even though we're in the same age. So yeah, 2 guys got me now.

Park Jaebeom
(Leadja, quickly come back!)

Jang Woo Young♥

And, sleeping time. ;) Goodnight Earth.

Park Yoochun♥♥♥
I need you at times like this.
I really miss you baby.

P.S. Sarang hae

HOODIE addict ;P

2010-01-28T21:07:00.012+08:00

Listening to: Angel by 2PM

I'm addicted with their songs. O_O; Should buy the albums because I love all of the songs. Yes, I'm the type of girl that will only buy an album if I love all the songs. Except TVXQ of course, I love all their songs. O_o; Wait, maybe 2PM is gonna be an exceptional too? *transforming into one of the Hottest(2PM's fans)*

Planning to buy a hoodie. Yes, I'm a big fan of hoodies and Korean's hoodies are really sexy and hot. ;P Plus, can't stand it when I watch my idols wearing it. I want~! Thank you so much for the auntie in Times Square for selling these hoodies! :D There's a two popular brands that caught my eyes.
(click to enlarge)

BANC
(Most of it has the picture of Lego characters)

TVXQ

2PM

Big BangLee Hyori
(owwwh I love this one!)

SS501
Girls Generation

COLONIZE
(Usually you can see the picture of the back of Doraemon,Ultraman,Pooh...etc)

TVXQ
Park Bom(2NE1)
Lee Hyori
Chansung(2PM)
Big Bang
Girls Generation

SHINee

MBLAQ

The pooh one is soo cute. :D Aigoo. Love both brands. But I think COLONIZE looks better as a normal shirt. However the purple one that Hyori is wearing is CUTE! But... BANC's hoodie really attracts me. (: I could only see the ones which 2PM wore at the shop. I want the one Hyori and Micky wore. Micky's one is black, and Hyori's is white. GD's pink hoodie is cute too but don't think I'll look as great as him in pink. -__-; Oh gosh, my addiction towards hoodies is getting worst. I'm soooo buying one of those. *starts saving*

Gonna go sleep now while listening to 2AM's soothing voices. ;)

This one was at the shop too.
Quite simple, can't I have the person that's wearing it? ;P
Or maybe the one that he wore?

Park Yoochun♥

P.S. Sarang hae

HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY JAEJOONG!

2010-01-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

Listening to: 소원을 말해봐(Tell Me Your Wish) by SNSD

Sweet song. (: Love the dance. Especially when the male idols performed it.♥

Today, Kim Jaejoong of TVXQ turned 24 years old. Well, in Korean age, he is 25 now. Omona. And his face still maintains. The beauty of Kim Jaejoong, incredible. *envious*
Time for pic spam! ;D Before that, this was quite old, but I've forgotten to share it before. Lucky kid to get the chance to go on a date with Hero Jaejoong. His name is Park Jibin. Jaejoong stated that Jibin is like a "girlfriend-like-little-brother". Jibin said "Jaejoong hyung is the coolest member in TVXQ". (: CUTE.

Hee. Okay, now for the birthday guy's picture spam. I just want to say Happy Birthday oppa!

Happy Birthday Jaejoong oppa.
I hope this year would be a great year for you.
May 2010 brings happiness and luck for you and the other members.
김재중, 아자 아자!!!
동방신기,아자 아자!!!

I still and will always have faith on these guys. ;) I'll end this post now. Tomorrow is gonna be a big day. *optimistic* Everyday is a big day! ;D

Kim Jaejoong;Park Yoochun♥
Hee. Lene love this photo sooo much.
Two sexy and hot guys with amazing and attractive voices. (:
Love both of them. One is like an oppa, while another one...
jagiya~~~ ;P *blushes and runs away while covering face*

P.S. Sarang hae

Let Me Have A Taste of Your Love;S.O.J.U. ;)

2010-01-26T03:16:00.009+08:00

Listening to: Hello by G-Dragon featuring Sandara Park

This two should date. ;P I don't know why, they just seems cute performing together. Plus, Sandara is pretty.

Chum-Churum♥

Yes, my addiction towards eyeliners is thanks to this woman.

PARK BOM♥

Talented girl. (: Her voice is awesome & unique. Different from other female singers. I need to hear more songs from her and 2EN1 of course. Their song genre is definitely my favourite type. Moving on, Lee Hyori is going to have her comeback too! Can't wait! :D Her sexiness can never be beaten, still the best and the first. Amazingly, her character makes her an interesting person. I want to meet her! She's so fun in Family Outing! :D

omg. Hyori unni, how do you know I'm sooo into ADIDAS? *dies* I want that yellow bag and that long top. Omg, the Adidas symbol kills me. I had the feeling the price would really kill me. X__x
It's Jaejoong's birthday today, I'm gonna make a post specially for him, later. Since I'm still new as a fan of 2PM, didn't get to catch their birthdays yet. Two people already had their birthdays this year. Surprisingly, my two favourites. ♥♥

HAPPY Belated BIRTHDAY to both,
KIM JUNSU (22nd Birthday, January 15)
LEE JUNHO (20th Birthday, January 25)

Hee. Love them both.
And here's a bonus, I found a cute picture that makes me go "aaawww".

That's all for now. Sleeping time. ;P Yes, call me an owl.

Wonder if I could get the chance to have a drink with oppa one day?
Yoochun oppa, I love you, you cutie dork.

P.S. Sarang hae

Think Before You Speak;Bad Comments Are Strength To Success

2010-01-25T21:00:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Diva by After School

This song somehow makes me want to jump, jump and jump! :D I love Ga Hee. She's pretty and an awesome dancer.

“Wherever I go, will I be criticized?”
Yes, that is a small part of G-Dragon's statement regarding the problem he is facing about his recent concert. His statement totally shows a matured side of him and I really respect that guy. Netizens will NEVER EVER stop. I'm sure most celebrities and their fans knew about that. I knew it long ago when I started to love TVXQ, and somehow the more anger we showed to them about what they said, it seems they love it. 'Cus they totally got the attention they wanted by criticizing, showing that they are doing the so-called "right" thing. It makes me laugh even more when they were talking about the future of children in this world just because of a performance yet there are other people struggling to make this world a better place by at least, doing SOMETHING, and NOT by just putting comments about the artists in the net. What a joke. Seriously. But GD is right though, it's obvious wherever we go in this world, we'll surely be criticized. Can't avoid it, but we can prove to them whatever they do, it'll just gonna make us even stronger anyway. ;)

And seriously, for some 2PM and WG fans and also some busy-body-netizens, stop blaming JYP about Jaebeom and Sunmi. Gosh, seriously, JYP are so close to them as if his a friend, not the boss. You can even see their closeness in the videos, and that doesn't even look like an act, okay. Tell me, in this world, how many bosses would let themselves get scoldings from their own workers? Look at how BI RAIN, 2PM, 2AM & WG treated him? If he is sooo obsessed about controlling those singers like how most of you assumed, shouldn't he just kept Bi in his company and make sure Bi doesn't leave so that he could get all the money and fame Bi is gaining now? Yet, they can still hang around even though he's not in the company. So, JYP is a bad producer?

*breaths out* Now this post is filled with too much anger.

A view at the seaside could calm me down.
Or maybe just by seeing these guys could cure everything.

I need this smile. ;(
Park. Yoo. Chun. ♥
Lucky Ga Hee to have you even for a short while.

P.S. Sarang hae

I don't want to run away

2010-01-24T03:36:00.009+08:00

Listening to: No Promises by Shane Ward

This song brings out memories. I guess.

A shop caught my eye in Times Square. No, not the cosmetics. This guy. ;P

...and he held my hand. ;D
it was love at first sight.
*gets chased by Rain's fans*

"Nature Republic", based on Mother nature's law, is a new cosmetic brand, created by combining both state-of-the-art technology as well as natural substances of the utmost quality.
Not quite new anymore though, it was "new" last year. ;D Just found the store.
Visit the official website. (there's a huge photo of Rain in starting page)
Watch the CF. (beautiful. I love the concept.)

*blinks blinks* ;D

it was the last kiss. *winks at Micky* ;P
yes, my insanity was in control on that day.
now, I regret didn't go to his concert last time.

I'm glad KBS gave me the chance to watch "Full House". Exactly like the comments I'd heard, yeap, that's one awesome drama. (: I want their house.

am I the only one who thinks he looks hot here? ;D

aaaaww. Junho reminds me of Rain. Their smiles are both CUTE!♥

So...Rain has a hot body and his dance is sexy. Junho is cute and hot too.
Nah, I'll still go for HIM. Look, he's waiting for my kiss. ;P
*pulls Micky and run away from Cassies*

오빠, 키스 좋아? ;P
I love you Park Yoochun. Get it?

P.S. Sarang hae.

Inevitable Feelings

2010-01-23T02:17:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Hwang Jin Yi soundtrack album

I love all the tracks in this album. The music composed in this album fascinates me.

I don't know what my current, actual mood is. But I thank God for yesterday. Wouldn't made it without Him. I need to get serious and take it to the next level now.
Currently reading "Twilight" by Stephenie Meyer. I'm amazed by her writing skills and how she could create such interesting sentences with creative words. Besides that, Edward's character in the book, seems more interesting than the one in the movie. Kind of reminds me of someone. I wonder.

Again & Again. You appeared in my mind.
I gave you my heart, are you trying to steal my brain now?

I need to go somewhere... relaxing. My hometown. CNY is coming up anyway. I
f I could, I want to fly to Korea right now. It is snowing now. Spending time at a cold place with a cold heart, I wonder how does it feel?

Even Yoochun loves the snow I guess.
Oppa, why am I so weak?

P.S. Sarang hae.

Can Goodbyes Cures A Heartless Person?

2010-01-22T01:54:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade

I've been quite a heartless person recently. Selfishness grew inside of me but it also helped me from being weak and also immune from some humans' stupid games on me. Tears ain't that easily fall from these eyes anymore. But sometimes, it's like I'm in a different body when I don't have any feelings. Recently, we had a kitten as the new family of the family, after 4 days of together, she left with her mom. I didn't even get to say goodbye, yet I just said it to myself, "Even a kitten left you" and laughed sarcastically to myself. Well, not until I read WeeN's, I felt the sadness and yearning coming back in me. The feelings of having to be left, the feelings that is too common to me already, I hate it. I want to be as heartless as Hwang Jini. Her confidence overcomes her sadness and turns her into a heartless woman that doesn't want to feel love anymore. What's left is just a cold heart.

And I don't mind typing out about how ridiculous some people, or someone is, for not admitting his mistakes and the disgusting part was pretending that as if nothing happen. My ignorance had showed an obvious sign on how angry I am, but yet it is not understandable for that person. Yes, I am being mean, but look back at those days when I wasn't mean and you took advantage on my patience towards you. Shame on you. You can hate me, 'cus it doesn't affect me anymore. Actually, please, just hate me. Just remember this, until you realised it yourself and change, there's no point for me to go on being nice to you, having hope that you won't repeat the same mistakes every time you apologize. Someone once told me, "You can't forever apologize because of the same mistake."

Done. I just miss the kitten so much, but it seems I'm not showing it at all. I don't know whether I am in the right body anyway. I just hope she's okay now.

Dear Tiger Hwang Jini,
I was your mommy for 4 days.
We treated you like a family.
You bring the light in this house.
I'm gonna miss kissing you before I get to sleep.

P.S. Sarang hae

Maybe it's just me

2010-01-21T22:26:00.006+08:00

Listening to: Maybe by Secondhand Serenade

Listening to songs from the same album, is totally depressing. Their songs have emotional lyrics and saddening music. *sigh*

What have I really been up to lately? No one knows. That's good though.
Anyway, this photo caught my eye. Guess who's the owner. ;)

Porsche Panamera

that hot stuff belongs to,
this hot "stuff". ;P

How coincidence. Park Yoochun loves Porsche too! YAY! Oppa, sarang hae. ;) Miss those guys. :(

For now, 2PM guys had been entertaining me with their crazy and adorable characters, plus their addictive songs. Totally in love with these guys now. Kept watching Taec's hidden camera over and over again. ;) I adore that guy. About the netizens bothering him at his minihompy, it totally annoys me, but somehow netizens really had control on the net, so it's hard to fight over them. But Taec is brave anyway. ;D Stay strong yow, I support you!

Jay should really come back quickly.
His jokes and madness are medicine for my depression. :D
I might not know him much but I know he'll come back.

Seeing 2PM's craziness, I recalled back TVXQ when they first started and when their popularity starts to arise. Damn, I seriously miss them. I want them back in Korea. I mean, performing their music in Korea. Together of course. It has become on of my wishes now. Anyway, for now, let's just pray for Junsu to get well soon. He must be working hard for the musical. Tickets were sold out, I'm sure the musical is gonna be amazing. If only I could be there to cheer for him too. Owh, can't wait for Changmin's drama too. He has been working hard. too (: Lee Yeon Hee is pretty btw!

watch out world, TVXQ's comeback is gonna be the hottest comeback!

For now, I just felt like hugging this guy tightly to ease away the pain he's going through.

aigoo. oppa~ *hugs*
crybaby,
it's gonna be okay my love. ;)

P.S. Sarang hae.